So i am currently lying in bed sick. It sucks but now i have time to write! i will try to put up another chapter tonight but if not then i probably fell asleep :DD As always please review and enjoy :DD
MPOV
Walking away from James I started to get a strange feeling, like maybe I did something wrong. I know I went there to tell him off but really what did he do wrong. Sure he kissed me but I definitely did not stop him. Really I should be blaming myself, right?
It is getting really cold out now and I am still nowhere close to being home. I am, however, close to Fang's house. Maybe he could give me a ride home.
Walking up to his door I start feeling guilty about leaving him on our date. Our first date. Shit, what was I thinking? Fang just opened the door and is staring at me with cold eyes.
"What are you doing here, Max? Shouldn't you be with James?" Ouch, that hurt but I know I deserved it so I let it go.
"I'm sorry I left, really. Maybe I should just go." I say as strongly as I can, just hoping that my voice doesn't show how badly I need him right now. My body, however, had different plans and right as I turned around I started to shake from the cold.
"Max, do you need a ride home?" Fang asked me and without turning around to look at him I nodded.
Sitting next to Fang should be the easiest thing in the world and it usually is, but right now it is causing me physical pain. I can't stand that I hurt him and I can feel my heart aching.
"Listen, I know that you are mad at me, and believe me I get it, but I really didn't mean to hurt you." I say, pouring all of the feelings I could find into that one simple statement.
After a long pause I started to think that he wouldn't respond but then he looked over at me and smiled. It was a real smile that lit up the world. Fang never smiled like that and I could feel my heart speeding up like crazy just looking at it. It felt good to have him stop looking at me with hatred in his eyes. The smile was gone as quickly as it came.
"I know Max. But when are you going to stop hurting me? Until I know for sure that it won't happen again I don't think I can do this. Maybe we should just go back to being friends." He glanced at me and smiled again but this one wasn't real. It was forced.
I could feel my heart seize up at his words and couldn't breathe. Fang just dumped me. We are now sitting in my driveway but I can't seem to remember how to move.
"You're serious? You don't want to be with me anymore? Even after…" I could feel the tears rush to my eyes at his rejection but I could not let him see that. No way was I going to let Fang see how much he just hurt me.
But why the hell won't this stupid door just open? After pushing on it for a while, Fang got out of the car and opened the door for her.
Shoving past Fang I ran into the house and up to my room. When I got there I slammed the door shut and just sat in the middle of my room. How could this be happening? Does Fang seriously think that we can just be friends again after this? Well I'll show him.
School was starting up again in two weeks and by then Fang will be wishing he never left me.
FPOV
Max's face as she left my car made me want to change my mind. She looked so heartbroken that my breath caught in my throat.
How could I do this to her? Then I remembered James. That cocky smile and the way he talked about her. I had to get things settled with him before I can be with Max. I can't just sit around pretending not to worry about her leaving me.
But then again I just left her. Crap, I'm just hurt her to avoid getting hurt myself. Some martyr I am. I know I should go back and talk to her but I can't bring myself to turn around. Knowing Max, she would kick me where the sun don't shine and slam the door in my face.
I have to try though, don't I? Otherwise she will think I don't love her anymore. Maybe she will even move on. Making my decision I spin my car around and head back to Max's house. I was determined to get Max to forgive me for what I just did.
That is until I saw the black Mercedes coming down the street. Max had called James.
Of course she would. I had been stupid to think otherwise. I mean she was with him before why not now that we are broken up. I stopped the car and pulled over to the side of the road to try and stop my hyperventilating.
I saw the whole thing as it happened. James walking up the drive, knocking on the door. Max opening the door with a smile on her face. James bending down to give her a kiss and Max letting him. Then he was inside, with the love of my life.
The smile on Max's face was clearly fake but that didn't matter. The only thing I care about is that not even an hour after I broke up with her she moved on. Max didn't love me.
Heading back to my house I feel terrible. I brought this on myself I know but for her to run to James? I don't understand. I am now dreading the start of school. I will be sitting there like an idiot while she goes on and on about her new boyfriend.
Never have I regretted something so much.
"Fang honey? Is that you?" My mom's voice called from the living room right as I walk in the door. Knowing I would have to face her sooner or later I walk in to greet her.
When she looks up at me her face turns to a worried expression.
"What's wrong, you can tell me. You look horrible." She said, her voice colored in worry.
"Gee thanks, I don't really feel like talking right now. Can we do this later?" I ask hoping desperately that she says yes. Right now I just want to be alone.
"It's not good to keep your emotions bottled up inside you, Fang. Please tell me. I won't even say anything afterword. I just need to know if you're okay." Of course you do. I reluctantly go sit on the couch next to my mom.
She still looks horrible even after a couple of days. Her bruises are starting to fade but they are a sickly yellow/green color right now. She still has stiches above her eye, which is completely swollen still, but she gets them out in a few days.
Avoiding eye contact I tell her what happened today. I said it in a rush and once I finished I glanced nervously at her face.
"Well that was dumb." My mom said simply. My jaw dropped and I looked incredulously at my mother. "Why would you dump her? Of course she's not going to sit around waiting for you now."
I stared blankly at my mom shocked that she would say that to me. And then I realized that every word of it was right. I really screwed up.
"What do I do?" I ask my mom in a small voice, looking at the corner of the room.
"You do the only thing you can do. You wait. Sooner or later this thing with James will end, but you have to be patient. In the meantime just be her friend. I know it sounds impossible but you two are best friends and you need each other even if you don't realize it."
I know that she is right but I can't stand to see her with that guy. I excuse myself and go up to my room. Even though it is only 9 o'clock I change and get into bed all the while knowing that there is no way I was going to be able to sleep tonight
MPOV
I watch as Fang drives out of the driveway and can't help but let the tears that I have been hiding slide down my face. How could Fang do this to me? I feel like a bomb has been shot straight at my chest and is just sitting there waiting to explode.
What am I supposed to do now? My mom should be home soon but I really don't know if I can be alone that long. I tried calling Nudge but she didn't answer her phone and I know that all of my other friends are still on vacation. The only other person I can think to call is James.
He picked up on the first ring and could tell I was upset. After telling him what happened he said he would be right over. But there was something in his voice that I didn't quite get. He sounded cheerful. I decided that I imagined it and waited impatiently for him to come.
Finally, I heard a knock on the door and I rushed up to get it, smiling despite myself at the fact that I wouldn't have to be alone. As I opened the door, James leaned down and gave me a light kiss and asked if I was okay. It felt good to have someone care.
When he walked into my living room I suddenly noticed how wrong this felt. James must have noticed my face drop because he gave me a cheerful look.
"Buck up, Max. Don't worry about that loser, you were too good for him anyway." That did it. I reached up and slapped him straight across the face. James put a hand to his cheek and gave me a shocked look. "What the hell was that for?"
"Don't talk about Fang like that." I say, anger filling each word I say.
"Alright fine, I'm sorry. I was just trying to cheer you up." He said, his voice concerned.
"Maybe you should go. This was a bad idea." At this I walked upstairs and shut my door behind me. After a little while, I have no idea how long, I heard his car rev up and I listened as the sound became distant.
So much for making Fang jealous. If couldn't even be civil to James, how was this going to work? No, I just have to show him how happy I am without him. It will be hard and take some acting but I can pull it off. I'm determined.
The last couple weeks of summer went by in a blur. Mom came home and although she was worried about my now permanent vacant expression, she didn't ask me what had happened. She knew me too well for that.
Now I am waiting outside Iggy's house so we can walk to school together, just like always. Once we leave here we will go to Nudge and then Fang.
Iggy is walking outside now. He has shaggy blonde hair and pale blue eyes. He is also at least 5 inches taller than me.
"Hey Ig." I say right before his two little siblings come crashing through the yard. Gazzy and Angel are 8 and 6 respectively and just about the cutest little kids you have ever met. I bend down and scoop them up into my arms kissing them both on the foreheads while hugging them.
"Hey guys! How's it going?" I say to my two favorite kids.
"Great Max! I missed you so much over the summer! We should have a sleepover soon." Angel says and I quickly agree. Angel is probably the most fitting name for this little girl. Her shoulder length hair is light, light blond and she has bright blue eyes. She also has a grace about her that no other 6 year old girl could possibly have.
When I agreed, Angel squealed and jumped into my arms wrapping her tiny ones around me.
"I missed you too, Max!" Gazzy yelled staring up at me. He has bright blue eyes just like his sister but his hair is a dark, sandy blond like his older brothers. You don't even want to know where he got the name Gazzy.
"I missed you guys too, sooo much!" I said letting Angel go and giving Gazzy a big bear hug. "But me and Iggy have to go to school now. I'll see you later okay guys?" I say and feel my heart tighten with joy as they both smile up at me in goodbye.
"Alright Ig. Let's go." I say and start walking down the street with him to Nudge's house.
She came running out of the house and starting telling me about her weekend immediately. I tried to tune her out as best as possible but with her words shooting at me a mile a minute I couldn't help but hear her say Fang's name.
"What was that?" I ask, stopping dead in my tracks.
"I said that I told everyone about you and Fang and they are ecstatic!" I felt my heart drop to my feet and suddenly I couldn't walk anymore. "Max, are you okay? I thought you didn't mind if people knew. I'm sorry." Nudge said with worry lining her face.
"Um yeah Nudge, but…" I said when I could finally talk but was cut off when Fang walked out of his house. He looked so happy and my heart turned to ice. Of course he looked happy, he didn't want to be with me and now he isn't.
Nudge must have noticed my expression and caught on because she quickly told Iggy to go walk with Fang while she talked to me.
"Max, I am so sorry. I had no idea. What the hell happened though? Last time I saw you guys you wouldn't stop making lovey-dovey looks at each other. It was disgusting."
"I don't know Nudge. Everything just got complicated I guess and he just… dumped me. He said he just wants to be friends with me and nothing more." I said to her but I was really staring at Fang's face. I could tell that his smile was forced as he talked to Iggy and I could have sworn he turned around to look at me on more than one occasion but I had to be wrong. He doesn't love me.
Just thinking those words and my heart started beating faster than ever. I must have been hyperventilating or something because Nudge quickly told me to breath. I tried but I could feel the tears burning in my eyes.
No, I would not let him see me like this. I said I was going to be strong gosh darn it and I will be.
Nudge was surprised by my sudden change in attitude but caught on right away and we walked right up to the other two.
"Good morning, Fang." I said in the most polite voice I could conjure up just hoping that my voice wouldn't betray me. It didn't. Score 1 for Maximum.
That is until he said, "It is isn't it?" In equally as strong a voice and then looked pointedly at me. "So how was your night Max, have any fun?"
Why would he ask me that? He should know more than anyone that I spent my night, alone in my room crying. Well he didn't know I was crying but still. That is unless he saw…
Damn. I can tell by the look in his eyes that I'm right. Fang saw James come over.
"Oh, you saw that huh? Were you spying on me? Most of the time when someone dumps another person they just leave. Since you don't care about me anymore why should it bother you anyway? You can't dump me and then pretend you care who I hang out with. You lost your say. And if you would have hung around long enough or maybe came to ask me what was going on, then maybe you would have seen him walking out of my house with his face bright pink and stinging." I said all of this while glaring at Fang. Except for one moment when he slipped up and looked shocked, his face was impassive the entire time. That is except for his eyes. He could never hide his emotions from me. I knew him to well. He was relieved that I wasn't with James, I could see that.
I turned around and starting walking again, not even realizing that we had stopped, until I noticed the others weren't following me.
Iggy was looking at Nudge with a look of utter confusion. Right. He didn't know what was going on. He just got home yesterday.
"Nudge you can fill him in later, but right now we are going to be late." I said in an exasperated voice and the others then started to follow me. Fang walking slightly behind the group so I couldn't see his face, but I refused to give him the satisfaction of turning around.
Walking on to school grounds I saw Ella sitting on our normal bench and couldn't help but run over to her. When she looked up and saw me she squealed and jumped up to hug me.
Ella is my half-sister who I haven't seen the entire summer. She was spending it with her dad in New York. I didn't realize how much I missed her until now. I leaned down and whispered into her ear. "We have a lot to talk about." And she gave me a look that I took to mean anytime. I smiled at her but even I could tell it wasn't real.
Ella has long, dark brown hair, unlike my light brown hair that is looking more and more blond every day. Her eyes, however are a rich chocolate color just like mine, a trait we both got from our mother. Ella looks just like mom, but the only thing that makes us seem related is our eyes.
This was Ella's freshman year along with Nudge while Iggy, Fang, and I were all going to be sophomores, which means we won't see each other that often but I was so glad she was back that I didn't care.
The others came over and there were hugs all around, except for Iggy. He got an awkward hand shake and then he gave Ellie a pat on the back. Strange, I would have to find out what was going on with them later.
We all compared schedules and I realized that I had all but two classes with Fang and my other ones were with a mix of other members of the group.
This was going to be a hell of a year.