Dear Diary,
Today I killed him. He looked so handsome. So carefree, as per usual. I just want to hold him. I want to feel his cold skin rub against mine. I imagine it would feel so rough and smell terrible.
Is it so wrong? Is it so wrong to love someone so much you'd murder for them? I see nothing wrong with that. Of course, nothing could ever defeat love, for love is the most powerful force in the world. Nothing will ever get in the way of my love for my dearest.
I don't know what to do, my stomach is just so full of butterflies. Maybe I'll talk to him tomorrow. It'll be scary, but I know he'll just love me. That's it then! Tomorrow for sure I'll kill them. I'll show him exactly what he means to me, and then we'll live happily together as a couple.
Please help me, Subaru. I'm hurting.
A new girl showed up to school. I don't know where she came from, but her and Subaru are already friends. That's so nice of him; showing her around the school on her first day. I already hate her.
I talked to the new girl. Her name is Emilia. She's so sweet. It's been a while since I've ever had a friend so I'm excited to hear her screams.
I DID IT!! I finally talked to Subaru! Just talking to him I could tell he was in love. Maybe someday we'll be married together!! Oh I can't wait for that day!
I invited Emilia over to my house today. She pleaded for me to stop, but I wouldn't. She's just so squirmy. Just like Subaru.
I've haven't gotten closer to Subaru. It must be something.
I still haven't confessed to Subaru. I don't know what it is I'm waiting for, but I just can't find it in myself to do it. Maybe I'll ask God for help, but I know he won't listen.
Everyone is so scared. No one wants to go outside anymore. I hope I had nothing to do with that.
The walls feel like they're closing in. I'm not sure how much longer I can stay in here! HELP ME!! SOMEOME PLEASE HELP ME!!!!