Today was my wedding day, the day I would pledge to be forever committed to Lenore. I spent my morning throwing up, I would never be able to be with Clare again after this, and the thought made me sick to my stomach. Not that it mattered either way, Clare was done with me. I was sitting in my changing room at the church staring into the mirror, trying to pull my self together. I had 300 people outside waiting for a wedding, I had to do this. Not just for me, but for Lenore. It wasn't her fault that I had been on edge lately, It was mine. I asked her to marry me, I had to own up to my responsibilities. She still deserved her happily ever after, and I had to do my best to give that to her. Whatever it took, I would do it.

Almost on cue my dad came in. "Hey son, are you ready? You got a bunch of folks waitin out there for you."

I nodded at him and stood up, "Yeah I'm ready."

Bullfrog gave me a knowing look, and closed the door behind him. "Listen Eli, you don't have to do this. In fact, I don't really know why you are. Ever since we moved here all you have ever wanted was Clare, no matter what you two went through you never gave up on her, and I don't think you've ever quite got over that dream. Maybe postponing this wedding isn't the worst thing."

"Dad, I'm fine. I'm going to marry Lenore, and we are going to be happy. Clare is in the past. Don't worry about me, just do your job and stand beside me up there ok?"

"Eli, I know you want to do the right thing. That's always been you, ever since you were little, but this time the right thing may not be what you think it is. Do you even love this girl?"

With the most serious face I could muster, I lied. "I do. I love her."

My dad looked at me with disappointed eyes, and patted my back. "Alright then son, let's go get you married." Bullfrog would never understand what Lenore did for me, I had to do this for her.

I stood at my position with sweaty palms, and tired eyes. I could see all my friends and family in the audience. Dave, Jake, and my dad were standing beside me in matching black tux's. I was in a way glad Adam wasn't there to be my best man, he would have hated Lenore, because she wasn't Clare. The music began to play, and everyone stood up. I had always pictured this moment in my head, but the feeling I had imagined having was so different than this one. I was sick with grief, grief for the life that I had lost with Clare. I shook my head trying to get her out of my head. Lenore was already half way down the aisle before I had even noticed her, I really had to pull it together. The music stopped and she was in front of me with tears in her eyes, and a smile on her face. I smiled back, genuinely happy that she was happy. Lenore was religious, and she was very close to the preacher of her church back in New York. He flew all the way to Canada just to marry us. He asked the audience to be seated and went on about some religious stuff I didn't really care for, then he asked Lenore to say her vows to me. She held my hand, and slipped the ring on my finger before she began to speak. She had tears in her eyes, and a smile on her face, I was doing the right thing.

"I Lenore take you to be my partner in life. I promise above all else to live in truth with you. And to communicate fully and fearlessly, I give you my hand and my heart. I pledge my love, devotion, honor, and most importantly honesty to you Elijah." Before Lenore could continue the church doors swung open, and the sound of heels clacking against the floor filled the church, along with a few gasps. It was Alli, I hadn't seen in years. She looked just the same, maybe an inch or so taller. She wore a hot pink dress, and black heels. She walked up to the stage standing between Lenore and I, Lenore looked appalled and confused, along with me.

I looked at Alli confused, "What are you doing here Alli? I'm sorry if you didn't get an invitation I just didn't think you'd want to come because, well you know..."

"Because you're supposed to be with me best friend and not this lying tramp? Yeah, I wouldn't have come, but that's hardly why I'm here. There's something you need to know before you marry this witch Eli." Alli was staring Lenore down.

Lenore pushed Alli aside, and put her hands on my shoulders, "Eli, don't listen to her. She doesn't know what she's saying. Baby, let's just continue on ok."

I looked at Lenore's panicked eyes and I knew there was something she was hiding, there was a reason she had been acting so weird lately. I looked to Alli, and nodded my head for her to continue.

In Alli fashion she grabbed a microphone by the quire musicians, so everyone could hear what she had to say. "Hey everyone, fellow ex Degrassi classmates, It's me Alli here. So this tramp who has just been preaching about honesty in her future marriage, has been keeping the biggest lie of all from her finance." Alli looked at me with serious eyes, and she pulled the microphone away from her mouth. "I guess maybe I shoudnt blurt this part out, Eli Adam is here in Toronto with Clare."

I pushed Lenore aside walking closer to Alli, "What do you mean Alli? What's going on, spit it out."

"Eli, Clare never gave him up for adoption. She couldn't do it. She never told you because you told her you "weren't ready to give everything up" and she wanted you to live a happy and free life, doing all the things that you ever wanted to do. She couldn't do it any more though, she was so lonely without you. She came here to get you back, to tell you about Adam. It was too late though, you were already engaged. Then to make sure that Clare didn't try to fix things with you again Lenore black mailed Clare about Adam, promising to make you hate her, and make sure you thought she had no intention on telling you about him. But Eli she did, I swear she did. She's been miserable without you." Alli had tears in her eyes threatening to fall.

I put my hand up for Alli to stop, and grabbed the mike from her. My blood was pumping, and my heart felt like it was about to pop out of my chest. I was shaking in anger, and I could see my dad looking at me, ready to hold me back If necessary. Lenore came up to me with tears in her eyes, "Eli, Eli please! Don't listen to her, it wasn't that way at all. Please just lets go talk about this in private I can explain, we love each other."

I smiled ear to ear at Lenore, and then to the confused audience. "Hello ladies and gentlemen, I'm so sorry for the inconvenience. My lovely fiancé was just in the middle of her vows, and I wish she could continue, but it seems everything she wrote down was a big giant piece of shit lie. This bitch not only black mailed the real love of my life, but also kept the fact that my son wasn't given away for adoption from me, and has been in Canada this whole time! She lied to my face for months, knowing the pain and anguish I felt missing out on my sons life." I turned my attention back to Lenore dropping the mike. She had her hands over her mouth, and she was crying while shaking her head back and forth in disbelief.

"Eli no, please. We love each other don't walk away from me, after all I've done for you."

"Correction. You love me. I love Clare and our son, not you. It's never been you. Lenore, I would have done anything for you. I was willing to give up Clare and all my dreams so that I could make you happy! And this is how you repay me, by lying to me about Adam? You know what, at least I have an excuse to drop this ring on the floor, and never see your face again. I hate you Lenore, and I hope you have a miserable life and that the next guy you marry isn't getting tricked into it. You dumb bitch."

Lenore grabbed onto my arm, still trying to keep me from going. "What about Clare? She lied to you about Adam too!"

I shrugged her off of me. "Lenore the difference is Clare lied to me because she loves me, she sacrificed so that I could have a normal teenage life. You lied because you're selfish, possessive, insecure, and phsyco. You didn't want me to know about Adam because you didn't want him or Clare to steal me away, you're pathetic."

I dropped the ring at Lenore's feet, and began to untie my tie. "Hey Alli."

"Yeah?"

"Thanks, for everything."

I gave her a hug, and she smiled. "Go get her Eli."

I started to walk away when my dad stopped me, "Eli." I turned around.

"Dad I have to go find Clare. I don't have time for a lecture."

"Son I know, take this." My dad tossed a ring my way, and I caught it. "It's your great grandmas ring, it's been passed down for generations. I was waiting for the day you decided to get married to give it to you, and I mean a real marriage. Go get her tiger."

I quickly hugged my dad, and ran out of the church. I felt so free, like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I was going to find Clare, and I was going to make it all right again.