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Chapter Eleven: Self-Pity & New Realizations

Warning: My story is rated Mature for a reason. This chapter will have a darker scene in it. Don't like it? Don't read it.

Kagome woke up in a somber mood, it seemed that her subconscious was not going to allow her to forget about her promised "Pity-Party" day. So instead of taking a shower and getting ready for the day, she just went into the bathroom brushed her teeth, used it, and went towards her closet to get herself some big comfortable clothes. She found on of Bank's old sweatshirts and decided to wear it for the day; it would comfort her for him. Looking down at herself she shall the small black silk shorts, Bank's white large hoody, and her large black fluffy slippers. She looked ridiculous, but she couldn't be paid to care anymore; not today. She grabbed her hip-bone long, black, silky, locks and pulled them to the top of her head in a large messy bun. She grabbed her black rimmed glasses and slid them on her face. She turned around to head downstairs, when she remembered.

Sesshomaru was still there, and he was staring right at her, watching her.

She cringed, and rolled her eyes. This was not supposed to happen, this was her day to catch up with everything; she owed this to herself. She sighed, and decided if he was ever going to leave her alone, she would at least have to kick him out...right?

"Sesshomaru, what are you still doing here?" She asked with complete distain.

"I wanted to apologize Angel."

"You said your 'sorrys' last night, there isn't much to say."

"Please Angel, forgive me. I don't know what came over me."

"I do, and I understand, you think all of this is my fault because I didn't act like some fucking robot, and bend to your every whim. Well get this through your head, Sesshomaru" She paused to make sure that she had all his attention she was only going to say this one time, and one time only. "I didn't ask for this, at all. I didn't ask for you to mark me, neither did I with Inuyasha, you both took it upon yourselves to put this shit on me. You did not have my consent. Therefore, if the two of you even want to have the slightest chance with me, things will be changing. I am not, let me repeat that for good measure, I am not going to tolerate being treated like a fucking doll. I am a person, with feelings, and a life. I will not be handled, by either of you. You both will not fucking touch me, unless I allow you too. I do not care what the hell you say, because I can very well choose Bankotsu right this minute, and you both will be shit out of luck. And the only, only fucking reason I am not doing that, is because it wouldn't be fair to him, to be stuck with me for the rest of his life, because he didn't choose this either."

She fought her emotions for a moment, looking down towards the ground, she knew what she was about to say. She didn't know how she really felt about it, because she didn't even know these two guys; who just showed up and started controlling her life, and herself. There was only one thing she was worried about right now, and that was making sure that they never did it again. Here goes.

Looking back up towards the man in question, she gasped and almost fell back on her ass to see him standing right before her, a mix of several different emotions in his eyes. Quickly she re-gathered herself, and stood her ground; she would not allow them to intimidate her into getting their ways. No, this shit was ending right now. Nothing short of a fierce determination entered her eyes like never before.

"I will consider all three of you, now that I have no other choice. I also know, that if I don't make my choice in these twelve months, that I would be mated to all three of you and that is not, not something that I am willing to allow happen. I am not going to make any final decisions right now because the others aren't here, and well I don't know them myself at the moment. But there is one thing that I do know." She looked him directly into his eyes making sure he understood, she was nothing but dead fucking serious. "I will not allow you or anything other man control me, or my life. I am my own fucking person, whether you like it or not. Because honestly, you both were the ones to mark me before you actually knew what kind of person I was, and I am a strong, independent person, and will never belong to someone other than myself. On that note, if you both want to get to know me, and me you then fine. We will do so, but if there is anything short of what my expectations are being, then I'll call it the fuck off and neither of you will be chosen."

Not once did she let her eyes stray from his, because if she let up he wouldn't take her seriously. And this is something that her life depended on at the moment; she was not willing to back away from this. It started with him, and it needed to end right here.

After what felt like an eternity, he finally nodded.

"Hn." He replied, and then he was gone.

Well if there was anything that Kagome had expected to happen, that was not one of them. It took her all of a couple minutes to regain her standing, her stomach reminded her of her original goal, and she proudly left her room; for once she felt her confidence coursing back through her veins. It felt incredible.

…

Many hours later, Kagome was still lounging around her home, when she decided to go into the garden out back, to think about what the hell she was going to do about her situation.

She needed to decide something.

With a quick trip up to her room, she grabbed her converse, and slipped them one without changing another thing about her 'get-away-outfit.' She was out in the gardens walking around within the next 15 minutes. She just walked about idly for a few, before laying back on a small hill by a lake, looking up towards the sky, she dug inside her mind for all the facts.

First, she needed to think about this seriously, and get rid of all her emotions; logical was the only answer for her right now. She knew this.

Now with that out of the way she started her internal interrogation.

She knew that she couldn't dread on the fact that she was in this situation because there was nothing that she could do about it anymore, and it was nothing but a drag to keep thinking about it. She only had twelve months to think about this, and she had no idea how she was going to get to know them in only such a short amount of time. This was something that she needed to consider, because now someone who was important to her was involved, and she didn't want to hurt him.

'Bankotsu.'

He has always been there for her, and yes, they had something that had happened between them in the past but she didn't think about it that way. He has always been there for her and there was not one thing in this entire world, which she wouldn't do for him. She already loved him, and for good measure to. He was everything to her. She didn't know what to think about the situation with him, and she surely didn't know how to take the situation with the mutts. One thing was starting to bug her though, and she knew that she needed to speak to him about this. What if the demons got mad and broke out on him if she didn't choose him, and what would happen to him? What is going to happen between them, and their friendship?

"Oh man, that entire mess is almost too much." She sighed

Next, this Inuyasha thing. Why in the hell did he take her all way out there in the middle of nowhere, just to mark her in front of Sesshomaru? She knew that they were brothers, is this some sort of pay back of some sort between the two? If so, then she was even more pissed that she was dragged into something like this. There was something there though, she knew she felt it, because she only acted that way with Inuyasha. Whenever they kissed, or he touched her; it was different. That is the reason she always pushed him away. She didn't really care if Sesshomaru kissed her, she knew that she didn't really have a choice, but there was something there that scared the shit outta her because she had no idea what it was.

She took a breath, and sat up while picking at the grass next to her.

She really didn't want to think too much on that factor, he fucked up yesterday by doing what he did. There was a lot that he would do before she ever let him get, even within a 10 foot radius from her. It was silly of her to believe she could keep him away even that far. Bank would help her, she wouldn't dare tell him what he did to her last night in the theater room, and those damn demons would be out in a flash. No, she would keep an eye on Inuyasha.

Now, Sesshomaru was something else altogether. He was the first one, he started everything. Technically Bank was the first one to mark her, but neither of them knew what had happened at the time. Neither of them knew what that mark even meant. So that wasn't something that she was going to count, the fact that it happened again, after the fact that she was reminded by those very same demons was something that she couldn't avoid, and now she needed to deal with. Sesshomaru seemed in the beginning that he just wanted to control her like she was another one of his toys that he could have, just because he was the one that wanted it. That was something that she had obviously fixed, but then it wasn't even a day before Inuyasha came and changed everything. In that short time though, she noticed that he was trying for her. He was actually trying to be a better person for her, and that was something that if she listened to how he was before, and well she had experienced it for herself; knew it meant a fuck ton.

She groaned.

This thinking shit, was not getting her anywhere, all she has done now was make everything more fucking confusing for herself. She, Kagome, was now in the biggest pickle that she knew, was going to be in for the rest of her life.

Maybe there could be a way that she could go about this entire thing, like a system or something. She giggled to herself. This entire situation was so fucking ridiculous. How in the hell gets intended to three demons in the span of a fucking week, well not even. She shook her head, feeling even more ridiculous. She stood up, and started walking around the edges of the lake, and watched as a couple of families of ducks, where on the side across the lake, while others where swimming in the middle. She stopped, and watched; intrigued.

The ducks that where in the lake, slowly started swimming over towards the edge of the lake, to then allow the ducks that were waiting by the sidelines, took their own turn into the lake for whatever the small body of water provided for them, and their families.

Then her eyes went wide, and she thought she might have become a genius in that one moment in time. She knew now how she was going to know the mutts. She knew how she might be able to survive this whole ordeal without losing her fucking noodles.

Squealing in happiness, she scared some of the ducks that were not fully aware of her presence. She giggled, and the turned around to walk back towards the house, to fed her bottomless stomach.

Only to collide with something hard, flailing backwards, she cried out as she awaited the hardness of the ground. She creaked open her right eye to only see herself, facing the lake, only lower to the ground. Then she realized that she was in someone's lap, and that only stunned her shock, then made it boil over where the words tumbled out of her mouth.

"What the fuck?!" Trying to look back towards the person only, to have that said person squeeze tighter onto her.

"Who is it?" She mumbled.

"Kitten."

She just groaned, why did he have to come here today?

"What do you want Inuyasha, please let go of me."

"Kitten, I wanted to apologize for my actions yesterday, but you need to realize something. You are mine, and I can do whatever I please with you. It might not have been appropriate for me to do in the middle of the room with everyone else in the room, but I had every right to touch what is mine."

There was no words that would come out of her mouth. Nothing, Nadda, Zip-bullshit, would come out. Her brain could not function through the thought that someone, no that Inuyasha, had just said those fucking words to her.

Inuyasha took her silence to be agreement, and he could not have been more relieved although he had expecting a fight with her, he was a little shocked to say so himself. She has never not put up a fight with him, so why wouldn't she now? He pondered over this for a couple minutes thinking about what could be wrong with her. When his thoughts came to a complete and utter stop.

"WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU JUST SAY!?"

There we go.

"You heard me Kagome."

"Go fuck yourself Inuyasha." She spat with as must as disgust she could muster into one sentence.

The next minute she found herself, on her back with Inuyasha on top of her, her hands above her head in a iron hold, with Inuyasha's eyes tinted pink, staring furiously at her.

"Now, Now, my Kitten, Why would I go and do something like that when I have you?"

She was in no mood for his shit, so thinking about whether she pushed a demon too far, was not in her current thoughts circling around her brain.

She spit right in his face, followed by a very colorful "Fuck you."

In the moment she was about to catch onto what was happening, her face stung as the back of his hand connected with her face. In the next moment, she was flipped around where her stomach was on the ground. Her hands still being held above her head, and the grip was only getting tighter. She would not let him believe her was affecting her. Like she said he could go fuck himself, she was not going to bow down to these fucking arrogant, shithead dogs.

But the moment she heard it, her entire world shattered. Everything, in her mind stopped; her world.

Inuyasha unzipped his jeans, and unbuckled his buckle. He pulled his cock out, making sure she was secured before, laying down on top of her, making sure that his member fell right down near her entrance was through her shorts.

"Now, Kitten." He purred into her ear, before licking the side of her ear. "I think that it is time you receive your punishment for all the shit you have pulled in the past couple of days."

Eyes now wide, she still didn't believe.

'He wouldn't.'

When she felt his fingers, exploring she took back her last thought. She screamed, "Stop! Get off!"

Growling, he let go of her hands, since she had no escape. Tightly, quickly, he slapped his hand over her mouth, and brought her head back lightly, so he could look into her eyes. Seeing her gazed filled with nothing but fear, he smirked.

"It is past the time, for you to understand to fear me wench." With that he harshly shoved a finger into her. She cried out into his hand, tears already starting to brim her eyes. He slowly started to move the finger in and out of her, loving the feel of her. When he was satisfied with the feel of her now wet heated core, he added another finger to her dismay. Doing the same motions until, he was again satisfied.

"You will be mine, even if I have to force the decision out of you." He growled, his beast threatening to spill off the edge any moment.

Tears where streaming down her face, as she screamed at him through his hand. He just chuckled darkly, and slid his fingers out of her. Wrapping his hand around his fully hardened dick he moved her shorts, and panties out of the way once more, he positioned himself at her core, her entrance. In one swift movement he was inside of her; not even stopping when he broke through her maidenhood.

He growled, and seized all movement once he buried himself inside of her deeply, all the way to the hilt. Kagome was screaming, struggling under him. He just pushed in, deeper if possible. She immediately stopped her movements.

He groaned. "You're so fucking tight my Kitten."

For everything that happened next was way too fast, and this was something that Kagome would be forever grateful for, however she just found that the situation now, was just that more dangerous.

Bankotsu had Inuyasha by the throat, dangling in the air, attempting to crush his wind pipe easily. Kagome screamed and got up off the ground where she had been abruptly flown across to. She ran over towards Bankotsu grabbing onto his arm trying to pull him away from Inuyasha.

"Bank stop! Put him down! He isn't worth it, Bank please!" Kagome cried

He didn't hear her he was too far gone, they were slowly taking him over and at this moment he was welcoming it.

She didn't know what to do, she looked into Bankotsu's eyes and slowly started to see the swirling beginning. Her eyes went wide, and there was only one thing she thought about at that moment.

'Stop him, dammit!'

She quickly ducked under his arm, and stood up on her tip-toes, she wrapped her arms around his neck, and pressed her lips onto his. She brought his face down towards her the minute she felt his loose his attention towards Inuyasha. She heard a thump behind her, and realized that he had dropped him the moment, she felt his arms wrap around her waist. He gripped her tightly to him, and groaned into the now two-sided heated kiss.

Almost out of breath she leaned away from him, too slowly open her eyes to look into his. They were normal, her Bank was looking back at her.

"Ka-Kagome?" He stuttered in a hushed whisper.

She just stared at him, she didn't know what to say, or know exactly why she did something like that. They slowly and hesitantly let go of each other.

Kagome turned around to where Inuyasha was laying, only to find him nowhere in sight.

'What the fuck has happened now?' She groaned to herself, as her fingers traced, her still warm, tingling lips.