July 2

Gilbert's doing a little better today. He still seems a little out of it, but seems to have a good grasp on his surroundings. He looks exhausted. He's paler than usual, and his eyes look a little blood shot. ( he's been sleeping most of the day, so I only got a look at them while he was awake a short while ago ) He's also got a fever of about 102.3 It hasn't changed much from yesterday…

I called Ludwig to tell him what had happened, but just like yesterday, he didn't pick up. He's not at home for whatever reason and I don't know if he has a cell phone. I'll have to ask Gilbert if he has one when he wakes up…

I might call the doctor later if he doesn't get any better…

Oh! While Gilbert was awake, he seemed rather upset. When I asked him why, he said it was because he couldn't give me my birthday present. ( honestly, he's worried about THAT of all things? ) When I asked him what it was, he just gave me this pathetic looking grin and told me I had to wait until he was better.

Bah, it's only two in the afternoon and I'm bored out of my mind… It's too quiet here…Maybe I'll just go watch some TV or something…

Matthew


July 3

My nose hurts…a lot…

I woke up around 2 in the morning to Gilbert yelling and thrashing around. I was in the spare room, so it wasn't that hard to hear him… He kept screaming as if he were in pain. It scared the living daylights out of me ( as Gilbert is not one to scream like that… ) I do remember that he was yelling about a particular person…

I…What on earth could Ivan have done to him to get him all riled up like that?

I tried shaking him awake, but I think he ended up hitting me in the face. I only know this because I don't remember anything after that. Well…up until the point when I found myself planted on the toilet seat with Gilbert frantically trying to stop my gushing nosebleed, that is.

He was shaking pretty badly and he kept telling me his was sorry. I've never seen him like that before. ( and I don't think anyone really ever has… ) He looked so devastated, although I'm not sure if it was because of the nightmare, or my nose…

We got the bleeding stopped after a while and then we ended up just sitting there for quite a while. I tried asking if he was going to be okay, but he didn't respond… I really hope that dream didn't bother him too much…

I'm gonna go make some breakfast now. I'll probably write again later.

xXxXx

So…Gilbert finally told me about those scars of his. He was rather apprehensive about it at first. I guess he wasn't sure if he SHOULD tell me or not. Personally, I think I would've rather NOT been told about them…but I guess you can't help the inevitable. I would've found out sooner or later ( whether it was from him or someone else. )

So those scars on his back? Ivan.

I suddenly found a connection to the dream of his...

What on earth would possess Ivan to do such a thing!? ( okay…I realize that can easily be answered with an "Ivan is a twisted bastard" but still… ) I still can't fathom the whole "Ivan used to torture Gilbert" thing…

It's just crazy…

And it makes me really angry too…

Evidently, it was right after the fall of "Prussia" that Ivan took control of him. Built a giant wall and everything. I already knew this ( as I was around when it happened ) however what I ( and probably many others ) didn't know was WHAT Ivan did to Gilbert during that time.

The fact that he was stuck with Ivan in conditions like that ( I'm not gonna right it down, I'd rather not remind myself of it ) for forty years is just… I dunno… Hard to believe…

Probably won't be able to look at Ivan for a good while now.

Status update on Gilbert: Doing a lot better now. He's fever's gone down a bit, but it's still over 100. He's also back to his normal "awesome" self ( minus the exuberant energy he usually has ) He's not gonna let a fever keep him down apparently.

Gilbird's doing just fine as well. Such a cute little thing~

Matthew

A/N: aowieht;alwkeh;taowihet I suddenly feel as if this story is going downhill.

Anywho, a few notes. I have it in my head that while Gilbert was under Ivan's control, not only was he forced to do worthless jobs, but Ivan pretty much did whatever the hell he wanted to do with him. ie. Not very nice things. You can probably imagine where I'm going with this... *cough*rape*cough*

...So i might be /slighly/ into PrussiaxRussia...But only a little bit...and it's rather one sided...

Anywho, not enough fluff in the story this time. QAQ At least in my opinion, BUT I HAVE TO PACE MYSELF!!!

…M'gonna go play tetris now. REVIEW PLEASES~!!! 3