Ok so this is a really short one but wanted to give you all an update been really busy with work had overtime got a week off next week so will make sure to get several chapters done

Dearest Bella

I am so sorry that I must now leave you behind but know that I love you more than anything and anyone I have ever met because you are my daughter. I beg that you do not feel guilty for the end of my life I know that this will trouble you but know this is my choice, there is not much more I can do for you knowing that you are in love with Edward and that he loves you I know what your future holds, I wish that I could be there to see you two get married be the one to walk down the aisle I guess Alice didn't know I could hear her talking about it last Monday when I came round .I know that you are not sure and that is due partially to the way me and your mother raised you we made it seem that we regretted marrying one another but I need you to know I have never once regretted it even through all the pain I went through when she left with you I could never look back and wish I hadn't of married her. I can see how much Edward loves you and when you make your decision I want you to know that you have my blessing as long as you are happy you will always have it. There something important I need to tell you because I know you will be asking why I had to go that surely there was another way but I don't think there was but I didn't want you to think I gave up my life because Bella I had already lost it, you see a month after the Cullen's left I went to the doctor I've been having pain for a while now and I didn't tell you because of how broken you already were I couldn't be the cause of more heartache, the doctor told me it was stage four lung cancer he used another name for it but that doesn't matter he told me it would kill me within six months and I have been feeling it deep down I have felt it slowly killing me, so please don't feel guilty I know you will you will see it as your fault cause this Victoria was after you but know that it gave me a chance at something I didn't think I would get it was a chance for my death to mean something and if my death means that you are safe well I will die over and over to do that. I know I am not very good at expressing my emotions a trait I have passed on to you the silence has always been a comfortable place for both of us but now there are things I want to say to you, The day you were born was the best day of my life I and the day you were taken by your mother was the worst day, when you called to tell me you were coming to live with me I was beyond ecstatic and I am sorry I didn't show that more I know you hated forks at first I know the only reason that changed was because of Edward and the rest of the Cullens. I couldn't be more grateful to them I hope you don't mind but I saved all the photos from the house and a few things I wanted to have the rest is just junk, Know that I will be watching over you and that I am proud of you for the rest of eternity knowing that you are loved.

With all my love

Dad

Carlisle POV

Bella held the letter tightly in her hands she had read it aloud and then seemed to be reading it over and over, none of us knew what to say none of us knew what to do and the house was quiet apart from Bella's silent tears and her heartbeat. Alice had only seen the vision seconds before the explosion was heard Victoria's decision to kill Charlie had come through loud and clear yet none of us understood how Alice hadn't had the vision of Charlie's plans to which Alice was devastated.

"He was dying?" she looked to me I had already got Charlie's medical records from the hospital although I did break a few rules but I knew Bella would want answers

I moved so I was directly in front of her.

"Yes Bella he was diagnosed in early October it had already spread to his heart and liver last tests show it had gone through all his body. He seemed to be in minimal pain which he to pain killers for"

"It would have got worse" I wanted to lie to her but knew I couldn't

"Yes much if he had lived the pain would have become more severe over time until he was in agony."

"But this, the explosion it was…" she couldn't bring herself to say it I nodded

"Yes, even if he had felt anything the explosion would have killed him with in a second or two any pain would have been brief it was quick." She nodded more tears spilling from his eyes

"Why didn't he tell me" it wasn't a question so no one answered I was starting to become worried about her health now she had only just started getting better after the rape I was scared this would set her back I decided that she needed some sleep I looked over to Alice and she nodded

"Just a light sedative and she will find it easier in the morning." Alice said to quick for Bella's ears

"Bella I am going to give you a light Sedative you need to sleep ok" She looked at me and I thought she was going to argue with me but she simply nodded I retrieved the sedative and injected it into her arm a few minutes later her eyes slowly closed her heartbeat evened out and she fell asleep leaning on Edward.