So I broke the update-everyday trend because I started another fanfiction on here. But hey, updating everyday is spoiling you- plus it means I have to remain a certain amount of chapters ahead and then it's like a chore- so no. But please, Enjoy.
Note: Back in Gwens POV. Note2: Thank you so much for Reviewing, I get so happy when I see someone reviews- I do a celebratory dance if no-one is around. I'm not joking.
Disclaimer~J. owns all the Harry potter characters still. It hasn't changed from the last chapter. Which is totally weird.
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Chapter 12: Day Number 5- ENOUGH!
It was day number 5 that Remus had been avoiding me and I think I'm going slightly crazy without the company of him and Lily.
How do I know this? I had climbed up onto a bookshelf hidden in the crack of the corridor and was waiting to jump Remus. If that doesn't spell CRAZY then I don't know what does.
I'd been chasing after him enough to know that after going to the great hall after dinner him and his marauders walk down here and disappear off somewhere.
I know this is bloody mad but I won't him to tell me what's going on, I want to talk to him, I want to tell him I'm sorry for whatever it was that I had done wrong. I want him to tell me WHAT I did wrong, I want him to talk to me, look at me, or even yell at me, hug me and , and – wait what was that?
I strained my ears and held my breath.
I heard footsteps and deep rumbling laughter coming from Sirius Black and James Potter. I strained my ears further and heard Remus' soft chuckle behind their loud ones. I clenched my fists suddenly realising that what I was doing was creepy and weird.
No, I don't care.
Good, too late to back out now anyway. They walked closer and I heard what they were saying.
'Did you see Malcolm's face?' That was James. I rolled my eyes still hidden from them by the wall.
'Prongs, we were there mate. Serves him right though. You don't take a marauder's girl' Sirius boomed.
'Well Lily isn't exactly Prong's-' Remus started before being cut off
'-Moony?' James asked lightly
'yes?'
'shut up.' James declared and continued in a dazed dreamy voice, 'One day Lily-flower and I will get married and have children.. Six children and-'
He was interrupted by wild laughter from his friends. Even I had to muffle a chuckle with my palm.
'Did you hear that?' Remus asked suddenly.
He'd heard me, he couldn't have- I barely made a sound and they were right across the corridor.
'No Remmypoo I didn't hear a thing' Sirius cooed at him.
'I thought I heard Gwen' Remus muttered so quietly I almost didn't hear it.
There was silence along the group and I heard them shuffle closer.
'You're loopy my dear Lupin' James sang. Then he said, 'You know you need some distraction. Excited for the next Full Moon?'
What? What are they talking about? They were almost beside me now.
Remus muttered, 'Ecstatic' sarcastically.
I was hiding behind a side in the wall when he walked past me. Luckily, He was walking closest to me with his fellow 'marauders' on the other side. I saw him, jumped from my hiding spot and tackled him by grabbing onto his arm and pinning him lightly to the wall.
'ARGHH!' Remus shouted. Then he looked at his attacker and saw it was me. 'Gwen?' the way he said my name did weird things to the pit of my stomach. Huh. I ignored it and grinned at him.
'Gotcha' I said my voice breathy from the jump.
The three other marauders were staring at me frozen but I wasn't going to blush and go away. That reminded me of why I was here. I looked back at Remus' face ready to speak but the sight silenced me..
He had a slow blush along his neck but his face was shocked his eyes guilty and something else. Then he beamed at me. I blinked slightly. What? Beaming? First he was avoiding me-now he's beaming?
There was a mutter from behind me, 'Moony…' It was a strict mutter packed with secret meaning from Sirius Black.
I turned slightly and glared at him then I turned back to Remus, still holding him to the wall and whispered:
'We need to talk.'
His smile faltered and he looked helplessly at the marauders and something unfathomable passed into his eyes… Fear? Worry? Regret?
What the hell Remus. Tell me you're secret. Tell me.
He looked back at me and muttered, 'I can't I have to go. I have to help Peter with his transfiguration homework.'
At my side his three friends nodded enthusiastically. Peter squeaked, 'Yeah, we have to do that now Remus'
Liars. 'Sirius can help him.' Sirius was just as good as Remus at transfiguration though he constantly pretended that he wasn't.
'No Sirius can't. Sirius has a date.' Sirius chimed in with a believable reason. I was about to drop it and walk off seeing it hopeless but then I narrowed my eyes and shook my head.
'I want to talk to you Remus.' My voice sounded sad even to me. Oh merlin. I recovered and hid my loneliness but before I could a 'Please' slipped out.
Remus just stared at me.
Peter jumped in, 'He doesn't want to talk to you Gwen'.
I didn't believe it. I looked at Remus who was glaring over my shoulder at his friends. He met my eyes for a second then looked down the hall. I waited for him to deny it, or at least lie and say that he was just going to be late and wanted to talk to me another time-like he always did. Then he did something that hit my chest hard; He gave a stiff jerk of his head, a nod.
It was true. Remus really didn't want to talk to me; he didn't want to be my friend anymore. This whole 'avoiding me' thing wasn't just to defend his secret and we wouldn't just go back to normal again and it wouldn't sort itself out on its own either. This was real. Remus didn't want me around anymore; he was trying to stop being friends with me slowly-subtly.
My face burned and my arm holding Remus went cold. Painfully cold. I dropped it quickly. I was pinning Remus to the wall when he didn't even want to talk to me. I'd had this little thought in my head that he didn't want to avoid me, but he had because of something Sirius had said. But now I realised I had been stupid.
I stepped back, I'm such an idiot. It felt like something heavy squashed my chest and my heart beat was going nuts drumming against my ribcage. i talk a deep breath and looked around me for any sign of escape.
He doesn't want to talk to you Gwen. He doesn't want to talk to you.
I wished the ground could swallow me up somehow. Eat me, murder me, and destroy my existence. I'd take anything to get away right now. I avoided looking at them and walked off.
When I turned the corner I was sprinting.
Oh dear. What have you done now?
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