Long chapter to make up for the long wait :) R&R... Ideas welcome :)

Deeks thought Kensi might have been at her brother's death scene. He pulled up and walked through the bustling LAPD showing his badge to people here and there but Kensi wasn't there. Deeks walked out to his car to find Callen and Sam waiting next to his car. Deeks shook his head and rang Kensi.

'Kensi.' She answered.

'Kens it's Deeks where are you?' He asked turning around looking for her hoping she would show up behind him get in the car and tell him to hurry up and drive her to work. But she didn't.

He heard Kensi sigh on the other end. 'I'm sorry I forgot to call before work.' Callen motioned for Deeks to pass him the phone. He passed it over.

'Kens where are you?' He asked but the phone was silent. Callen rang Eric.

'Eric get an address on Kensi's phone.'

'On it.' Eric replied.

'Callen, her phone is off. I can't find it.'

'Thanks Eric.' And Callen hung up.

Deeks started his car and told the other to check all the GYM's in the area. They called each other an hour later.

'She isn't in any of them.' Sam said over the phone. 'It's as silent as a graveyard over this part of town she wouldn't have come here.' Sam said.

Realisation crashed over Deeks as he told Sam and Callen to meet him back at ops and he'd be back soon with Kensi. Deeks pulled up next to Kensi's car that was in the graveyard parking lot.

Deeks slowly approached her from behind. She glanced behind her at him.

'Are you okay?' He stood next to her reading the plague that had only his name.

'I'm fine.' She replied.

'Kensi, stop. Just stop lying and tell me what's wrong because that's what partners do.' Deeks said making her look at him.

'Honestly Deeks, I'm finding it hard to trust anyone. Callen hates me.' She turned away from him. 'See you at ops Deeks.' And she left with Deeks following after her.

Fifteen minutes later Kensi pulled up at ops to find Callen standing at the door.

'Where have you been?' He asked his arms folded.

'Out.' Kensi tried to push past him just as Deeks pulled up and walked forward.

'Leave her alone Callen.' Deeks said forcing his way past pulling Kensi along with him. They walked into ops Deeks holding her hand leading her to her desk. Sam glanced up but pretended not to notice the two agents holding hands. Deeks knew Kensi hadn't cried at her brother's grave but she couldn't hold it back anymore. She couldn't pretend everything was okay so as soon as she sat down she buried her face into her hands and cried. And for the first time wasn't caring who saw her. Callen leant against the wall watching her.

Deeks pulled her into him and for the first time she didn't protest or push away. She let him hold her as she cried.

Eventually Kensi pulled away grabbed her bag and mumbled 'I'll see you tomorrow.'

Callen followed her out. 'Kens.' He started. 'What Callen?' She asked tiredly throwing her bag into the back seat. 'Let's go for a drive.' He said opening his car door for her. She slammed her door shut and got into Callen's car he shut her door and walked around to his side. They drove in silence for five minutes before Callen started talking.

'What's going on Kensi?' Kensi's head was leaning against the window and she didn't look at him when she answered.

'I had a brother.' She whispered. 'I know Kens.' Callen said.

'What do you want to know then Callen?' She asked wondering if there was any point to their conversation.

'What happened with your brother Kensi? I want to know what's going on.' Callen turned onto a highway.

'Logan joined an assassin group six years ago and he told me. I told him he was stupid. He said he was good with a gun and may as well put it to good use, and that it was his life. Each month I would go and try to convince him out of it. One time I convinced him and her agreed. He rang his boss and said he wanted out but the boss said they don't do early retirement. Logan said he's had enough and refused to do any more jobs so he sent two guys around. Some of his finest but I was quicker and killed them both. They've been after me ever since. They found me at Logan's house yesterday. They smashed my head into a wall and shot Logan. Then I rang Deeks and I guess you know the rest.'

'Yeah I guess I do. I have another question. Why did you shoot him when he had surrendered? Kens you could have put our team in danger.'

'I know. I'm sorry. I wasn't thinking.' Kensi said.

'Not thinking? Kensi you're a special agent your trained to think on the spot. Why did you shoot him?!'

'You would do exactly the same thing Callen and you know it!' Kensi yelled back at him.

'No I wouldn't have Kensi; I would have handcuffed him and handed him over because that's what we're meant to do!'

'Just go back to ops Callen.' Kensi sighed resting her head back against the window. Callen pulled up at ops where Deeks and Sam were waiting for them. Sam raised an eyebrow at Callen who shook his head from inside the car. Kensi got out and slammed his door shut before getting into her own car and driving off.

'You've done it this time haven't you Callen? You can't keep yelling at her because she shot someone. You would have done it too and you know it.' Deeks walked past Callen and drove off.

'G, I know you're just looking out for her but you're going to have to forgive her at some point. She made a mistake. She's made many over her life but so have you. That's why she agreed to go for a drive. Because she thought you might get it, might understand. Kensi let down her walls for you tonight so don't abuse it. Night G.' Sam smiled at him and walked to his own car leaving Callen to his thoughts.