In the last chapter that carlos had written in his journal Kendall finds maddisons body and she ran to keep from having to keep her promis. she outsmarted the boy and only furthered his pain. Kyle came in to console understanding how the blonde felt.

"i talked to miss cordelia." Kyle said.

"What about."

"i really liked carlos but... i can tell he loves you... you love him to. go to miss cordelia. she said shed bring you back."

Reading this story was painful for me. Carlos was actually leaving the apartment that the two of them shared with one another. Carlos had not been doing that well James had gone to pursie his modleing, Logan worked at a rare disease medical institution, katy had died the frat party was true. Carlos` bags were packed and he was returning to his home. he was emotionally detatched he had been for months. when i found the pages i was kind of startled to figure out he felt that way. i was afraid of what could happen. I wanted to tell carlos i had read his book. i heard the door slam and carlos had gone. i could be the one to finish the story. or i could read it to find out what this kendall did. how did this story end? I threw down the book.

I ran out the door but i had just missed the elevator. i ran down the stairs. by the time i had gotten to the first floor carlos was already on his way to the taxi that was awaiting for him. he was gone just like that. i sighed and went back upstairs. i had no clue what i was thinking. i got back to my room and slumped down on the couch picking up his pages again. Mom looked at me from the counter.

"kendall their has been so much sadness in this house in carlos... in you... i knew... a long time ago. you needed to learn for yourself. he needs to go and be with people who do love him and he will meet someone who will love him the way he wants you to." these were the first words she had spoken to me since katy died.

"what if... i... love... him too?" Kendall held the pages.

"read the rest..."

I did and what i read was emotionally scarring. it still bothers me to this day:

Kendall ran out the door chasing carlos the moment cordelias breath entered his lungs. his eyes shot open he smiled a half smile and hugged her running out. he didnt make it to the airport in time but he was determined to attend the freakshow. Carlos was there with his brothers and sisters and his mom and dad. each of them having their own special thing that gave the cabinet of couriosities its name.

"youre headed to Miss Elsas Cabinet of curiosities?" A man next to kendall on the plane asked.

"yeah..."

"do you know what happened there most people dont attend out of respect."

"what do you mean?"

"back during the time that briarcliff was still around a man by the name of dandy mott shot and killed atleast 18 freaks right there in their own little area. or so they say."

"this specific show?"

"yeah why?" the man was confused at the way kendall asked.

"my name is kendall knight my mothers maiden name is Mott..."

"no... youre a member of such a twisted family."

"keep your mouth shut or this will be the last plaine you ever ride."

Carlos sat alone it was late at night and the show had ended. he still had not discovered any weird talent to preform with. what was he good at? ruining peoples lives?

A man approached him. he sat next to carlos.

"heavy for your thoughts?"

"yeah... im normal and i dont belong here but im not normal so i dont belong anywhere..."

"i know exactly how you feel..."

"really?"

"yeah... i look pretty but inside im a moster. the thing is carlos... you may seem weird but there are people who will accept you and love you. your family in there... they love you."

"kendall loves me..."

"you dont love him?"

"im afraid of him."

"if he loves you you shouldnt be... he may be scary but people rarely hurt the people they love."

Carlos turned his view away to look at the stars.

"youre right... i dont belong here..." he looked back to see the man was no longer there. "i belong with him."

I looked at my mother.

"do i actually scare carlos?"

"the idea of you scares him... talking to you since you lost katy isnt the easiest thing in the world. you were pretty harsh to him. all he wanted was to make you feel better."

"so maybe its better if-"

"ah... keep reading."

The following day Carlos wandered around the tents watching the weird and different people do what they did best. he planned on contacting kendall later that day asking the boy to come get him. but first he had a few things to do.

He noticed the man he was talking to last night sitting alone by the big tent. he walked over to him.

"you ran off last night."

"how many freaks do you see carlos?"

"like at least 25... why?"

"only about 8 of those people... are actually here... you have a gift carlos... you can see spirits."

"is that what you are?"

"yeah.. i died right in there." he pointed to the big tent. "i killed maybe 18 people... before they killed me."

"all it is is a memory... that was years ago."

"youre very understanding."

"ive been through some shit..."

The pages ended.

"mom... that cant be it where is the rest?"

"he left it behind for a reason... no matter how hard he tried he could never finish the story."

Kendall ran to his room and began packing immediately. he was out of the house and on the road ten minutes later. all he cared about was getting to carlos. when he got off the plane back in minnesota he called the first person he could think of.

"hello?"

"hey logan, its kendall."

"i know whats up?"

"are you in town?"

"are you?"

"can you pick me up im at the airport."

Logan was an at home doctor who had decided to move back to minnesota years ago to be closer to home. he was there in maybe fifteen minutes. when they got to carlos` house said he was in town. kendall got out at the square and searched everywhere. he spoted him about to walk across the street at a traffic light.

Kendall got out his phone and texted carlos saying:

"turn around im here to take you home"

Carlos pulled his phone out of his pocket at the same time his light turned green. several people were behind him and he tripped.

"carlos!"

The boy stood to his feet continuing to look at his phone.

"carlos look out!"

Carlos turned with a horrified but happy look on his face. he wanted to run to kendall but the thought barely rose when he was hit by the eighteen wheeler. Kendall ran to him clutching him to his chest.

"kiss it better?" Carlos asked. "im not ready... not now..."

"Im sorry!"

"Its not your fault... you didnt know."

"Dont die on me carlos"

"Doesnt look like i have much of a choice... do me a favor..."

"Anything carlos"

"Finish the book."

And i did.