Chapter Eleven

EM POV

"I can get in through the window." I tell Bella as we stand on the side of her house.

"Are you crazy? You can't make it up there."

"Oh please. I got mad skills. Just watch me" I grin. "Go inside and I will climb up the tree."

"Alright" she sighs. "But if you break your neck, I am not dragging you to the hospital."

Like I could hurt myself. "Fair enough." I tell her.

I kiss her cheek once before she goes into the house and she blushes. I can hear her talking to Charlie for a few minutes so I decide that it's better if I go up now. I jump up onto a thick branch in the tree and I slide open her window.

Easy as pie.

I jump in and make myself comfortable on her bed as I wait for her. If I sat in her rocking chair, I'd be too much like Edward.

This isn't good. I've betrayed him. My own brother. I've betrayed my Rosie, too. My own wife.

I don't know what came over me. As soon as Bella told me about my family banning her for the time being, I wanted to flip out.

I know we've all been having problems lately. When Bella got amnesia, we were all devastated and when Edward realized there could be a chance that she wouldn't ever remember him, it killed him even more.

Then when Alice showed up with Bella at our house… it was not what I had expected. Not what I expected at all. Edward was hiding out in his room, trying to put a safe distance between Bella and himself. I knew that. He wouldn't come downstairs but he would listen.

He doesn't know if he will cry or worse… get on his hands and knees and beg her to remember him. The man is a wreck.

It was the first time since we've all seen her since the accident. Edward pretends we don't know when he visits her at night… we all keep those thoughts to her ourselves. He watches her sleep just like he used to but this time when she mumbles in her sleep, it isn't his name.

When Bella saw me that day and she started to drool… the whole room was filled with a good amount of lust. I wanted to jump Rosalie for a second. Everyone was begging Jasper to rein in his emotions. We didn't know what was happening.

That's when we realized…Turns out Bella was so attracted to me that Jasper almost doubled over from shock. He was hit so fast and so hard, he almost couldn't contain it for that one moment.

I was so stunned to know that what she was feeling was for me. She's my Belly… my little sister… a sister who did not remember me and saw me as her brother… as sick as that sounds.

Well it's not like that anymore.

Upstairs Edward realized what was happening and I can only imagine what was going through his mind. But when she asked who Edward was, he went crazy. All of our dead hearts went out to him in that split second. We heard every single word that came out of his mouth as he cried out in agony.

To know what happened to the love of his life and then to actually witness it first hand… I would kill myself if my Rosie could never remember me. I felt guilty for something I had no control over.

Well I sure as hell feel guilty now. I kissed my brothers girlfriend. Does that count if she doesn't know who she is?

I'd ask but… I don't think it would turn out too good. Rosalie would cut of my balls if she found out.

When I kissed Bella though, it was mind blowing. Bella's lips were warm and this strange emotion came over me. It was stronger than anything I have ever felt.

No. I can't do this.

I have to push these thoughts aside. Rosalie is my mate just as Bella is Edward's. She may not see it now but she will.

Why cant things be easy? Why can't me and Bella hang out and play HALO like we used to?

Why couldn't she have remembered me? Maybe even just Edward...

Damn amnesia.

"Emmett. You scared the crap out of me." Bella raises a hand to her heart to slow it down while walking into the room.

I watch her as she strolls over and cuddles up against my side on the bed. I weave my hands through her mahogany hair. "Your hair is so soft" I murmur.

"I know" she giggles. "So…"

"Bella. I-I- love my Rosalie. You know that. You have to know that." I plead with her. I don't know why I feel the need to do it, but I do. "I can't hurt her."

"I know." She says quietly, looking anywhere but at me. "She's the love of your life."

Rosalie is and always will be the love of my existence. 'Forever', we had promised each other.

"I made a promise to her, Bella. I don't know what came over me."

"Do you regret kissing me?" she asks suddenly.

Do I? "No, I don't think I do." I watch her lightly smile. "But, I think that's the problem. I need to be more caring."

"You already are caring." She tells me kindly. "You're strong and caring. You stuck up for me today."

"And I will continue to do that… if and when you're wrong. My family was out of line, Belly. Edward is in pain and Rosalie is jealous. Remember she's territorial? Well Carlisle sees this and needs to defend that, but they shouldn't have put you out. Carlisle's motives aren't always right. I remember when I was a...a kid and the things he was explaining… 'Being responsible and blah blah blah'. I was like 'are you kidding me? I am what I am! I'm going to roll with it! Hell yeah.'"

We both chuckle at that.

"It's true. I don't always agree with him. It's very rare but when I don't like what he's doing, I call him out on it."

"Okay."

"But we can't do this. It's not right."

"How do you know?" she looks up at me with her big doe eyes and I try not to drown in them. Have they ever been that deep?

Why am I just noticing all of this now?

"I have to go, Bella. I'm sorry."

"No you don't. Stay just a little while longer."

I'm sorry, Bella. I really am. "I can't, Belly."

"Then explain to your family… I'll be good. I just want to see you again. I'll even apologize to them all."

"You did nothing wrong." I tell her. "You found me sexy… which I am" I laugh.

"Emmett, I will only be your friend. I promise. Just kiss me one more time and I'll be done with it. I'll push aside everything. I have to anyway, right?"

Is she yanking my chain? Oh, well. One more kiss can't hurt.

I lean down and kiss her softly on the lips. Its sweet and tender and… nothing like how Rosalie kisses me.

Bella's kisses are tender and passionate.

Maybe it's a fluke? I can't stick around to find out.

With that last thought, I'm out of the bed and out her window, jumping onto her tree… at a human pace of course.

With one last glance at her, I jump down and head back home.

Where my wife awaits.

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