Ch 59

"My mom and I were able to reconcile our relationship. She accepted Trunks as someone I love and care about. It's just hard to move on from her passing. It felt so quick, and I thought I would have more years to spend with her."

"You feelings are understandable Goten. It hasn't been long since her passing," said the doctor. "You're still grieving her loss, but you should feel good that you were able to mend your relationship before she died. She wouldn't want you to mourn her forever. It sounds like from what you've told me about your mother that she would want you to be happy and live your life."

"True. What I really regret is not being able to fix things with my grandpa. He died with hatred for me, and I was there when he killed himself. I'm not sure how to get passed that."

"He had his own demons it sounds like. They weren't yours to conquer. In the end I think he couldn't get passed them. He may not have liked the person you chose to love, but that was his problem, not yours."

"Before he knew about Trunks and I, he was a different person. He was happy and treated me well. I just wonder if he ever loved me at all or was it just the person he envisioned I'd grow up to be?"

"Yes, I believe he did love you Goten," said the doctor. "He may have claimed to hate you because of the choices you made in your life but in anger sometimes we say things we don't mean. Your grandpa was sick. It's possible he channeled his anger at you because he didn't like being sick."

"Um well actually my grandpa was a traditionalist. He believed in the husband, wife, children, and white picket fence."

"It doesn't mean he didn't love you Goten. You've spent years with the man, and he was there for you and loved you."

"Yeah, up to a point," said Trunks as he shook his head. "It's unacceptable to love your blood and then turn on them once you find out something you don't like about them. You're suppose to love your family unconditionally."

"Trunks, it's not always that simple," said the doctor.

"That man put my mate through hell. I don't care if he was sick. You don't do that to someone you claim to love and care for," said Trunks as he felt Goten's hand on his knee, and Trunks felt himself calm down.

"I know it wasn't right that way he treated Trunks and I, but I can't hold onto my anger. It's too exhausting, and I have to find a way to move on."

"It starts with accepting what he's done to you, acknowledging the way he was, and understanding that his life was not in your control. You're in control of your life. You have the right to be happy."

Trunks and Goten waked out of the therapist office, heading to the parking lot and eventually to Trunks' car.

"Trunks?"

"I know I got a little heated in our session today. It won't happen again."

"I understand how you feel, but I can't hate him anymore. It takes up too much of my energy. You need to learn how to let go of the things from your past that are holding you down."

Trunks sighed. "It's hard to let go, but I guess I need to talk to my parents."

"I agree," Goten smiled as he got in the car.

Sitting in the driver's seat, Trunks shut the door. Starting the car, he pulled out of the parking lot and headed home. The drive was silent.

"Do you want me to be with you when you talk to them?"

"No," Trunks smiled, "but I appreciate your offer. I have to do this on my own. Plus I don't think my father will take me seriously if you're there holding my hand."

Goten laughed. "Yeah, he'd definitely make fun of us but I would do it anyway, for you Trunks."

"Hey I thought I was the charming one," Trunks smiled.

"I learn from the best," Goten said and then they both laughed.

Pulling up to their home, Trunks parked and turned off the car. Looking over to his mate, he grabbed him by the shirt, kissed him passionately on the lips, and then let go him go.

"Wh—what was that for?" blushed Goten.

"We haven't slept in the same room or had sex for a while now. I really needed to do that chibi," said Trunks as he unbuckled his seatbelt and got out of the car, shutting the door behind him.

Goten did the same as he followed Trunks into their house. "I know it's been hard, no pun intended, but we can do this Trunks."

"You mean you can do this. It just seems like not having sex doesn't affect you at all."

"I do want to Trunks, but sex is not like breathing to me. It's like you need it to survive. There's more to a relationship then just sex."

"I wish sex wasn't like breathing to me, but there's something about you. When we connected physically, it was about you and me being on a level that only we can understand. The way you look, smell, and taste is just intoxicating. Ok, now I sound like I'm addicted to you."

"I love you," Goten said as he kissed him passionately.