A/N: Finished two chapter's today, but I'm still editing the 12th, I'm very sorry that my writing is so shitty in this chapter, my brain has an overload. I can't stop writing this thing! All reviews are welcome as always. ENJOY!

Disclaimer: I don't own Jar of Hearts by Christina Perri

Chapter 11

Ciel was in the process of being a good friend. He could talk to Alois about his relationship, and tell him that he should break up with Claude since this whole thing started because Alois wanted to get out of trouble, or he can respect his friend's decision and be happy for him. The second option would work if Claude wasn't Sebastian's brother. Would Ciel actually try to break off this relationship if it had nothing to do with Sebastian? Is he doing this because it was wrong or because of Sebastian. Why did it matter to him if Alois dated Claude. Claude was a different person from Sebastian, there was no way that he's an asshole. If he was, it would be for a different reason.

Ciel found that he has his friend's interest at heart, if Claude likes Alois than that's all the proof he needs. To know that his friend is in a real relationship with someone that cares for him. Even if this person was in his thirties, Alois can make his own decisions on who to date. Ciel knew that he can't see the principle unless he gets in trouble. That wasn't very much like him but he had to talk to Claude some way or another. He's never been in the principal's office in his life and the only time that he almost got in was when Sebastian moved to the school.

Ciel sat on the uncomfortable blue chairs that face the principal's office. The lady on the phone wasn't old, which surprised Ciel a little bit, she had a brown hair and a huge smile. Ciel didn't see the need to smile all the time since the kids who came here were bad. The wooden door opened and a blonde girl left the office making Ciel get nervous. He's never seen Claude before and all that controlled his mind was how much did he look like Sebastian. If they were anything alike, their personality or their character. He got up and walked with heavy steps and knocked slowly waiting for an answer. A low steady voice answered with a simple "Come in"

He opened the door and walked in without looking to the desk. He purposely avoided looking at Claude until the door was closed ad he was standing in front of the desk. Claude wore a black suit; he had broad shoulders just like Sebastian. They both had jet black hair, his hair was pushed back and he wore rectangular glasses over his honey colored eyes, they both had unusual eye color. His face was emotionless and calm, much like Sebastian. Claude gestured the boy to sit and he did. Ciel took the chance to speak before Claude can address the issue of why he's here.

"Can I ask you something Mr. Faustus?" He looked straight into the yellow eyes.

Claude kept his poker face "what would that be?"

Ciel cleared his throat and sweat gathered in his hands. "Do you care about Alois?" He asked with a firm tone.

Claude fixed his glasses and glanced away for a second. "That was very forward. Why are you asking such a question?"

The similarities between the two brothers disappeared by the minute "Because Alois is my best friend and I would like to know that you're not a pedophile who's using him for some sick fantasy" his problem was with Sebastian now, his mind was replying the events that happened to him and he needed to separate to two problems.

Claude almost smiled but his expression stayed the same "If you really care about your friend than you should be talking to him."

Ciel was intimated by the amount of confident Claude had even when he was doing something wrong. The way that both brothers made Ciel scared reminded him that they're really brothers. "You're the adult. You should have the mind to decide these things, you should know right from wrong"

"Are you suggesting that I don't?" He raised a brow

Ciel resisted the urge to hesitate "I'm not suggesting. This is wrong and you need to admit that. You're either serious about this or you're not. I will not stand by and watch Alois get hurt"

Claude took a deep breath "And what will you do if he gets hurt?" He dared Ciel to look him in the eyes and give an honest answer.

Ciel gave him just that "I will not think twice before calling the cops. Because I really would love to see you suffer" Claude saw that grudge in the boy's sapphires and he wondered if this was about him or something else.

The door was sent flying open and both males turned their attention to see the younger brother with surprised scarlets. "What the hell Ciel? I said I'll take care of it" he slammed the door and looked at Ciel, waiting for an answer.

Ciel got up and faced away from Claude "you didn't seem like you were doing anything"

Claude cut in to stop the boys "What is this about?"

They both turned to him and Sebastian spoke "you need to stop seeing Alois"

"Why am I being told what to do by two kids?" He asked amusingly

They both had the same annoyed expression on their face and Claude continued "my personal life has nothing to do with a student in the school" he looked at Ciel. "And I will not dictate it based on what my kid brother thinks"

Sebastian rushed to answer before Ciel does "He's walking trouble! Why are you wasting time with a kid?"

Ciel turned to him "would you stop insulting him at every chance you get?"

"You shouldn't even be here! This is a family matter" he yelled at the smaller boy

"This is no one's problem. It's not even a problem. If I hear one more word from either one about this you will get suspended." Claude stated firmly, making sure that no one can say anything after that.

Ciel's face turned red from anger. He can't have his best friend in a relationship with someone related to Sebastian. They both were assholes and they didn't hide it. "This family is as fucked up as it gets. Are you seriously planning on getting involved with a minor?" His nails dug into his flesh and his knuckles turned white "this whole thing started because Alois wanted a way out of trouble! He never liked you to begin with!" Ciel heard his own words and he slowly started to realize what his words would cause. How could he lose control like this, and possibly ruin his friend's relationship, the same friend that he said he cares about.

Sebastian turned to him and frowned in confusion but never got a chance to say anything when Claude opened his mouth "I said not another word. If you don't leave right now you'll get suspended...both of you"

Ciel didn't need to be told twice. He stormed out of the office without a thought. He knew Alois would hear about this. Claude would probably fight with him and the reason would be Ciel. If they break up, the reason would be Ciel. How can he face Alois if they do break up, will Alois talk to him, and will he forgive him. His mind wasn't going easy on him, he rather assume the worst because if he gets his hopes up then see Alois hurt, he won't be able to handle it.

Ciel couldn't be more right. The first thin that Alois said when he saw him was "What the hell!" Alois came storming in Ciel's house after he had a fight with Claude. Ciel had just a dropped a bomb, he told Claude that Alois is using him. The least thing Alois could do is punch Ciel is the face. He had just the biggest fight with Claude and was miserably kicked out. Alois couldn't lie so he just admitted the truth and hoped for the best. Claude ended up being angry for the first time and Alois couldn't help but go to the first person that crossed his mind when he was kicked out.

"I did not mean it, it just slipped out. Did you even know that he was Sebastian's older brother?" Ciel tried to defend himself.

Alois stood in front of the open door of Ciel's study "Yes and that has nothing to do with it. Claude is nothing like Sebastian"

Ciel stood from his chair and circled around the wooden desk "He's a lot like Sebastian. They both act like complete dicks. How can you be ok with dating him? Weren't you using him? Why do you care now?"

Alois almost blew up "I like him now! Is that very hard to believe? How can you ruin this for me Ciel?" His voice rose with every word.

"You can't like him, how can you like someone you're using?" Ciel questioned in disbelieve.

"I don't know, it happened, he's sweet to me, he treats me nicely, and he never lies to me. I like him Ciel, what's wrong with that? How stupid can you be? You know me; would I waste so much time if I was using someone?" Alois was about to cry and stopped himself.

Ciel's guilt grew by the minute "I would never try to hurt you on purpose Alois, but-"

"But nothing! This isn't about me, it's about Sebastian! You don't want to believe that he actually started liking you even if he was using you!" Alois finally exploded. He wasn't completely sure if this was what he wanted to say but he had to say something.

Ciel's eyes widened "Don't bring him into this, that asshole admitted using me and he was fine with it! You can't like someone you used; it's very simple"

"Don't bullshit me! You're scared just as always, you don't wanna admit that he liked you because if you do then you'll wanna be with him again and you're scared of getting hurt!" He exclaimed with his eyes never parting from the sapphire ones.

"This is not about him! I just didn't want to see you get hurt-"

"The only reason I got hurt now is you. I don't care how old he is! Get that through your head Ciel" Alois demanded with a near screaming tone.

Ciel flinched and stepped back, giving up because he knew that it's his fault. What he hated the most is the fact is Alois can still see through him even at a time like this. He lowered his eyes "I'm sorry. I just care for you and thought I was doing the right thing.."

"You can't just dumb all of these feeling on someone else" Alois started as he walked closer to his friend "You're hurt and you can't deal with all of the pain alone. You know I'm here for you, and because you chose to ignore that it ended up backfiring...on me."

Ciel turned around to avoid the blonde's eyes and walked to his desk "I'm not that weak Alois."

"But you're broken and it's clear as daylight. Why don't you just confront him? Tell him what a jerk he is and let him know" Alois suggested, not aware of the conversation between Ciel and Sebastian in the nurse's office.

"I don't want to talk about it, or about him. I'm really sorry for what I said and I hope you fix things with Claude"

Alois sighed, knowing that Ciel wasn't planning to change his mind no matter how much he pushed the issue. "I'll see you in school." That was the last thing he said before turning around and leaving the room with Ciel who was trying to stop himself from screaming at the top of his lungs.

Alois parked his car in the school's parking lot, his eyes too red to see straight and his mind lacking sleep in more ways than imaginable. He could skip school and avoid Claude but he wasn't about to repeat Ciel's mistakes. He had to talk to Claude and convince him that he's not using him anymore. The door of the passenger side opened and a tall figure slid in. Alois didn't seem surprised and simply waited for the other student to say something.

"What do you want Alois?" Sebastian asked with much annoyance.

Alois turned to him "The last thing I care about right now is what you think of me, so you will help me or I swear to god I'll make sure Ciel doesn't even look at you again"

Sebastian was more interested when he heard Ciel's name. "What do you mean?"

"I mean that we're both in the same boat and I need to get out of it as much as you do" he paused for breath and Sebastian noticed his red eyes "I need to get back with Claude and you're gonna help me. In return, I'll try.." He paused and repeated "try to make Ciel forgive you. I'm not guaranteeing anything because you fucked him up really bad, but I'll try."

Sebastian wasn't even going to think about it. If this meant getting Ciel to forgive him than he's on board. He cares for his brother even if Claude treated him like a kid, but Ciel was more important. Claude can make his own decisions and his own mistakes, if that involved Alois than he was ready to accept it as long as it meant getting the forgiveness he wanted.

"You fucking mean that?" He half questioned, his nerves getting the best in him.

"Yes, only if you promise to help me" he said clearly to make sure Sebastian understood "Ciel needs a closure and no one can give him that but you. It sounds messed up but you need to fix what you broke"

"Yes, yes, fine, I don't care, as long as he forgives me, you can fucking run away with Claude for all I care" he said with a little shock still in his system

"Good, all you have to do is make sure that neither Claude nor Ciel find out or we're both dead. Just follow what I tell you and we might get out of this hole" he sighed and murmured something to himself that Sebastian didn't hear.

"It doesn't feel nice huh? To be on the other side?"

"This is not the time you dick! You and Ciel are both teenagers which means that your chances are a lot better than mine" he seemed more hurt than angry "Claude can just replace me whenever he wants to" he finished with a lower tone, embarrassed to admit that fact.

"Then why did you get involved? These relationships never work anyway" Sebastian said emotionlessly.

"God! I already feel bad for whoever you'll end up marrying. How did you ever make any relationship work with that negativity?" Alois almost asked himself.

Sebastian looked at him and narrowed his eyes "I've never been in a relationship"

Alois' mouth was O shaped and he tried to look clam but failed "So you're a slut?"

Sebastian didn't seem ashamed to admit it "yeah, so?"

"Why am I even helping you?" He sighed "You get Ciel to forgive you and get out of his life, I swear if I see you trying to get him back it will not end will"

Sebastian opened his eyes "Fine! Calm down. It's like he's in love with me"

"Don't be so sure of that" Alois regretted the words as soon as they left his mouth. He closed his eyes and cursed himself silently. What were the chances of Sebastian not hearing that? He looked to see Sebastian staring at him, waiting for an explanation. "He's not in love with you, I promise"

"But you just said that he might be" Sebastian said with hope in every word

"That's not what I said" Alois tried to maneuver his way with words to save himself because he knew Sebastian wouldn't dream of giving up if he knew Ciel still have feelings for him.

"You implied it" Sebastian answered, aggravated. Wanting for Alois to give up already and admit what he knows.

"Implying is different from actually saying som-"

"God damn it Alois! Just say what you know" Sebastian yelled, making the smaller boy yelp.

Alois cleared his throat "I may not have seen Ciel in love before because he's been in love, but I know him enough to assume that he may actually have more feelings for you than he'd like to admit" he explained

"English Alois!" Sebastian demanded.

Alois sighed and looked annoyed "Alright! He still likes you, if he was over you he'd talk about you in front of me. That's how it happened with Lizzy and his other boyfriend. This time he's acting weird. He feels like if he talked about you than it's over and he's giving up...apparently he doesn't want that. He wants you to get your act together and fight for him." He looked away to give Sebastian some time to think about what he said.

Alois quickly added "it was really a dick move to go see him while you're drunk. I think that's what hurts him the most..." he paused than added in an 'it's obvious' tone "and the fact that you're not gay" he looked to see Sebastian glaring at him like he ready to snap his neck so he smiled "just a friendly reminder"

"I fucking know. I was just...nervous" he said awkwardly

"You get nervous?" He asked with a faked surprise. "So what? You should've told him. He would probably think it's the best thing ever, to know that he's not the only one who feels like an idiot"

Sebastian defended "why would he feel like an idiot?" He smiled to himself and whispered "he's the cutest thing ever"

Alois almost smiled but didn't to assure Sebastian that he didn't hear what he said. He suddenly became serious and looked into the sharp crimsons "Don't drink anymore, not if you wanna be on good terms with him."

He looked curious "why?" He doesn't remember that Ciel had told him the same thing the night he slept over.

"Well, I shouldn't tell you but we're partners in crime now so, here it goes, his aunt used to drink and hit him for no reason. She was a drunken bitch" he explained, feeling guilty.

Sebastian was curious again "why was he with his aunt?"

"If you really want to know that you could remember what happened that night" Alois said in an apologetic tone.

"Fine, do we have a deal then?" He asked with excitement flowing in his scarlets.

Alois nodded slowly and took a breath "and you better not hurt him again Sebastian." He said firmly, making all the excitement disappear but glimpse of happiness replaced it.

Angela was excited again since she just got a notification from MFY that said Ciel Phantomhive had an update. She hoped it was another one of his recorded violin pieces, she hasn't heard him play in too long and his last poem was too happy. That would be a positive things if she hadn't known about Sebastian and Ash's bet. She hoped that the poem wasn't about Sebastian because that would mean he liked him and she didn't want that.

She opened his profile and saw the title of the new poem that read 'Jar of Hearts' she sighed in a little disappointment but was still happy to see that he updated that fast. Maybe it was another love poem which meant Ciel was happy and that was what mattered. She scrolled down and started reading.

'I know I can't take one more step towards you. 'Cause all that's waiting is regret. Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore. You lost the love I loved the most. I learned to live half alive. And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

And it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
'Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back.'

She took a deep breath, just like his last poem was clear as day, this one didn't differ. Ciel was heartbroken, he was hurt and the only person who could do that was Sebastian. Was it her fault that it happened? Could she have stopped it if she said something? Will it make any difference if she said she's sorry?

"Hey Alois," Ciel started nervously "Does is bother you that you're always making me feel good but I don't do anything for you?" He asked without meeting the blue eyes.

"Where's this coming from?" Alois seemed distance as he flipped through the channels while laying on the big couch in Ciel's house.

The past few weeks were very hazy and similar. Sebastian would try to talk to Ciel and Ciel ignores him completely, always finding a way to run or an excuse to stay away. Sebastian never gave up which secretly made Ciel happy. He knew that he shouldn't but he couldn't help it. He felt wanted, the time and energy that Sebastian put into perusing him was enough to make any girl, and Ciel, blush.

"I always receive pleasure but never give it" Ciel admitted honestly while coming from behind the couch and looking at the blonde.

Alois turned to look at up at him "Since when do you care whether I get off or not?"

He turned red and heisted "It's just that...I mean...don't you ever-"

Alois cut him off with a smirk "Get horny from touching you? All the time...I just know how control myself" he bragged to tease the boy.

Ciel stood up straight and burned with embarrassment "What's that supposed to mean? I can control myself"

"Barely" Alois commented watching as the boy kept getting cuter as a pout found its way to his pink lips "I'm just teasing" he explained with a laugh.

"But.." Ciel started, not knowing how to put into words what he wants and convince Alois.

Alois sat up and finished the boy's thoughts with a smile "But this isn't about giving me pleasure, it's about giving pleasure generally"

Ciel answered quickly, while he had a little courage "Well, Sebastian said that I don't know how to please a man...I can't be bad at it, not again, this whole thing happened because I had no experience in sex" he explained shyly, avoiding the blue eyes.

Alois sighed as be got more relaxed "Have you ever given a head?" He asked casually.

Ciel looked confused and decided that the best course of action was to stay silent. The term was new to him but he figured it was sexual since this conversation can't go but one way.

Alois realized what a beginner Ciel was slightly rolled eyes, resisting the urge to shake Ciel and ask him how the hell can he be so oblivion "A blow job?" He asked a little irritated.

Ciel shook his head quickly "No"

"Then get on your knees" Alois suggested with a smirk like it was the most normal thing he can say.

Ciel was dragged into a sex shop that he never heard of, which wasn't a surprise, called Undertaker's. Ciel was embarrassed before even entering the place. Alois assured that it's normal as a lot of people visit these places and since Ciel wanted to know how to pleasure a man, this was the perfect place. He can get videos or magazines with great detail. There were also other things that can be bought, a lot of them were Alois' favorite before he started dating Claude, and now they were his favorite again because Claude wouldn't do anything sexual with him.

Ciel was greeted with the window free and barely lit medium sized shop. Nothing looked sexual in the place, it was just dark and had a lot of dark cloths covering the wall. A man with a long grey hair that covered his eyes stood behind a glass counter. He had a creepy smile and a scare dragging through nose. He dressed in black and had a black nails, which scared Ciel a little.

"New customer~" the man announced happily.

Alois walked over to him with his usual smile and Ciel followed while looking around curiously. "He's a virgin so don't be offended"

Ciel turned red and looked at him "Alois!" He didn't dare to look at the man who was staring at him, or at least he thought.

Undertaker placed his hands on the glass counter "how can I help you today~" he asked with the same tone

Alois answered quickly "he needs to learn some stuff before he have sex"

Ciel looked away, embarrassed that a stranger knows so much about him already.

"I have the perfect thing~" he stated happily before suddenly turning around and walking to a black curtain in the back. Ciel sighed in relief and was about to smack Alois when he was stopped.

"It's shorty pants!" An overly excited voice came from behind the two males as soon as Undertaker had left. They both turned their attention to see a tall male with a long blood red hair and rectangular glasses, he had green eyes and a wide seductive smile.

"Hello drama queen" Alois answered with a sarcastic tone that made Ciel look at him.

The red headed asked while walking closer "You really think I look like a queen?"

Ciel held back a laugh and Alois asked in a little confusion "Did you hear the first part of that sentence?"

The male rolled his eyes as he walked past them to sit on the counter and cross his legs "No, I usually don't listen whenever you start talking" he stated with a sigh. He looked at Ciel and purred "are you going to introduce us?" He asked Alois.

"Grell" came Undertaker's voice from behind the red head and all three males looked to the direction of the voice.

"Did you miss me?" Grell asked with a swirling finger around strand of hair.

Undertaker reached the counter and placed a DVD case on it, completely ignoring Grell's presence "this should help you little one~" he said looking at Ciel. Ciel nodded quickly and Alois took the wheel again "I need something too, and I wanna show him the back"

Undertaker's teeth showed when he had that creepy smile on his face again "Of course~" he tilted his head "if you see anything you like.." He was talking to Ciel "Don't hesitate"

Ciel was taken by the wrist around the counter and led into the black curtain that he assumed was the back. As soon as the two boys were gone and the two sets of eyes stopped following them, Grell sighed "it's not nice to ignore a customer" he said with a faked frown.

Undertaker looked at him without his smile "you are only considered a customer if you buy something"

Grell sighed over dramatically "you're just a sadist who enjoys torturing people"

"I don't consider you people either" he said casually.

"Take a hint! Did William call you today?" He asked excited.

"Which part of what you said was the hint? And no, he didn't" he sighed inwardly, hoping that this will be enough to make the boy leave.

"But he always calls you after school" he stated, disappointed.

"Maybe he got bored of being rejected every day after school" Undertaker was beginning to get angry and he hid it with sarcasm.

Grell frowned genuinely "don't hurt him like that, otherwise he'll be too broken to love anyone else" he said with seriousness.

"By anyone you mean yourself? He won't date a student Grell" Undertaker seemed bored like he had repeated himself enough times already

"Then I'll wait till I graduate, he can't refuse me when I'm eighteen" he wasn't sure but he thought that if he hoped for it enough it will happen

"Stop chasing a middle aged man and find someone your own age" Undertaker demanded, he seemed like a parent for a second and Grell flinched

He looked down "but he already slept with me once-"

"He was drunk and you took advantage of that" he cut the boy off without looking at him.

"Why are you so mean?" The red head jumped down and faced the tall man "I already tired dating someone my age and it didn't work"

Undertaker sighed "because you cheated"

He gave up and looked away "but I love him"

"You're too young to know about love"

"You don't seem like you know anything about it either! For some reason he's in love with you but you're so cold to him!" The boy exclaimed. His eyes burning with a mix of fear and anger.

"I'm not having this conversation, you're allowed to stay here as long as you don't talk about it" he said firmly. Not allowing a room for discussion.

"Fine, but I'm not giving up"

The next day of school had its toll on everyone. While it started like the usual for Ciel, it was very depressing for Sebastian. Sebastian showed up to school with a new look, one that involves a black eyes and a lot of cuts and bruises. Alois was the first one to see him. He was in the parking lot getting out of his car when he saw the male wearing a black hoodie that covered half of his face. When Alois recognized him, barely, all he saw was the cut he had on his lip. The hood was removed and Alois gasped when he saw his face all beaten up. After a lot of questioning it turns out that it's not just his face that's beaten up. Alois refused to let it go like Sebastian wanted. Someone doesn't show up to look looking like a clown and says to let it go. Before any other student was able to see Sebastian, he told Alois what caused all of this. After Sebastian was stuck with paying the 300 Ash owed to Aleister, a part of the bet that neither Ciel or Alois new about, Sebastian didn't have the money ready and it's been over a month. Aleister wasn't very patient and he warned Sebastian once before he went through with his threat. Now, Sebastian still has to pay the money but if he doesn't he might lose an eye the next time.

Alois asked Sebastian why did he come to school like this and the answer was a simple name, Claude. The man had strict rules about school and how Sebastian's life should be handled. Sebastian had no say in anything and his job was to smile and nod all the time. The parts of the boy's life that Claude didn't know about were his smoking, drinking, and his newly discovered sexual orientation. He did a good job hiding all these from his brother but if the problem escalates to drugs, he knew he would be buried alive.

The rest of the day went as followed, Aleister went after Ash for his money and Ash didn't have it just like Sebastian but he didn't get the same treatment because they were on school grounds. Aleister settled for a warning and that he didn't care who gets his money as long as he gets it. Ash, and his inner coward, went to the principal's office and decided that if he was going to get beaten up next he rather have a choice in the matter so he told the principle that Aleister is dealing with drugs and he was trying to sell it to him. Aleister was called into the principal's office where he refused to admit the truth until his locker was searched and a small stash was found in his book bag. Aleister doesn't know that the person who snitched him was Ash and instead thought it was Sebastian, who did it as revenge for the beaten. Aleister said that Sebastian is buying drugs from him and Sebastian is called privately to see Claude, he tried to explain himself but Claude thought it was a far-fetched story.

By the end of the day both Aleister Chamber and Sebastian Michaelis were expelled from West high and Sebastian had an extra punishment seeing as this is his second time being expelled in the same year. Claude told him that he has until the end of the month to find a job because he's cutting him off completely and from then he has to pay for his own food and shelter. He was not allowed to ask for money from Claude or any kind of help. He said that if Sebastian wanted to be treated like an adult he'll give him what he wants.

The day ended and Ciel was dying to ask Sebastian if he was ok, not realizing the bigger problem he was in. Alois couldn't tell him because he couldn't say that he's now friends with Sebastian. So he kept his mouth shut and watched his friend ate himself from inside out. He was also not aware of Claude decision but that wasn't going to last long. Sebastian was bound to tell him sooner or later, because he knew that if Claude was happy he would be happy. The only way for Claude to be happy is to get back with Alois.