And at that very moment Loki considered suicide for the second time in his life, the first one being when he let go of Thor on the Bifröts. He thought that nothing was going to go right. Every single thing that happened to him seemed to end up badly. Maybe that's why he had been the villain. Who really knows.
Tony looked over to Loki who was just as dumbstruck as him. They both didn't know what to do or say. Thor seemed to come in at the worst possible time. Tony then sputtered out, "I stayed up late, I got oil on me so I came up here to take a shower. And uh- I left Loki in this room and I guess I forgot last night and fell asleep here." The lie flowed off seamlessly and Thor seemed to believe it. He physically relaxed then directed his attention to Loki.
"Brother! I have come to retrieve you. Are you ready to go?" Thor asked happily. Loki looked up to Thor with tears in his eyes. He slowly shook his head and muttered something. "Loki, what is it?"
"I cannot leave Thor." Loki whispered, Loki then stood up, his cuts and injuries being hidden by an illusion. He walked past Thor and out of the room. Thor looked to Tony who had the same perplexed expression as himself. The two walked out of the room following Loki into the living room. He walked to where Tony stored the alcohol and he got a drink of the closest thing.
"I feel like returning to Asgard would be a burden on my health, and everyone elses. I wish to stay here." Loki said simply while sitting down next to Thor. Tony had gotten and drink and sat across from the two brothers, not knowing what to say.
"But brother, Mother and Father are very worried about you." Thor said while reaching Loki's hand, but Loki pulled away instantly. "We are just worried for you Loki." Thor's voice was cracking and he was fighting back tears. "I love you brother."
Loki stared at Thor for a few seconds before the came about, he shook his head and smiled warmly. "I'm fine Thor, you need not worry for me." Thor looked to Loki and Loki responded with a nod, reassuring Thor that he was fine. Good thing Thor was easily tricked.
"I am glad, brother! We should dine at a Midgardian restaurant!" Thor said excitedly, standing up quickly.
"We don't have any currency, Thor." Loki explained quietly before Tony cut him off.
"I can pay, we should get you to eat something. You're quite thin."
So at that Tony got up and motioned for the brothers to follow him, they did so and soon found themselves in one of Tony's many fancy cars. Thor and Loki talked of random banter during the ride to the restaurant. Tony found Loki smoothly changed the topic from anything serious to a light subject. He really didn't seem to want to Thor about anything personal. Tony understood why.
"We're here." Tony said as they pulled into a large parking lot next to a very nice Asian restaurant. They all got out of the car and began the short stroll to the building. Thor was busy blabbering on about Asgard and his significant other in New Mexico to notice that Loki was struggling to keep up. He tripped over himself a couple of times before he fell to his knees. He was supporting himself by his arms to keep from falling on his face. Thor quickly got to his brothers side and tried to help him up before he was stopped by an angry Loki.
"Thor! Do not touch me, I do not require assistance!" Loki spat out before he got to his feet.
"Brother, please let me help you. Why did you not tell me you were unwell?" Thor asked sadly.
"I am fine Thor, let us go." Loki said as he began walking to the building again, now limping. Thor and Tony left him be, knowing that if they tried to help it would cause more of a problem. They got an isolated booth in the restaurant and chattered about nothing in particular. Thor and Loki didn't know what the food was so Tony ordered them things. Loki seemed to like the drink Coke while Thor was eating all of the food in his sight. Loki was eating too, but not much. He played around with his food and occasionally took a bite.
"Do you like the food Loki? We can get you something else." Tony asked with a mouth full of food.
"No this is fine, thank you." Loki said politely. "But if you'll excuse me, I have to use the restroom."
Tony leaded Loki to the restrooms and stood outside of the door, not wanting to invade the gods privacy. After a few minutes of Tony standing outside he got bored and walked up and down the hall. Almost seven or eight minutes had passed before Loki emerged from the bathroom. Tony noticed the looked paler than usual and his hands were shaking terribly.
"Are you alight? You were in there for awhile." Tony asked cautiously.
"I am fine Stark, let's go back." Loki's voice was soft but rugged at the same time. He had to clear his throat frequently. Tony and Loki joined Thor again, who was still eating his fourth plate of food. Tony and Thor got caught up in conversation while Loki sat, watching and listening. He didn't touch his food once after the trip to the restroom.
Soon the meal was over and the trio were heading home, Thor was drunk and babbling on about random stuff while Tony and Loki sat silently, half listening to Thor. They reached Tony's house and he lent Thor the guest room he had been using. Loki had Tony's room and Tony was sleeping on the couch. It wasn't the first time he had to call the couch his bed. They all said goodnight to each other and went their separate ways. Soon Tony and Thor were asleep, but Loki was doing something different. He was in the bathroom, curled into a corner of the shower. His wrists were pouring blood along with his legs and now face. He had cut his face in several places, all very deep.
"It's really a shame, doing that to a pretty face like yours." A voice called out. He knew this voice, it was familiar but he couldn't recall who it was. He looked around to see where the voice had come from but nobody was around.