Chapter 11

Midnight Feel-ups

Note: There is only a wee bit of sexual content in this one. I'm just putting a note here because I am just over cautious. It really is like nothing, I just want people to be warned.

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EPOV

"No, don't go. Bella, what's wrong?" I asked when I saw all the tears and heard her broken sobs. She didn't answer me, she just collapsed into me and passed out. Or at least I'm assuming that's what happened from the darkness under her closed eyes, and the body going slack. I hope she's not sick or anything.

I scooped Bella up in my arms and put her down on the bed. She was already in her pajamas so I put the covers over her. But, should I wake her up? Is it bad to let unconscious people stay blacked out and go to sleep? Oh God! I read something about this once but I couldn't remember it now. I started to panic, so I shook her to see if it would bring her back; nothing. I hope she isn't really sick, like having some kind of terminal illness and is dying. Oh God! Am I killing Bella by letting her sleep? I am officially freaking out. I think I should go pay a visit to Alice. She might know why Bella was so upset, at least. I ran down the hall to Alice's room and knocked on the door.

"Come in," Alice said in a shaky voice. I opened the door to see a weeping Alice sitting on the floor, wrapped in a blanket and holding a tissue box. She met my gaze and smiled weakly.

"Alice, are you okay?" I asked. I would ask about Bella later. Maybe they were crying for the same reason...

"Oh Edward! I'm a terrible friend. I guilt Bella into telling me things she doesn't want to, and then even though I can see how hard it is for her, I get mad that she never told me anything so important. She told me I would hate her for this, and I didn't believe her. But for a second right after she told me, I did hate her. I feel so bad; she just told me her deepest, most tragic secret, and I screamed at her. I screamed at her for not telling me and for what she did. She tells me how much of a horrible person she is, and I have to go and make her feel worse. Even after she tried to make it right, she still felt bad. I'm such a terrible, terrible friend. You must be ashamed to have me as a sister," Alice ranted and sobbed.

I think I got the gist of what was going on, but I didn't know what Bella had told Alice that had upset her. Was it about this Jacob Black? Was she married to him or something? I let my curiosity get the best of me.

"Alice, what was it that Bella told you? Can you tell me? Can I guess?" I started spouting the questions.

"No, Edward, I told Bella I wouldn't tell anyone, and I have already been horrible enough to her today. If she wants you to know, she'll tell you." She didn't say anything about the guess and I probably should have dropped it, but I couldn't.

"Is she sick? Dying? Is she married? Does she have a boyfriend? Did she kill someone?" I could go on and on, but some of the other inquiries I may not have wanted answers to. Jeez, I have a sick mind.

"No, no. Nothing like that at all. But seriously Edward, I can't tell you. And don't go asking her about it tonight, she's been through enough today," Alice said firmly.

What Alice said hurt me. What had Bella said about the date? My expression crumpled. "Oh Edward, I didn't mean it like that. I'm sure she had a lovely time with you. We just didn't get to talking about that. Were you guys really kissing in the car?" She asked excitedly. I rolled my eyes at her and started to walk away.

"You can ask her all that tomorrow after she gets some sleep." I was almost out the door when I heard her giggle. I turned around. "What Alice?" I asked, annoyed.

"Nothing," she said in a cute little voice, and kept giggling, looking me up and down. I didn't get it. "Oh, and nice earring. So that means Emmett won yet another bet." She laughed.

"Goodnight Alice," I said annoyed, and walked back to my room.

When I got back in, Bella still seemed to be out cold. I could tell she wasn't asleep because her breathing wasn't the same, so I tried again to get her to come to. Shaking her didn't work, so I went into the bathroom and got a cup and filled it with cold water. I walked back to the bed and splashed it in her face. She gasped sharply and sat up quickly, looking around for the source of the annoyance before finally settling on me.

"Sorry, I didn't know what to do after you fainted, and you weren't coming back." I smiled apologetically at her. She sighed and wiped her face dry with the sheet.

"It's okay. I tend to pass out when my body can't handle stress. My mind just shuts down... It's been a hard day. Thank you for taking me out. I really needed that, and I had a great time." She smiled tiredly at me.

I walked around to my side of the room where all my stuff was. I needed to change. But when I moved my leg the wrong way I suddenly felt a rush of cold air and froze. I looked over at Bella and her eyes where wide open in terror. She stared at my naked form and began to blush and she covered her eyes.

"Um, Edward I think you're missing something," She said shyly, her face red as it burned up.

"Shit," I said, and grabbed my towel and pants as I ran into the bathroom, giving her a clear view of my bare ass.

I heard her burst into laughter outside. Oh great. Did she think I was too small? I didn't think I was that small. Jacob Black must have to be over a foot long to make my penis look small. Or did she think my ass was weird? Maybe too white? I'm not the type of guy that gets tan, so I'm rather pale. Or maybe, she was just laughing at the funny situation. I threw on my pants and walked back out into the room, my face red. This brought on a whole new wave of laughter from Bella. I scowled at her a bit, but it was impossible for me to be mad at her.

"Oh, you think it's funny do you? Yeah, you laugh, you're fully clothed." And might I say, she looked quite nice in her white tank top and black shorts. They clung to her every curve. She stopped laughing and just smiled at me.

"I'm sorry Edward, just that look on your face when you realized your towel fell. It was priceless." She laughed some more and I couldn't stay mad at her.

"Yes, yes. Edward is oh so funny. I showed you mine, now you show me yours," I said in a joking manor, but I guess it wasn't that funny. Her face wore a shocked expression, and her intense gaze was locked onto mine.

"It was a joke Bella. I'm sorry that was inappropriate,"says the guy who just dropped his towel.

But then Bella did something that shocked me. She reached down to the bottom of her top and started to pull it up, slowly. I didn't fully grasp what she was doing until it was fully off, and Bella was sitting in front of me topless. I took a sharp intake of breath. Bella was still gazing intensely at me, but now I was staring at her bare chest. I guess she didn't wear a bra to bed. Her breasts had amazing tone and shape. It looked as if they were made to fit in my hands.

Bella reached up and cupped her hand behind my neck and pulled me close to her. She crashed her lips onto mine with a force that pulled my mind away from her breasts. This kiss started out much like our kiss earlier in the car, but this one soon became forceful. I became wrapped up in passion that I didn't even realize what I was doing. I licked her bottom lip, asking for entry at the same time as I brought my hand up and rested it on her left breast. She gasped into my mouth, forcing both our lips apart. Taking advantage, I thrust my tongue into her mouth, and began to massage her tongue as my hand started to massage her breast. We sat there tangled in passion, sucking and licking each other's tongues, with Bella rubbing her hands on my chest, feeling my muscles. It all felt so good. She was so soft and warm, and I never wanted this moment to end.

After a couple of minutes, Bella pulled away and grinned at me.

"Okay, now were even," she said overly gleeful, grinning like mad. She put her tank top back on and sighed contently as she lay back down on the bed. I lay down next to her, not giving her any space like I did last night. I wondered briefly if she thought we were moving too fast, but it felt so right to touch her and kiss her like that. We lay there in silence for a little while before Bella turned from her back, onto her side to face me.

She wasn't smiling but she didn't look sad or angry or confused. Her expression was firm. "I bet you want to know why I was crying," she stated in a serious voice. Crying? Oh, wait, yes, when she came in. Alice told me not to ask about this, and I didn't. If she wanted to talk about it, who was I to stop her?

"I have never told anyone about this before this night. I barely know you, yet I feel a strong connection to you. Take what happened a few minutes ago for example. I would have never done that with someone the day after I met them, but with you, I feel like I've known you my whole life. I really like you Edward, and since we are starting a relationship--I hope that's what we are doing..." she muttered before continuing, "I feel that you need to know this," Bella said, and took a deep breath.

"Of course this is a relationship Bella. Did you think that it was just a one-time thing? I really like you too, and I'm happy you feel like you can share things with me. But you don't have to if you're not comfortable with it. Like you said, you just met me." I don't know why I said it. I really wanted to know, so why am I trying to stop her? Why am I an idiot?

"No, Edward, it's okay. I want to." She smiled at me.

"I just gave all the details to Alice, but I think that maybe I will just give you the basics to save you the trouble. It's a really long story with the same outcome so I will shorten it a bit." We both laughed at that. Then she took a breath, and began her story.

"I had just turned 18 a few weeks before my parents died, and I was pretty happy. But when they died, I felt like I was alone in life. That night, I ended up having sex with my best friend, Jacob Black. I could tell it was the worst mistake of my life." She winced at this, and then sighed before continuing. I couldn't help but be shocked at this--Bella wasn't a virgin?! Oh wait, nevermind. I already knew that from Emmett's snooping.

"I wouldn't talk to Jacob, or see him anymore after that. I became pregnant, and I didn't want to tell him. I was too afraid of what he would say. So, nine months later, I had a little girl." She grinned now, some of the happiness that I had seen in her this morning beginning to show through. But I couldn't wrap my head around what she was saying...she had a daughter?!

"I didn't want to give her up, but I knew I couldn't handle being a mother. So, I left her at the hospital, and asked them to call Jacob. I left my baby there with a note saying her name was Roxanne, and she was our daughter. At this time, I still hadn't spoken to, or seen Jacob since the night that Roxanne was conceived. I started college a year late because when I was supposed to start, I was still pregnant. That's why I'm your age, but a year behind you in school." That explained very little of the questions that were now buzzing through my head.

Bella had a daughter...and it was her best friend, Jacob Black's. Crap. But I smiled at her when she looked wearily over at me, urging her to continue.

"So I figured I could just forget about Roxanne and Jacob, but every time I saw a baby, I was reminded of them. Last night, when you told me about the woman on the plane, I started thinking about my baby. I knew I had to do something about it. So this morning, I went to see Jacob and I met Roxy. After 5 years of no contact, and just leaving him with a kid, Jake wasn't even mad at me. Roxy wasn't even mad that I had left her. I was so happy to finally have my baby again. They both wanted me in her life. I told her that I would come to see her whenever I could this summer."

By now, Bella had finally let out the pent up air that seemed to have gathered in her, and she shifted on the bed. I hadn't realized that I had been stock still until she had moved, and I fixed my position, a little uncomfortable. I looked back at her dreamy expression and waited for her to continue.

"She told me she would call me every night before she went to bed. Tonight when I told you I was on the phone with my boss, it was really Roxy." She paused and looked up at me to see how I was taking it. My expression was blank.

"I have a daughter, yes I abandoned her, but I love her dearly and she is a part of who I am. I thought it only fair for you to know." She smiled at me and waited for my response.

That was…wow. Didn't see that coming.

AN: There you have it. Now both Edward and Alice know. I was going to put off telling Edward for later, but most people told me that it would be better if Edward found out sooner rather than later.

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