Okay, so I've decided to focus on one at a time. I am going to finish this one in a few more chapters hopefully. I have several new ideas and I want to be able to give them my full attention and can't do that with lots of stories open. I have three right now I need to finish up so hopefully the updates will be coming fast and furious so keep reading and reviewing.

Chapter 11 Reality

A few hours later

Emily pushed open the door to the hospital room. She noticed Lia asleep in the bed and Duff sitting in a chair next to her. His head in his hands crying. Matt walked over and put a hand on the man's shoulder. Duff looked up and was embarassed at being caught in such a vulnerable position.

"Hey man, why don't we go and grab some coffee. Maybe go for a walk and talk." Matt said as he hugged the younger man who had stood.

"I don't want to leave her." Duff replied pointing to Lia.

"Em will stay here. You need to get out of here for a little while. It will be good for you both." Matt answered looking at Emily for help.

"Yeah Duff and when she wakes up, I'll call you. I want to talk to her about something anyway." Emily stated hugging Matt and placing a kiss on his cheek as she pushed the two men out the door.

"Thank you." Lia whispered in a voice that Emily almost didn't hear.

"Lia? You're awake?" Emily questioned as Lia moved to sit up in bed.

"Yes. I was pretending to be asleep so he would stop." Lia confessed.

"Yeah, he's kind of like a helicopter...you know hovering over you. It's sweet. Matt's been like that since we found out and it's really annoying, but can I tell you a secret?" Emily asked grinning.

"Of course. You know I love secrets." Lia responded knowing this would be a juicy detail into Matt and Emily's love life.

"I like it. I like that Matt hovers. I like knowing that he cares so much that he feels like he can't breathe without he me. That he needs to be near me, that he loves me so much that he would sacrifice anything for me. It's really sweet. Now that could be the hormones talking and if you tell anyone, I will deny it, but It makes me appreciate him so much more. I love him." Emily told her causing Lia's look of shock that the tough FBI agent was really sentimental inside.

"Well that's surprising. Emily, I don't know what to do or how to feel." Lia confessed.

"Do you want to talk about it?" Emily questuoned taking the chair that Duff had vacated earlier.

"Yes and no. I mean I know I need to, but I'm ashamed."

"What are you ashamed of?" Emily asked turing on negotiator mode.

"I'm sad, but I'm also relieved. I wasn't ready for this. I mean Duff and I are just fooling around. He told me for the first time he loved me the night I told him about the baby. Emily we weren't ready for this, and I shouldn't feel this way." Lia told her friend before continuing, "I know Duff said he wanted this baby, but we barely know anything about each other. We were not ready to have a baby and so in a way I'm glad this happened. You know what I mean?"

"Actually I do Lia." Emily took a deep breath before adding, "I was pregnant once before. I met a guy and we dated for almost a year. I never wanted kids and neither did he. He told me he loved me and all rational thinking went out the window. I told him I loved him too even though I knew I really didn't. We kept our relationship very superficial. We never told anything about our families and rarely said anything that would be deemed personal. We had sex one night and the condom broke. I found out I was pregnant a month later. I told him and he split. So much for love. I haven't seen him since. I thought about adoption and abortion but knew that I had to raise that baby on my own. I was about two and a half months pregnant when I had a miscarriage. Yes I was greatful because I didn't want the baby really, but I also felt like I failed myself. I decided then and there that I would never put myself in that position again and that I would never have kids. That's why I'm not good at sharing my emotions. Then I met Matt and everything changed. I am getting a second chance at something and this time I know it's right. I wasn't ready that first time and I know that, but now...now that I truly love Matt and that we both want this baby so badly I will do anything I can to protect it."

Both ladies had tears in their eyes. Lia took Emily's hand knowing that her friend had revealed much more of herself than she ever had before.

"Emily, I'm sorry. I had no idea. I won't say a word to Matt." Lia said handing Emily a tissue.

"It's okay. Matt knows. I told him on the way over her I'm not sure if it's the hormones or what but I've revealed a lot to him lately. I wanted you to know because I know how it feels when people say 'I know how you feel' and they really don't, but I do and you can talk to me about it." Emily replied wiping her eyes.

"Thanks Em. I need that. I know how hard that was for you to tell me. I hope Duff is as understanding as Matt seems to be lately."

Hospital Cafeteria

Matt and Duff each ordered drinks from the Starbucks near the cafeteria. They sat at a corner table away from other patrons sipping their drinks neither one sure of where to begin the conversation. Finally Matt began.

"Duff, man. I'm sorry about this. I know that it's not easy to loose a baby." Matt stated suddenly finding his cup very interesting.

"What do you mean you know it's not easy. Have you ever lost a baby?" Duff questioned not realizing Matt knew exactly what he was feeling.

"Yes. I have." Matt said softly.

"What? You mean you and Em?" Duff asked shocked.

"No. Not me and Em. Okay listen, I haven't told anyone this so it's just between you and me. I mean Emily knows of course, but no one else does. Got it." Matt replied looking the man directly in the eyes to emphasize his point.

"Got it man." Duff answered leaning back in his chair trying to figure out if Matt was for real.

"So I was in high school and my girlfriend told me she was pregnant. We were young and stupid. We fought a lot about what to do. I didn't tell my dad because I didn't want the lecture and at that point we were really only talking when he pointed out everything I was doing wrong. She was afraid to tell her parents because they wouldn't exactly approve of their daughter having sex. So after about a month where we were barely talking she came up to me and said we needed to talk. She told me she was bleeding badly and needed to see a doctor. We skipped school and went to a clinic downtown and they told us she was having a miscarriage. We broke up after that." Matt finished.

"Wow, I never would have thought that. And you told Emily this? She didn't leave you?" Duff asked astounded that Lehman would take that information so calmly.

"She knows it all. The thing is Duff is that it was the right thing. Neither one of us wanted the baby and we weren't ready. Emily and I are so different. I love Em and have never wanted anything more in my life. Duff she is my life and the fact that she's having my baby makes me happier than I have ever been. If you tell Frank any of this I will kill you so let's keep it between us, okay?" Matt told him before slapping him on the shoulder and standing to leave.

"Okay. Matt thanks. I'm not sure Lia and I were ready for this either. We both kind of got caught up in the moment I think, but I have realized that I do love her." Duff replied.

"Let's get back up to the girls, I can feel that Em is missing me." Matt smiled as the pair walked back to Lia's room.