No turning back
Chapter 11
A/N: I want to apologize for making you wait so long. I got a new phone and right before I started backing all my stories up and posting up ones I had finished. In case they didn't make the transfer. But everything is all good now.
Two quick things. 1. I do NOT condone drinking to excess. And 2. Nick is and always will be a nice guy
Now that I've possibly scared you all let us pick up where we left off
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The message waiting for her on her lock screen, obviously from her Nick
"Hey carrots, I let myself in. I hope that's ok?" She smiled, he was the only other person with a key to her place, like she would ever mind him coming in. She was so excited about their new relationship, that she had high hopes that he would use it more. She checked the lock to see if had locked after he went in. Still unlocked, she walked in and saw him sitting side ways lounging on her couch. He had the tv on, look very much at home. An image she actually rather liked. But then the image shattered.
If she wasn't trained to notice these things, she probably wouldn't have noticed the glossy look in his emerald eyes or when he went to stand, the slight weaving in his frame. She instantly turned into Officer Hopps
"How much have you had to drink, Mr Wilde?" An authoritative tone to her voice. She saw that the question took longer than it should have for the usually quick witted fox. Her patience was starting to wain. Then he after a long pregnant moment spoke
"Uh I donno. A few more then I should have." She knew her fox so well that she even could hear the slight slur of his word. She knew he would never hurt her, even completely wasted. But she instantly felt, she need to keep her guard up.
"Well, I believe you probably well over the legal limit. And I really think we need to sober you up." She goes to the kitchen and grabs a cup and goes to her water cooler and gets him some water. She takes to him and carefully places it in his paws. "Drink this for starters."
"What is it?" He sniffs the cup and tries to inspect the glass
"It's just water. We need to start flushing the liquor out of your system." She watches as he slowly drinks it. Then she puts on a pot of coffee. "How is your paw?" His ears twitched at her question
"The beer and ice at the bar has helped a lot, see." He raises his paw and wiggles his digits. "No pain." She rolls her eyes as he smiles goofily
"Yeah because the alcohol has numbed your mind. Your going to regret that gesture come morning." She leaves the room going to her bathroom and pulls out a tube and goes back to Nick. She sits next him on the couch and squeezes some of the gel like substance into her palm, then she starts to massage Nick's paw.
"What is that?" He tilted his head to the side while sniffing the weird aroma
"It's a holistic gel my family has used for years. Farming can be quite tough on body parts. It works nicely, hopefully you be able to use it tomorrow." She looked into his eyes, normally so filled with gentleness, looked slightly vacant. Like she wasn't really talking to her Nick.
"That feels nice." He mumbles, then he leans forward. "You smell real good. I want to kiss you." And under any other circumstance she would have love to have kissed him. But he reeked of beer, then she remembered that he said Finnick was purposely spilling beer on him. She was about to push him off when she heard the coffee maker beep. Finding this to be her escape.
"Not until you've sobered up." She gets up and goes back into the kitchen. She busies herself with the task "you smell like a brewery." Not keeping an eye on him. He managed to make his way to kitchen and snaked his arms around her waist from behind. He started to nibble at her neck, weak spot for her, but she tried to put up a resistance. She turned in his hold
"I really missed you, Judy" she gave him a small push to make some space. And then he moved, faster than she thought would be capable of in his state. His weight pushed into her and knocked her against the fridge, causing the contents to shake and rattle inside. It didn't hurt, but the speed and slight aggressiveness took her breath away. His paws began to find their purchase anywhere he could touch. She didn't like the way he was acting, this wasn't her Nick and she wasn't going to just let drunk Nick continue. She raised her arm and swiftly brought it down, slapping Nick across the muzzle. Due to his inebriated state and being caught completely off guard, the hit knocked him down flat on his rear. He raised his paw to muzzle, rubbing the sting. He blinked a few times and with each one she could see reason return to him. From his place on the floor. The horror of what was occurring dawned at him. He jumped up
"Oh god, Judy! I-I am so sorry." He looked completely beside himself. He started pacing, but not knowing how she felt at the moment he didn't go near her. "I have no idea what came over me." Then he stopped all movement and stared at her seriously. "If you want me to go, I completely understand."
Did she want him to leave? No, not really. He was still drunk out his mind. Some sense of reality has hit him. But she still wanted to help sober up and he really need a shower. "You are not going anywhere in your current state. I am not mad at you. But I'm glad see some glimmer of the real you back. Now drink this coffee and then when you are done, you'll need a shower. You really do smell awful."
Nick nodded, obediently. He had never felt as low he did right then. Sure he hadn't done anything too bad, but he could've. Well probably not. Judy was a strong female. She would have stopped him, just as she had. As he sipped the coffee, he kept trying to understand why he was being so aggressive. He had gotten drunk before, probably worst than this and never went alpha on anyone. But in his muddled brain he reasoned, he didn't like that she made space between them. He absolutely didn't see that as a justification, purely the catalyst. At that moment he decided he needed to make a phone call. He put down the coffee and went to get his phone off the coffee table. "I'll be right back. I need to make a call." She didn't question it, she feared that he would take off and she didn't want him to do something foolish in his current state. He could see the worry in her expression "I'll just be right outside. Scouts honor"
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Outside he found the contact he needed and pressed the call button. It rang three times and finally it was answered
"Nick?" Her voice sounded like he woke her but concerned laced it. "Is something the matter? Are you alright?"
"Yes and no, mom. I have to ask you something important. I'm sorry I woke you." He hears some movement, maybe she was sitting up in her bed
"No it's alright. What's wrong?"
"Again I'm sorry for not telling you sooner. But Judy and I finally..." He trailed off
"That's wonderful. She's a great girl and I know you've had your eye on her for quite some time now."
"Yeah well. The thing is..." He paused "I got a little drunk tonight, work related stress, and Judy was trying to help me sober up. And I went alpha, well kind of, she halted me and it stopped me cold. I've never done that before."
Being a mother, she could sense the question in his story. "You are most likely close to your cycle, the alcohol and that will make things more intense. You two need to talk about how you want to handle yourselves around these peaks. I know in the past you'd decided to stay clear of each other. But maybe you shouldn't. She's obviously the one and your baser side isn't going to like separation. But be prepared, it's going to be more than a little aggressive, especially if she is in heat."
"I don't want to hurt her." His voice was meek. She slightly chuckled
"I know you don't. Your dad was upset the first time he attacked me. But it's just a part of who you are. I'm sure you two will figure things out. That's why you two need to talk. I'm assuming you did something unwanted and that's why you called?"
"I just got a bit more aggressive and she slapped me. But I don't understand why. I mean I have dated others during heat cycles before and never had this happen. Why now?"
"It's because you've already imprinted on her. You got remember, kiddo. Before we civilized we didn't have ceremonies or paperwork to fill out when we found our mate. We just went ahead and claimed them. She's your mate and I will assume you two have already slept with each other, for you to have already felt the alpha twitch." He didn't like that his mother was so nonchalant about his current sex life. But he did call her. He couldn't answer her. She took his silence as confirmation. "You two are smart, you'll work it out. Bring her by before you propose." She paused "I love you, cheese puff."
"Mom, don't call me that." He really did hate that nickname
"I will call you that until I leave this world for good. Good night, cheese puff." And she ended the call.
He leaned up against the wall. Wondering what the hell he is going to say to Judy. Sighing loudly he walks back inside. A fear rushed over him, what if she didn't want him after this. He knew it was a very little attack, but an attack nonetheless, so he decided to test the waters.
"Honey," pausing for a second "I'm home?" He was trying to be funny. She was still sitting at the breakfast bar drinking her coffee. A small smile on her face, made him feel safe. "I'm really really sorry Jude. I really don't know why I did that. I think I have a better idea now. Can we talk?"
"No." He flinched. "You stink." His shoulders relaxed "first you shower then we'll talk." She walked with him and got him a towel and started to leave.
"You know, if I wasn't the biggest jerk in the world a bit ago. I would ask you to join me."
"And if we didn't need to talk, I would say yes." And she left the room.
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One shower and clean fox later. The two are sitting on the couch. Nick feeling more sober was definitely feeling his hand aching.
"I called my mom. I asked her why I went alpha."
"Alpha?"
"Yeah. I have never done that before. But she said it's probably close my cycle. Which means..."
"You'll need some space. Um ok...I mean..."
"No, actually I think space is going to be a bad idea. But it also means your heat is coming up too. We need to decide how we want to handle this. I don't want to hurt you. But the thing is, if we are together we are going to want to have sex and it will be aggressive."
"Oh."
"The reason I'm telling you all this is because...well my baser side isn't going to want you to keep distance from you."
"So we need a plan for when you lose yourself again. I suspect you would want me to slap each time you get out of line?"
"No. I don't think that would go over so well, Jude." He pauses "I guess I want you to be prepared. Especially um physically, you know protection. I love you Judy. But we aren't ready, for that."
"No we aren't. I want spend time with you and I'm not ready for motherhood yet. I will take care of that part. How are you feeling?"
"Better, I should go home..." his voice sounded disappointed
"I guess... I mean it's for the best." Hers sounded even more so
"I don't want you to be in a situation we aren't prepared for. I am going to call Clawhauser and see if he can give us the rest of the week off."
"Um ok." She replied. Nick pulls Judy into his arms. And kisses her sweetly.
"You know I don't want to leave, Carrots. We are going to have, what I can only assume is going to be a rough week ahead of us." He kisses her forehead "I'll be back tomorrow morning."