Mindless Tears 11
A/N: I is back from the great beyond. I know I had mentioned this was a writer's block breaker but now it needs to be finished. I don't know where it's going but cope with me. It is one of my babies after all.
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Severus:
I drank my tea slowly as I sat by the window. Remus sits across from me reading some bloody muggle magazine and left me with my own thoughts.
Potter.
That one name has caused much grief in my life and not anything I would like to repeat at anytime soon. The time consuming hours I had to do concerning the brat was all too much on my tired body as my time on this earth passed by so slowly.
I am a young vampire and yet my family has regarded me lost to them since I bow to an old man. I don't bow to him but I serve him in teaching the future that seems to ever grow stupider. There seems to be no end to the idiocy that I must endure with children.
I was sadden when Draco refused to join his family after his schooling but having a feeling deep within you for a person long gone is hard to deal with.
The feelings I had for the one person from my youth has never faded or waved and yet I guard it jealously and try not fall pry to the urge to mate with my Blood love. I lied to him when he asked about it and gazing at him now only makes me close more of that feeling away.
"Severus."
I jerk my head to the voice that asks for my attention and stare at him questioningly without a trace of my surprise.
"Hmmm?"
He smiles softly and I let my eyes fall a little.
"Have you fed yet?"
I pale at that question. We have not drank for a while and my usual feeding patterns have been some what disrupted by this trip. I glance down trying to think of the closest place to get a drink. The mall across the street was a good source and it was late that the restaurants would be full of people I could drag away.
"I will go now and bring Draco with me. He can't control it as well as he would like to believe."
He frowns a bit.
"If you want…"
The open ending of his question was all the answer I needed.
"No. The full moon is in a week and I refuse to make you weaker than you should be." I say trying to run from what I really want. I see my words have angered him and his wolf by the glow of his eyes.
"I am not weak Severus Snape but if you find some kind of bloody comfort from some charlatan then be my guest."
With that he stood and marched out of our rooms and slammed the door. I winced at the sound wishing I hadn't done that just to get him away. How I survived my youth I would never know but the hurt in his eyes made me resentful towards my actions.
A knock and a click from a key card swipe was all I heard before the person entered. I knew Draco would come after leaving Harry to care for one of his father's friends. The blonde sat across from me and he seemed to be far too pale and the black eye he received last night hadn't faded yet.
"What did you say this time?"
"Nothing of too concern."
"Bullshit! Why can't you just tell him? It pains me to see you and him like this. You torture each other with this."
I growled at the younger vampire.
"Do you think I enjoyed watching you suffer for the past six years with Potter missing? No I do not think.
"I had to watch as he fled into Black's arms when there was nothing for him to hold onto and never once did he turn to me. I refuse to place myself in that heartache again."
Draco sighed as he leaned back. He rubbed his temples and I knew his headache would last since mine was already pounding steadily against my temples.
"We need to feed." I say while rising and picking up a jacket off the one bed in the room. He rose slowly and followed me out the doors.
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The people in this country are far more idiotic than home. There are a lot more vampires in America and these people don't have the decency to feel violated. The woman I just fed off was more than happy to figure that she just got the fuck of her life. At least the prostitutes back home had become weary of night stalkers.
I leaned against a wall as Draco walks towards me. He looks better and the black eye was gone. The paleness to his face no longer looked sickly but a healthy hue that made him handsome.
"I am glad you look better than what you did before."
He smirked. "I'm sure it was ghastly."
He leaned against the wall next to me watching the humans' scurry about. I watch also seemingly less interested in the woman marching from her boyfriend caught with another woman.
"Have you told him yet?"
Draco stays quiet and that gives me my answer.
"You must tell him."
"I know."
That was it. He was going to tell Potter tonight and I believe we both will be without the one's we want in our beds tonight.
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I sigh ever so slightly as I swipe the key card and the little light turns from red to green. Turing the handle I walk in feeling a bit lost in the need of company. The rooms were empty and that put a bad taste in my mouth.
Growling in my throat I walked over to the bathroom and shed my clothes to get that whore's scent off my body. Her perfume had disturbed me to no end since the fumes made me sneeze.
I turn the knobs to the right temperature before pulling on the shower. Letting my fingers feel for the warmth that was desired. Once it reached the temperature I once again sighed as I stepped into the warm stream.
The warmth spread throughout my body and I relaxed as thoughts of that wolf filled my mind. It's hard to be alone when the room carries his scent all over and seeps into everything from furniture to even the sink. I growl in irritation before taking that horrid human's scent off my body.
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Walking into the main room I sigh as Remus has yet to return. It was going to be a horrible night for me without his scent to comfort my dreams.
I dress for be thinking that tomorrow was going to disasters. The Weasleys wanted to talk to Potter and the sisters were pist that Potter said yes. I could feel a migraine already pulsing at my temples
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A/N: Well, here you go!! An update, I will try to fix TOV but there are no promises since I have to go through the whole bloody thing! I will fix it though!