Chapter 11
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Ashley's Pov
It has been one week since I didn't hear from Carmen, which never happens even if I tell her to stay away from Kyla, Spencer and me. But to be honest, I'm worry about her. I know, you all going to say "ok, now I'm confuse, I thought she said that she was done with Carmen!",well not really. Because I grew up with her and I helped her going through a lot after her mom committed a suicide. After that she tried to kill herself, I make her a promise that I wasn't going to tell anyone because anyway she asked me too. I groan and rub my forehead and lean my head on the edge of the couch, where I get interrupted by my two daughters yelling at each other. When they spot me, Amanda lower her voice and starts to calm down but not Amy. Amanda walks toward me and sat beside me, the other one was about to walk away but I stop her with my strong voice.
"You are going to sit down right. Now!" I press on the two last words. She rolled her eyes before she joins me on the couch but sat far away from us. She glared at her sister who just ignores her.
"I'm giving you two, two seconds to explain to me what is going on !" I hiss, glancing between them.
"Ask her!" the yelled in union. I slam my hand on the end of the end of the couch, making my younger daughter jump.
"I'm not kidding, girls! Even since I got back from NY the two of you have been acting like this! So now, I want to know. Spit it, now!" I yell. Their eyes widened in shock.
"She hit Emma!" she blurted out before she glared at her sister. My eyes widened with madness.
"She did it first and what I did was an accident!" she argued back.
"You did what? Tell me that you kidding me!"I raise my voice and she flinched.
''I never meant to hurt her'' she mumbled.
"It wasn't a reason to slap her back! The fact you raised your hand on her, just make the things worst."
Amanda explained. Amy clenched her fists,I swear to god that she was ready to jump on her right now
but she knows that she couldn't do it.
"She hits me twice! So why are you defending her instead of your own sister!...And it's not like you were better than me in a relation!" she yelled. I watch the two of them arguing, I'll stop them when I'll have to. Amanda scoffed and laughed bitterly.
"you might be my sister but I think she is better at this than you...And unlike you, I have someone who I really care about and I don't end up hurting the one that I love!" she hissed. The room fell in silence, I stare at my daughter with madness before I turn to Amy who was ready to cry but she's too strong to let the tears fall. I can tell that Amanda regretted her words because she has a guilty face.
"Whoa! Amanda Carlin Davies! That was unacceptable what you just said, I didn't raise you to be a hypocrite...I want you to apologies right now!" I scream. She started shaking, staring at me in the eyes. She opened her mouth to say something to Amy but this one was faster than her. She stood up from the couch and stared angrily at her sister who just turns her head away with guilt in her eyes.
"Keep your apologies for yourself, sorella!'' she spit. Her eyes were wet but there was no tear that was falling. She started to walk away.
"Amy, get back over here right now!..."I yell but she didn't stop and keep walking to her room.
"Amy Carlin Da-"before I have the time to finish my sentence I hear her slamming the door from her room. Just to tell you that right now I wished that I had a punching bag in front of me so I can let out my emotions. I groan and turn to Amanda.
"Do you REALLY think that it was necessary for you to say something like that to your sister when you know what she's going through!" I ask harshly. She drops her head and fixed the floor.
"I'm sorry, mom" she mumbled. I walk close to her and grab her by the chin.
"I want you to look at me" she did even if she tried to avoid my eyes .I sigh because I don't want to be more angry at her right now so instead I take her in my arms, where she started to cry as always.
Amy's POV
I slam the door behind me and make sure that I lock it because I don't want to see my mom getting in here so she can tell me that my sister didn't meant to say any of this and .bla. I'm so sick of them about judging me and sick that my mom is taking her side. I groan angrily before I start to punch on my punching bag; it's one of the only things that can calm me down except for the weeds and alcohol. But now, I can't have any of this, I can't even go out! I punch with more force without stopping; angry after myself and the people around me, I can't control my anger now. Just as I went to throw another the punch,I hear a knock on my door and I groan angrily.
"I don't want to see you right now, mom!" I yell and continue to punch.
"Not even me?" I hear the familiar voice. I stop and chuckle to myself before I remove the gloves from my hands. I walk to the door and unlock it. My aunt was standing there with a little smile on her face before she get in, closing the door behind her.
"What's going here?" she asked curiously and joins me on the bed. I sigh and rub my temple.
"I got into a fight with Amanda early" I blurt out. She nodded her head.
"It was about Emma, isn't it?" she asked softly. I frown because I don't understand how come she knows about Emma and me!
"Who told you about that?" I ask curiously. She chuckled softly before she laid her head on my pillow.
"Ashley...she told me the day I showed up at the door...you know you don't need to hide anything from me, if you want to talk about something that is bordering you, I'm here for you" she said sincerely and squeezed my hand. I give her a force smile. I love my aunt Kyla, I feel like she's the only one who understand how to help me go through my problems. Even if she was miles away, we were always in contact, even when Katherine broke up with me.
"Of course she did! She never keeps her mouth shut!" I hiss and she glared at me.
"Don't talk like that about your mom. She loves you, she's just doing her role as a mother...And why Emma? I mean there's many other girls out here, why did you choose her if you knew that all this would cause problems?" she asked. I frown and try to think about my answer, of course I know why I choose her but at the same time I'm confuse about my choice. I reach my hand in my hair and sigh.
"Because I love her and she caught my attention...she's smart, beautiful, honest and many other words! I can't find another girl to compare to her" I explain. She eyed me carefully.
"Katherine...you also think about her the same way that you thinking about Emma and I will say...more than that, am I right?" she said. I open and close my mouth, trying to find the right words to defend myself but it was a bit hard. I didn't even realize how bad it was.
"I'm so lost, I don't even know who I want anymore...one day it's Emma, the other day Katherine!" I blurt out softly. She grabs me in her arms and pulls me closer to her body where I can cuddle.
"I know the feeling, hun...but maybe you need to be by yourself for a while to think about what you want before you exaggerate everything. You're stuck between two girls; one who is your ex and first love and the second who's your new lover...if you don't take the time to make the decision it will be too late for you!" she exclaimed. I look away from her eyes because she was right but for me it was way too late to fix the things because Emma can't even stand to look at me without getting angry.
"I DON'T want to be by myself, aunt Kyla! I need someone to be close to me and I don't care if it's Katherine or Emma. If I don't have any of them, I feel like my life is going to crash more and more!" I hiss softly. She shook her head and stared at me with her angry eyes.
"you can't say you don't care if it's your ex or Emma because we all know that if you end up with one of them you'll still stay confuse and lost about your choice...You can't have everything, Amy!" she hissed back. I roll my eyes and didn't say anything.
"Think about it, Amy and you'll see!...but one thing..."she started with a stern voice. I nod uncertainly.
"Don't go running after the girls to eat your pains away!" she warned. I want to roll my eyes but I couldn't, she was right.
"ok,I won't" I say, I was a lie and I don't even know why I said that. God save me please!
Spencer Pov
It been three weeks since I told my wife that we should go see a counselor to fix out problems but it looks like our problems were flying away alone. I was happy about it but even that I'm still worry about all this. When I walk into my office, I spot Michelle at her desk with her head in her hands and let me tell you that it looks like she not feeling well. I walk closer to her.
"Good morning!...bad night?" I ask carefully and she nodded.
"Yea...you can say that and now I'm extremely tired!" she explained as she rubs her temple. I frown because I can sense that there was something wrong but I'm a bit scare to ask. Fuck it, I'll ask, I need to know why my best friend is in this mood this morning!
"Are you sure that it's just about you being tired or there's something else?" I ask softly. She turned to look at me and I gasp in shock when I see the bruise beside her eyes that I clearly didn't saw when I walked in .I feel the anger growing through my veins.
"Who the hell did this to you?" I ask angrily as I check on the bruise. She flinched when I press too hard. She sighed and reached her hand in her hair.
"This morning around 3:45am,Carmen walked into the house wasted as hell...We started yelling on each other and that's when she told me about Kelsey, I was angry but I didn't show it...so when I tried to calm her down she punched me...she didn't meant to do it, believe me!" she explained softly as the tears roll down her eyes. I bit my lips softly because now I truthfully feel sorry for her because she has to deal with this entire all by herself. Carmen is her little sister and I know that if she can't do anything to help her, well things will get messy.
"She punched you for what exactly because I know it wasn't because of my sister!" I ask and sit on the desk. She groaned.
"About Kyla...I might have said something bad without thinking" she mumbled.
"Well, what did you tell her?"
"I told her that...Kyla will never live the rest of her life with a dirty cheater and a slut who can't keep her legs close ...And I informed her that she's getting married to Madison, not her" she blurted out, angry after herself. My eyes wide in shock because; one Kyla didn't say anything about that and two I can't believe that she's getting married.
"oh "was the only word I find. Stupid me, I know but what do you want me to say when all this has something to do with the girl I hate the most? She glared at me.
"really, Spencer? I was hoping to hear something better than a 'oh'"she hissed. And I can't help but scowl and crossed my arms across my chest.
"Not when this has something to do with Carmen! She fucked my life and Ashley's life, so right now I don't really feel any regrets for her!" I hiss back. She shook her head.
"I know that but she needs help! Any of this wouldn't have happen if my parents were still alive!" she said more softly. I look at her with a crazy look because I hope that she's kidding with me.
"There is NO WAY that I'm going to talk to your sister or anything like that!" I inform her with a harsh tone, knowing exactly what she was going to ask me.
"Please, Spencer, I know what she did was hurtful but I need you to try it with her...for me" she pleaded. I want to say yes, I really do but I can't. I'm not even friends with her.
"You should ask Ashley, not me...she's more close to her than I ever been and I think that only Ashley can get through her head." I answer with a sorry look. She sighed and nods her head sadly. Ashley is going to kill when she'll hear that.
Emma's POV
I missed her a lot but what she did to my heart is unacceptable. I thought that she was really serious about loving me, but I guess that I was too stupid to believe her words and fell in her trap. Every time I look at her, she makes me angry and I have the images of her and her ex half naked in her room. I never tell anyone this but I always cry before I go to bed because she possesses my mind and I can't get her out of here so easily. A few days after I broke up with her I started to hanging out with Stephan; he's a nice guy and I really like him but not to a point to date him. I walk toward the front door of the school where I spot Amy talking with another girl by her car. The girl was touching her arm and smiling at her. I can't help but stare at them with jealousy, hate and sadness; she really doesn't waste any time to get laid. It's the same girl that I saw with her at the club the other night. And she doesn't even have the age to be here. The girl saw me staring and smirked, I immediately glare at her. Just then Amy followed her gaze, we stares at each other for a few second until she broke the silence.
"Hi, I'm Effy...and I suppose you're Emma" she said with a cheeky smile. I look angrily at Amy who just shrugged her shoulders before i turn back to the bitch.
"I don't fucking know you, so get lost" I hiss. She chuckled softly.
"hmmm, someone is in a bad mood...being fucked and betrayed by someone you love really had a bad effect on you" she blurted out with a smirk. I wide my eyes with pure anger and sadness and I see Amy swallowing hard and tried to avoid my gaze. I clench my books over my chest, trying to hold back the tears but it wasn't so easy. What is she playing at? I whip my eyes with madness and turn to Amy, who tried to touch my arm but I push her hard enough to send her back on the wall. She stared at me in shock.
"Don't put your fuckin dirty hands on me...I'm so sick of you telling everyone about what happened!" I tell. She pulls away from the wall and walked closer to me but stopped when she saw the look that I was giving her.
"I didn't tell her anything, she figured this out all by herself!" she explains and I scoff.
"I really enjoy this game!" the brunette said with a big smile. I clench my fists, I really want to punch her but she was older than me and it's something that I wouldn't do.
"Effy! It's really not the time for your stupids jokes!" Amy warned. So her name is Effy! I see, well I hate her for sure. She laughed softly.
"Ok! I'll leave you to it...call me if you're up for another round" she winked before she gets into her car. I can't fuckin believe this! She really fucked this girl? Me, who thought that she really cares about me but all this, is a game for her. She clenched her eyes shut before she reopened them. I shook my head in disbelief.
"fuckin your ex twicewasn't enough so you fucked another girl who's older than you!" I raise my voice.
"Keep your voice down! And FYI I didn't sleep with her, she's just messing with you to get you more obsesses and angry." she fighter back.
"We'll, guess what I don't believe a words about what you just said!" I fire. She clenched her jaw and rubbed her temple.
"Why do you care with who I sleep with? You broke up with me, REMEMBER! So as far as I know I can have fun with whoever I want to!" she fired back. I can't believe she just said that right into my face, why did I fall in love with her again?
"Yes you right, I shouldn't care about this! It's the only thing you're good at so I'm not surprise to see why girls can't fall in love with you " I raise my voice. Her expression changed; she was more sad than angry.
"That's not true! You don't know anything about me...I'm trying to show you how much that I truly love you but you won't give me the chance to!" she yelled.
"That's because you never opened up to anybody! So how am I supposed to get to know you? You can't even be honest with yourself and how can you show me your love if you don't even do love!" I yell back and realize that now I'm crying. She pinched the bridge of her nose before she speaks.
"You know, I keep telling myself that if I show you how much that I love you and care about you, that you'll give me a chance to have you back...but I realize that it was just something that won't happen anytime soon, am I right?" she asked hardly, ignoring what I just said. I sigh and nod my head. She scoffed and started to laugh bitterly.
"I can't do this like that not after what you did! It's not fair to neither of us...I don't even trust you anymore!" I reply. She nodded her head and I can tell that she was obsessed about all this. She grabs her bag from the ground.
"Fine! If that's what you really want I'll live you alone...God knows why I wasted my time to run after you!" she said bitterly as the tears rolls down her cheeks. We hold our eyes into each other until I break the contact and walk away from her. When I was out of her view, I burst in tears again. This is so fucked up!
Amanda's POV
I groan when Megan pulled away from my lips only to see her staring somewhere else with a frown across her face. I follow her gaze and that's when I see Emma sitting on a bench, crying all by herself. I frown a bit before I grab Megan by the hand and we walked toward our best friend. Emma jumped and whipped her eyes rapidly when she saw us.
"What's wrong, Hun?" my girlfriend asked softly and sat beside her, wrapping her arms around her shoulders. She started sobbing again.
"I'm so sick about falling in love with someone who doesn't even care about me!" she hissed harshly. I clench my eyes and sigh because I know what she meant by that. I can't believe that I'm about to say that.
"She cares about you a lot. I know she hurts you but she truly regrets it!" I say and she laughed bitterly. Megan turned to look at me and bits her lips awkwardly.
"Well, she has a good way to show it after she fucked that girl from the club!" she said coldly. I raise my eyebrows because I don't think that my sister would have been stupid enough to leave with a girl just under Emma's eyes.
"I think there's must be a mistake! This girl is 4 years older than Am...And we can assure you that they didn't end the night together!" Megan added. Emma reached her hands in her hair and sighed.
"Ok! Let's say that she didn't sleep with her, then why I just saw this girl in the parking lot touching Amy and before she left she said call me if you're up for a second round!" she informed us sadly. God save me! Why do I always have to get involve in other people relationship!
"Look, don't mind this girl, she just want mess up your relation with Amy...Am loves you, just give her a chance" I say and she shook her head. I sigh and rub my temple, sometime I don't understand my best friend
"it's not so easy to give someone a second chance " I nod because I totally agree with this but still, if she can't move on after what happened then the things will get worst.
Amy's POV
I was late again for class but I didn't care. After the talk with Emma, I wasn't really in the mood to get in class but I decided against it. I look at myself in the mirror and sigh; my eyes were red because I cried a lot. Fuck it! I grab my bag and walk to class. As I walk through the door, everyone was too busy writing on a paper to notice me, except the teacher who gave me a disapproving look.
"Amy, when are you going to be serious about math?" she asked. I roll my eyes and open my mouth to speak but that bitch cut me in.
"she's not smart enough to understand anyway!" she replied and everyone laughed. I clench my teeth because I really want to slap this whore. The teacher glares at her.
"That's enough, Sam! I didn't ask you anything!" she hissed. The girl just rolled her eyes but I know that she wasn't done. See, this girl is a friend of Emma so now I understand why she's being a bitch with me. But what I don't understand is why it's always me who has to FEEL guilty in this story? I'm so sick about people thinking about me as if I was not good enough to anyone. I know Emma was in the room but she didn't dare to look at me.
"What? It's true...i don't event understand why her parents send her to school!...And in fact she didn't even protest about what I just said early" she blurted out and laughed again. Ok, now it's enough. I walk pass the teacher and slam my hands angrily on Sam's desk. The class jumped in shock, in the corner of my eyes I see Emma who has a scary look on her face.
"Listen, bitch...if you don't stop fucking with me, I'll fuckin make you pay for that!" I hiss loud enough for everyone to hear me. She gulped and nodded her head. The teacher didn't say anything because she knows that this girl like to get under my skin. She's my favorite teacher in the whole school. I pull away from her and walk to my desk. Nobody didn't dare to look at me after what they saw. For the rest of the time, I can't keep staring at Emma, if only it was possible to get change what happened and just moved on. I turn my head away rapidly when she daughter me staring, when she turned her head back I let out a groan. The school is over and now where are in vacations for two weeks, thank god! It's Christmas in two days and I really can't wait but at the same time I'm sad because I wished that Emma could be by my side but hélas, not happening. I walk outside of the school to my car and roll my eyes when I see who was sitting on top of it smoking a spliff. This girl is a case! When I get in front of my car, I get in front of her and block the sun and snatch the slide from her hand.
"You blocking the sun!" she said.
"You can't smoke drugs in the parking lot of the school...and what the hell are you doing here? I told you to leave me alone!" I say with a tired look and throw my bag in the back of my car by the window. She smirked and jumped out of the roof and stood in front of me, close enough to make me feel uncomfortable. She holds her gaze with mine like if she was trying to hypnotize me with her blue aqua eyes. She chuckled softly before she breaks the eye contact.
"Don't need to be moody, babe! I just came here because I need your help with something" she informed and I snort.
"I'm not your babe and why should I help you?" I ask angrily. She smirked again; I swear to god she's pissing me off when she does that. She take a step closer to me, her chest was touching mine, I swallow hard now this is awkward. She gave me a mischievous smile because I know she noticed that I wasn't comfortable.
"Because I'm doing a Xmas party at my club before Xmas and I need another hand to decorate the place and...Other stuffs" she said. I raise my eyebrow; I hope that she's kidding! I'm only 17 for fuck sake.
"Well find another person because I'm not going to help you!" I hiss and turn around to get in my car but she stopped me by the arm, I glare at her.
"You will" I scoff and pull my arm away from her hand and cross them over my chest.
"Ha yeah, what makes you think that?" I challenge her she gave me a smirk.
"Because, you need to put your mind somewhere else where it doesn't involve your exes. So tonight you'll help me and by the end of the night I'll work your world!" she winked at me. I clench my fists and push her on the car; she frowned but didn't look angry.
"Nothing will take my mind off those girls, so get lost and I'll never sleep with you!" I yell softly. She scoffed and reached her hand in her hair.
"After tonight, I wouldn't be so sure and who says I was talking about sex...I'll wait for you at
6pm" she smirked before she gets into her car and drove away. I sigh and get into my car.
When I get home, I walk to the kitchen to grab something to drink but I stop when I see her
sitting on the counter laughing about something with my sister. I clear my throat and the both
turned to look who it was, to my surprise neither of them look angry or something. I hold my
eyes with Emma ; I want to take her in my arms and tell her over again how sorry am I but it
was impossible. She breaks the contact and looked away.
''euh…where are the parents?'' I ask after an awkward silence and grab a bottle of water from the fridge. My sister looked between me and Emma before she spoke.
''still at work I suppose'' she shrugged her shoulders. I nod and take a sip from the bottle and notice from the corner of my eyes that she was staring at me again. Amanda gave me a look and I glare at her, seriously I hate when she gets into my business.
''I'm going to my room, if you need anything you know what to do'' I say and she rolled her eyes. I glance one last time at Emma before I walk away. I drop my body on my bed and sigh. Life really suck when it comes to love. I hear my phone vibrating and roll my eyes when I see who it was.
''oh, I forgot to tell you; wear something…sexy ;)'' she's kidding right? I shook my head and groan.
''I thought it was just to help you with the decoration!'' I say and frown confusedly.
''I never said that it was just for the deco;)…I'll see you later xoxo'' I let out a yell, seriously someone need to place this girl in the right line. I don't even know what to where for tonight, yes I have a lot of clothes but it's not so easy to choose. Before I have the time to go to the bathroom I hear a soft knock on my door. I walk toward the door and open it; I'm surprise to see her standing right in front of my bedroom door. I want to get angry but I know that any of this will fix the situation, so I let her in without asking.
'' is that true about what you said this morning?'' she asked and turned to look at me. I scratch the back of my neck and give her a question look.
''hmm, I said a lot of…'' she interrupted me and walk closer to me.
''did you or did you not sleep with her?'' she asked softly. I open and close my mouth I want to tell her yes even if it's not true just to see what she will do but at the same time I don't want to hurt more her emotions.
''No,I didn't…I swear…she's just being a freaky girl'' I blurt out and bit my lips. Ok I didn't sleep with her but we kissed. No big deal! She looks at me for a moment and she nodded her head slowly.
''Oh, ok…i-I'm sorry for not believing you and sorry about this morning too'' she mumbled softly. Ok now I'm angry, I can't understand why suddenly she decided to apologies for what she did this morning, it's not like her to do it right away. I laugh bitterly and she looks at me confusedly.
''let me guess…you had a talk with my sister and she told you to apologies to me…tell me Emma, are you going to do this every time she tell you that?'' I hiss. She takes a step back and she shook her head.
''I didn't do it because your sister asked me to! I did it because my mind told me that I have to if I ever want to fix our problems'' she replied softly. I scoff and reach my hand in my hair.
''did your mind told you that you have to apologies for not believing me when I told you that I'm in love with you?'' I raise my voice and she jumped. I fix her angrily in the eyes because right now I can't control my anger.
''I…I won't border you again'' she mumbled sadly.
''Yep that's right…As far as I know it's like As far as I know it's like you don't even care that I'm still in love with you…Get the fuck out of my room'' I yell. She opens her mouth to protest but with the look that I was giving her she nods her head and walked out of the room with tears rolling down her face.
''ARGHHHHH'' I scream and throw a punch on my punchy bag. I'm fuckin done with all this, if she doesn't want me than fuck it! Now it's time for me to get ready for this stupid party. I take my shower, brush my teeth and get dress. I decide to wear a black legging with lace on each side, a red long-sleeve stretch lace top and my Christian Louboutin. I grab a pack of spliff and my flask and put all this in my back. When I walk downstairs, my sister was still there with Emma again, I walk past them only to be stop by the sister. I roll my eyes and turn to look at her.
''where are you going being dress like this?'' she asked curiously.
''there's a party at Sexy `N` Delicious`` was the only thing I say. She look behind her before she turned back to me and this time she didn`t look happy.
``you realize that you are losing her, right?'' she hissed softly. I want to say yes but I can't so I just shrug my shoulders.
''it's too late for that, she made it pretty clear…I'll see you later at the party'' I say before I walk out of the door and to my car. When I arrive at the club it was 5:45, I walk inside and see a few people around working on the stage and at the bar. I spot Effy and walk toward her, I tap her on the shoulder and she turned around. She looks at me up and down with a hungry look, I smirk and she smirked back.
''when I said sexy I never thought that you were going to be dress more than that'' she said and winked.
''well what can I say, it's one of my way to catch my prey'' I say and wink back. She chuckled and shook her head.
''Danm right…follow me'' she said and I follow her behind the stage. When I get to the room I swear to god that I almost had a heart attack; those girls are hotter than the other that I ever saw, except for Emma and Katherine.
''Girls, this is Amy'' Effy introduce me. The all say hello and one of them was staring at me with a hungry look. I clear my throat and look away from her.
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