Chapter Ten:
Touya sat slowly, beside the large Penguin statue situated in the center of Penguin Park. The night had somehow turned colder and he regretted leaving the house with nothing but a flannel shirt over his T-shirt. But in his worry over Sakura nothing else had mattered and this was no different. He drew in his knees slowly, aware that the others had been taken aside, out of view and he raised his head as Yue reluctantly came to stand before him.
"You understand what I will do?" Yue asked him quietly.
Touya nodded although he appeared uncertain. "I do," he whispered and he bowed his head once more. If it was for Sakura he would do whatever he could. Anything for her.
The angel remained standing over him for a moment and then, slowly, he knelt beside Touya, gray eyes gazing at him intently. Touya stared back, and he did not like this version of Yukito. He seemed colder and prouder and Yuki was nothing like that. In Yuki he saw sweetness and innocence. This creature beside him was not Yuki. He looked down once more, not wanting to see his face anymore.
Yue reached out then, his hand taking hold of Touya's chin and he brought the gaze back up to meet his own. Touya allowed him, wordlessly. And as he stared the angel's expression slowly softened somehow and Touya stared, mesmerized. The other hand lifted, pressing to his cheek and he found himself almost trapped, gazing into the creature's eyes with no hope of looking away.
"To-ya," Yue whispered and his eyes widened for there before him Yue seemed to shift a bit, his image hazy and through it he saw Yuki. As he knew him and as he loved him. Yuki. Always Yuki. Touya gazed at him, a tender smile lifting the corners of his mouth as the angel said, "If it could have been different, if it could all be different-"
"It would have ended the same," Touya finished for him firmly and he lifted his hand to the angel's face, pulling him against him and finally, for the first and only time, brushing a soft kiss to his lips.
Against him Yue did not resist, instead pressing closer, long slender hand lifting to grasp him tenderly, tangling in Touya's hair. This was what would have been, in that other reality, the one in which he had never known Ruby Moon and never understood what he did not have. It was ignorance and the most ignorant fool was no doubt the merriest. Sadness flooded him as he clung to the boy, wanting so much more and not understanding why people could love more than one person. Why there couldn't just be one person for everyone and no one else to make them tremble with one touch or one caress.
Why there had to be tears for such a happy gift to be exchanged.
"I wish to forget…" Touya whispered against him and he slowly pulled his face away, instead resting it upon the angel's shoulder. "I wish to forget it all, especially my love for you."
Yue stiffened against him, staring passed his head into the darkness of the night. To forget all of it, especially his love. Deep inside there was a sudden terrible pain, in his heart and strangely, inexplicably, tears welled up in his eyes.
Are you sure?" he asked faintly.
For a moment Touya did not respond, his shoulders barely lifting with every breath he took. And then, inhaling Yue's soft scent he said, "Yes," and he closed his eyes to hide away his own tears.
Yue gently bowed his head, the tears falling from his eyes and his hand fell from Touya's hair to the nape of his neck where it came to rest. "Then it will be," he said quietly. Closing his eyes as well he said, "Wish for it, with all your heart, at this very moment and when you awaken you will have your wish."
Touya did not reply but Yue sensed agreement from him.
And from behind his closed eyelids came a gentle soft light, as pure as sunlight and laughter. He found himself following it, looking into it and straining to see what was there for someone stood there bathed in that holy light. His body felt warm, slowly heating up, and it was as if he had been embraced by his mother. He felt himself drift there, for so long, supported by all things good and tender, and in the light came Yukito's face only it was barely understandable to his eye and it seemed to fade. He reached for it, crying out Yuki's name and understanding that he did not want Yuki to go. He did not want to forget and he did not want to ever be in the darkness of ignorance.
Far away he felt the loving caress of someone's lips, gentle upon his forehead, and in that small moment his eyes opened to the light.
I will not forget…
When Syaoran reached Sakura in Penguin Park he did not ask why she cried and he did not question why Eriol was there as well. Instead he quietly sat beside Sakura and let her cry on his shoulder, gazing off into the night and asking for the first time in his life, for help from beyond. And in the dark sky a star twinkled and Sakura's sobs lessened until they were no more and only then was he told what had transpired. Yue would be awakened fully, at last, and with him would go Touya's power, to be used in protection of the Card Mistress.
Touya would no longer see his mother and he would no longer know if Sakura was in danger. But in exchange Yue would be the Guardian with Keroberos, and he would be formidable at last.
Ruby Moon gazed at Syaoran and Sakura and she wondered if the past mistakes had indeed been rectified or if it had all been for naught. For she did not know if Yue would ever look at her the way Syaoran gazed at Sakura and she did not know if he could ever love her the same way again.
Ok, this is mad short because I have just the epilogue left to this before it just finishes. I've been kicking my ass over the Lord of the Rings fic so I haven't had much time for this one. I think I may be able to do the epilogue tonight before Cassie gets home because I am also going to upload the next chapter for the LotR fic which means Cass is going to hog the comp for the next few days. =) But if I can get it done tonight…If you guys want info on the LotR fic I'm doing just drop me an email or…read the end note of the previous chapter. =)
Anyways, I'm not sure how a lot of you guys feel about shounen-ai fics but this chapter needed to be done seeing as Touya and Yukito are like…the best couple. So if some of you were offended by the kiss, gomen nasai. But seeing as how you guys are anime freaks we're all pretty much used to shounen-ai and yaoi fics, right?
Right!
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