Fallen ch.11
Okay, I'm sorry it has been awhile since I have updated. I haven't forgotten about this. Was just wondering where to go from here. This chapter is more for healing after everything that has happened. I hope it's not to boring but they need a reprieve sometimes... Maybe in the next one things might pick up a little... I have a couple of ideas floating around.
Seth caught up with his brothers at the beginning of the walkway leading to the house. " Hold on a moment. I have something to ask you two..."
Alexis had gotten out of the shower and found the note on the bed and decided to get dressed in jeans and T-shirt before sitting on the bed brushing out her hair not wanting to leave the room at all until they came back. When she was done she leaned against the headboard, arms loosely wrapped around her legs as she lightly chewed her bottom lip waiting nervously as unwanted thoughts kept coming at her. Minutes passed as she almost felt worried. * Did they change their mind after all? What if something bad happened to them?* She wanted to go find them but was terrified something would happen. Her stomach started to get upset with the worry she was feeling. Slowly she went to get off the bed when Roman was there in the doorway. Relief flooded her as she shot off the bed and ran to him wrapping her arms around his waist, burying her face in his chest.
Roman caught her and was a little surprised by her actions as he almost had to take a step back from the force of her running to him. Her words had him tightening his hold on her a little. " I was getting so worried for you guys. It seemed like you were gone for quite awhile. " A muscle worked in his jaw. " Didn't you get the note? " She nods against his chest feeling more secure now that one of them was here with her. He felt her trembling slightly as he placed a kiss on top of her head. Closing his eye's he took a deep breath. " We never meant to worry you Alexis. Seth had to go talk to Emily about something, while Dean and I went to grab our things. " His hand started to rub her back soothing her.
Alexis took a deep breath taking his scent in. When he tried to move she tightened her hold causing him to chuckle. " I was going to see if you wanted to go to the living room, but we can stay here a little longer. " Alexis felt silly now when he said that and went to take a step back. " I'm sorry. Of course. " He caught the faint tremor in her voice and scooped her up in his arms and took her out to the couch and sat with her in his lap. She kept her hands in front of her, twisting and un-twisting her fingers as she watched them not wanting to look at him just yet. Roman watched her a moment before laying a hand over hers stilling her movements. " Alexis. Can you look at me please." Taking a deep breath she bit her lip and does. Roman felt like he got sucker punched at the look in her eye's. * She looks lost. Like she doesn't know what to do, or how to act. * He placed a gentle kiss on her forehead. " Things will be alright. It'll just take some time. " Tears quickly built and a couple spilled over as she looked at him. " I'm scared Roman. I wanted to go find you guys but I couldn't! I was scared to leave the house! I was afraid of what would happen if I did. " Cupping her face he gently wiped away her tears as a muscle worked in his jaw. Alexis looked at him and saw heartache and sadness in his grey eye's. Then his composure cracked even more as tears filled his eye's as he tried not to cry. Suddenly he held her to him burying his face in her neck and broke down. " I'm so sorry Alexis. So sorry..." She wrapped her arms around him and cried with him. They stayed like that for awhile as they started to calm down. She finally managed to move enough so she was straddling his lap to get more comfortable as she played with his hair. They heard Dean and Seth come in through the kitchen and temporarily froze at them on the couch before quickly joining them one on either side. Seth. " What's wrong? What happened? " Alexis pulled back enough to look at Roman and tenderly wipe a few stray tears from him smiling softly before looking at Seth. " We had a good cry. " She took a deep breath. As her gaze went back to Roman for some strength. " I got scared. I wanted to leave the house and look for you guys because I was getting worried. I was scared of what would happen if I did leave the house. " Roman had returned her smile as he wiped a few tears from her as well. Dean ran his hands through his hair, not sure what he was feeling. He felt a lot of things at once but knew she needed re-assurance. He wrapped his arms around her and buried his face into her shoulders feeling his own tears build up as a muscle worked furiously in Seth's jaw as a tear slips free from him. Reaching out she pulled him to her and wrapped an arm around him as well. All three were now against her as she provided comfort to them and vice versa. After a little bit they pulled away to look at each other. Dean wiped his eye's. " Guys aren't supposed to cry. " Smiling softly she cupped his cheek. " Say's who? Personally, I think it shows you actually care. " Seth placed a kiss on her shoulder as he closed his eye's a moment. " More than you'll ever know. " he muttered. Roman ran a hand over her hair and smiles softly at her. " I think this is a step in the right direction. For all of us. "
After a few more minutes they let her get up to make them something to eat as they were hungry. Dean stayed with her in the kitchen as she cooked while Roman and Seth went to run a little. Justin had called Seth and let him know that he told his clan to stay away from them for a while after what had happened while Roman had called Wade and filled him in on what had happened without going into detail knowing he didn't need to know them. To say Wade was un-happy was an understatement. He was livid that someone tried to destroy them. Wade. " They knew you are her mates and tried to take you lot away from her! You should have killed them slowly or wait until we got there and we would make sure they suffered. " He muttered some more curses as Roman frowns. " Until you get here? Where are you? And who is with you? " Wade chuckles. " Me and a few others were coming to see her and hopefully cheer her up and persuade her to take you lot back if she didn't already. "Roman chuckles slightly. "When will you be here? " " In about 12 hours. Give or take. " Roman ran a hand through his hair. " Listen, I don't know if she's ready for sympathy from everyone just yet. Justin has warned everyone to stay away for awhile until we come to grips with everything and re-assure Alexis that we aren't going anywhere. Not without her. " Wade couldn't help the genuine smile that appeared on his face. " You lot really care for her don't you? It's more than her being a mate for you three. Isn't it? "
Roman looked at Seth who nodded as he answered. " Yes. The boys and I have talked and realized that we love her more than our own lives. " Wade grins as he took a deep breath. " What did Alexis say about it? " Roman swallows hard. " We haven't told her yet. We were wondering how too." Wade caught the slightly nervous tone in his voice and smiles. " You'll know. Just...don't leave it to long. It's all about timing. Now, we'll see you soon and yes, Justin knows we're coming. " With that he hung up leaving the two men pondering as Roman re-told the conversation to Seth.
Dean watched her move around the kitchen almost mechanically. His heart felt heavy as he tapped out a rhythm on his collar bone. He could barely take it as she prepared a meal for them. " Can I help you Alexis? " She paused to look at him and saw a mix of emotions in his eye's as he saw shadows in hers. " If you like Dean. " Getting up he went to her side and smiled softly. " I would. " Returning his smile she gave him a hug feeling herself relax a little. Soon they were working smoothly side by side as her thoughts rested on the three of them. * How would I tell them how I feel about them? How would they respond? Would they look at me in sympathy? * Her heart felt heavy as they finished preparing the meal. Dean noticed her hands shaking a little while they cooked and frowned. " Alexis? Are you alright? " Looking at him she saw the concern for her and something else she wasn't sure of. As she was about to answer the back door opened as Roman and Seth stepped through. Both men smile softly at her. Seth. " It smells really good. " She felt herself get more nervous as she knew she had to tell them soon but was still unsure of how they'd react. She dropped her gaze briefly. " Thank you. Dean helped." Roman went to get a drink. " He likes to cook when he can. He enjoys it. " They noticed she was getting nervous but didn't know why. Dean placed a gentle hand on her shoulder. " Alexis, you know we'd never hurt you right? " Seth and Roman stiffen waiting to hear her answer. Her voice was soft when she spoke. " I know you three would never hurt me on purpose..." Seth went over to her, his gaze never leaving her. " If you want to say something to us you can. Even if it's in anger we would never raise a hand to you. " She looked at him in surprise a moment before smiling softly laying a hand on his chest. " I know. " After they ate and cleaned up they went to the living room to watch T.V. to no avail. Alexis was trying not to fidget as she sat between Roman and Seth with Dean on the other side of Seth. All three noticed and looked at each other and gave a silent nod before Roman turned the T.V. off and they stood startling her a little. " What? What's wrong?" They saw the hint of fear in her eye's before she hid it as she stiffened slightly looking at them. Seth smiled softly as he held out his hand to her. " Nothing Alexis. We're thinking some fresh air would be nice. " Roman. " I'll go get the blanket. " Alexis swallows hard as she slowly stood. " Fresh air? " Her arms go around herself as she tensed. " Outside? " Seth and Dean could see the fear in her eye's and smell it. Dean spoke softly to her as Seth went to talk to Roman. " Alexis, we will be out there with you this time. " Looking into his blue eye's she knew they would do their best to keep her safe no matter what. She smiled slightly. " Maybe the back porch for now...? " Leaning in he gave her a gentle kiss on her forehead. " Anything you want darlin'. " She gave a hesitant nod as Roman and Seth came back and they went onto the back porch. All three noticed how tense she was as she sat down and looked at each other sadly. After a little bit she slowly relaxed as they sat there in silence, letting the night sounds surround them. They would tense a few times as creatures moved in the underbrush but the men would take a deep breath and relax at the scent of the animal. Alexis on the other hand seemed to get more tense as she sat there trying not to let it show. Tears burned the back of her eye's as she remembered the girls words at how they wanted to prove how weak she was to them and how they deserved better than her. And they would prove it. Alexis bit her lip hard to keep the sob that threatened inside. Even after death they seemed to torment her. Finally she couldn't take it anymore as she stood and rushed inside startling them. Seth followed her this time as he went to the bedroom and saw her curled up in the middle of the bed, hugging a pillow, crying. Swallowing hard, he climbed onto the bed beside her and stroked a hand over her hair. " Alexis...? " Her soft spoken words tore at him. "They wanted to prove how weak I was to you. How you three deserved better. " She swallows hard as she raised her gaze to his. " Maybe they were right. Maybe I am weak..." Seth clenched his jaw as he growled. " NO! " He closed his eye's briefly when he saw her flinch slightly. " You are not weak Alexis. We do not think you are. If anything, we think you are strong. You stopped a storm for us. You placed your trust back in us when we didn't think we'd deserve it after everything that has happened. You stood up to your god-parents and us. That takes strength. " Roman's voice joined in. " Courage. " He joined them on the other side of the bed. Dean. " Heart. " He sat at the foot of the bed. Seth. " We could not ask for anyone better than you Alexis. " He gently cups her cheek letting her see everything. Her eye's widen slightly at what she see's in his brown depths as she gasps softly. Seth gives her a tender smile, his gaze not leaving hers. " What do you see Alexis? " She frowns slightly not quite sure if she's seeing what she thinks she is. Swallowing hard she took the plunge. " It... it look's like... love? " He nods, before pulling her up into his arms and buries his face into her neck holding her tight. " We love you so much Alexis... It kills us knowing you're hurting and we can't do anything to stop it. We can't stand to see you upset. " Roman and Dean move closer so they can surround her with their heat. Dean. " We can't stand to see you cry. " Roman. " We'd do anything in our power for you. " Seth. " To see you laugh and smile... Is priceless to us. " Alexis feels her heart swell as she reached up to cup Seth's face and look into his eye's before looking at Roman and Dean. She saw the same thing in their gaze and their aura's. She smiled softly at all three men. " You three love me. " They nod in unison. " When I was upset with you and had nightmares, you took turns helping chase them away. When you had the chance you stayed by me. You followed me here to prove yourselves. You have been so caring and gentle with me... " She took a deep breath as she looked at them. " How could I not love you. " All three stiffen. Dean clears his throat. " Alexis, darlin'...Do you love us? " She bit her lip as she nods. Fresh tears fell. " I do. I love all three of you equally. " Before she knew it they wrapped her into their arms and around each other in a four way hug causing her to giggle a little. They each placed a kiss on her temples before pulling back slightly to look at her smiling softly. She returns it feeling better. Not fully yet but better. " I feel a little better knowing that we feel the same way about each other. " Dean snorts. " Ah, I love them a lot different than you darlin.' I don't want to snuggle up with them. They're my 'brothers' but I wont go any farther than that. "
Alexis broke down into giggles hearing that. The knot inside them seemed to disappear for the moment with her laugh. " Not even one time? " Roman. " Ah, sorry sweetheart, but no. " She laughed more before calming down. " I'm sorry about earlier..." Seth. " Don't be Alexis. Our emotions are going to go up and down for awhile. " Roman. " That's when we lean on each other for support. " Dean. " We're not the greatest at expressing how we feel except when it comes to you. Like Seth said before, You can tell us anything and we won't get upset with you. " Biting her lip she frames Seth's face feeling a little nervous about what she wanted to do. " What is it honey? " She drew his head down to brush her lips over his before doing the same to Roman and Dean. " I love you three. " They smiled at her. Dean. " We love you too darlin'. " She covers a yawn causing them to grin. Seth brushed a kiss on top of her head. " Time for bed Alexis. " After getting ready for bed, They lay there talking softly about helping her deal with going outside. Roman. " We will do our best to make sure you're comfortable out there again Alexis. " Seth. " We'll go at your pace. " Dean. " We wont rush you into anything your not ready for. " smiling softly she snuggles more into Roman's side as she reached across for Seth's hand after she brought Dean's arm around her from behind. Soon, they all fell asleep. They couldn't help but stay in a light sleep as they kept their senses open for any threat to their mate. They would kill anyone that they saw as a threat. They should have done it with Summer and Eva but refrained because they were part of Justin's pack. They won't make the same mistake twice.
In the morning she woke still snuggled against Roman and couldn't help but smile softly. His arm tightened slightly around her. " Good morning Alexis." She hugged him back. " Good morning Roman. " She props herself up on his chest to look at him. He grins as he ran a hand over her hair. " I've discovered you are beautiful all the time. "
She laughs softly. " How can I be beautiful right now? I just woke up. My hair is a mess. My eye's feel puffy and gritty from all the crying I've done..." He gave her a peck on her lips stopping her. " Knowing that you are here with us. Going to sleep and waking up with you. It's amazing. You look beautiful to us no matter what. You could have a bad cold and still look incredible to us. " She felt herself blush. " Thank you Roman. That was one of the sweetest things I've heard. " Dean. " And we'll keep saying them to you. " She rolled over and saw him enter carrying a full tray of food. Her and Roman sat up as Dean joined them placing the tray between them. Alexis took a deep breath eyeing the food. " It looks and smells delicious Dean. " Reaching out she took a piece of bacon and ate it. " It's perfect! I love when bacon has a hint of crisp to it. " Looking at the tray she noticed the array of fruit as well as the bacon, toast with apricot mango jam on it with as well as hard boiled eggs. Even coffee which made her smile in appreciation. Leaning over she placed a kiss on his cheek. " Thank you for doing this Dean. " " Anything for you darlin'. " A short while later she stood at the back door nervous. Roman wrapped his arms around her from behind startling her a little. " It's alright sweetheart. Even the back porch is fine for now. " He placed a kiss on top of her head. With a nod she stepped out onto the porch as a light breeze seemed to wrap around her. Closing her eye's she took a deep breath enjoying the smell of nature as it out weighed the city smell where they were. She couldn't help but smile softly as she kept her eye's closed and just listened to what was around her. Roman felt her relax in his arms and smiles. * She needs this. She needs to feel life around her, enveloping her and welcoming her. * Dean came around the corner of the house and froze looking at how at peace she seemed. He had to swallow the lump that had suddenly formed in his throat as his hands clenched the flowers that he held. Then her eye's open and looked at him before smiling softly as he went up to her holding the mixed bouquet of flowers for her. He swallows as he looked at her before handing the flowers to her. " I thought you'd like some to brighten the day maybe, I don't know..." Stepping forward she accepted the flowers from him and gives him a brief kiss. " They are beautiful Dean. Thank you. " She smelled them still smiling. Dean smiled relaxing his stance at her smile that lit up her face. Turning she went back inside to get something to put them in. Roman grins at him. " Good call man. " Dean returns it. " I saw them and thought she would like them. " The grin fades. " We should tell her that Wade and her friends are here. " Roman takes a deep breath. " I know. Just not sure how she'll take the news. Will she be happy, upset, cry, throw things... I don't know. " Dean rubs his chin. " Can't see her throwing anything. Hope she'll be happy though. " Seth came in through the kitchen and saw her putting the flowers in a makeshift vase. He stayed far enough away so he doesn't startle her. " Morning Alexis. " Turning she smiles a little shyly at him. " Good morning Seth. Look what Dean brought me. " He went over to her and gave her a gentle hug while breathing her scent in. " Well, you did say you like flowers. " She laughs softly as Roman and Dean stepped inside.
" I did indeed. " Seth ran a hand over his face and took a deep breath. " Some people came to surprise you with a visit. They're staying nearby..." She pales slightly. " Wade."
The three men looked at each other. Roman. " Ah, how did you know Alexis? " She lifts a shoulder as she looked at him. " Only one I can see doing that. " Her gaze went back to Seth. " He knows doesn't he? " Seth nods. " He does. If I didn't tell him Justin would have. And if he didn't, when Wade would have found out, our heads would have been on pikes. " She wrapped her arms around herself her gaze dropping. She took a deep breath and raises her gaze to Seth's as a tear slips free. " If anyone tried to hurt either of you, I would kill them. I wouldn't care if they are like family or not. " All three stiffen at her words. Dean. " I don't think Wade actually would hurt us darlin'. It's just a figure of speech. "
Closing her eye's she took a slow deep breath. " I know. But I meant it. I won't let anyone utter threats or try to hurt you. " They went over to her and surrounded her, arms over each others shoulders. Seth. " Just as we would do the same for you honey. " She smiled softly as she cupped his cheek as she realized all of their aura's blended smoothly together. She brought his head down to hers and gave him a tender kiss before doing the same to Dean and Roman. " Out aura's are blending together. " Dean. " Is that good or bad? " Her eye's warm. " It's a very good thing. It basically means we were meant to be where we are. " Roman. " Damn straight! " She was pacing in the living room as she waited for Roman to get back. Dean and Seth watched slightly amused as she twisted and un-twisted her fingers. Dean. " Darlin' . You're wearing me out with all the pacing. " She stopped to look at them. " I'm sorry, I'm just so nervous and a little scared to see him after everything that has happened..." They saw tears fill her eye's as they stood and went to her and wrapped her in their arms. Dean. " I didn't want you upset Alexis. I was just teasing. " She burrowed into his chest as she sniffles a little. " I know you didn't mean anything by it Dean. I'm just feeling like I'm going to disappoint everyone somehow." Seth stood behind her and rubbed a hand up and down her back soothingly. His voice soft when he lowered his head by her ear. " You could never disappoint anyone Alexis. " Dean. " Fuck 'em. If they don't understand that's their loss. " She couldn't help but smile slightly in Dean's chest as she hugged him. " Alexis? " The two men pull back slightly so she could see Wade there beside Roman. She bit her lip hard as she looked at him. Wade swallowed hard at the anguish in her eye's. His gaze softens as he looks at her. " It's alright now luv. " With a choked sob she bolted out of their arms and into Wades. He grunted slightly at the impact as his arms go automatically around her holding her to him. All four men heard her soft voice. " Please don't hate me. " A muscle worked in his jaw as he place a kiss on top of her head. " I never could Alexis. Your like a little sister to me. And I can't get mad at either of them. None of you had any control whats so ever over what happened. " She pulls back sightly to look at him, smiling softly. " Thank you. " Wade smiles softly as he placed a kiss on her fore head. " You are most welcome Alexis. Now, my I ask for a cup of tea?" Alexis smiles as she wiped a few stray tears away. " Tea sounds lovely. " She leans closer to him and gestures to her mates. " They are not a fan, so it's nice to have tea with someone. " Wade chuckles as they head for the kitchen as they follow, glad to hear her teasing a little. As Wade sat at the table he noticed Seth standing close to her but not enough to over whelm her. * They're letting her know silently that they are there and will protect her at all costs. * He noticed Dean leaning against the side of the fridge as Roman had a position by the back door keeping an eye out that way. Seth kept casting covert glances towards the front door while smiling and talking with her. " We'll drink tea Alexis. We just prefer coffee is all. " Her eye's light up a little as she smiles at him. " I can't seem to recall a single time when any of you have had a tea..." His smile widens at her light teasing. " How about now? " She tilts her head and looks at him then Roman and Dean before grinning. " Nope, can't see it. " Dean placed a hand over his heart. " That's hurtful darlin'. " Roman chuckles. " I actually would like one. The last time I had one was quite a while ago. " Seth and Dean looked at him surprised. Seth. " When was that? " Roman grins. " When you two yahoo's weren't around. " Everyone looks at Dean, including Wade. Dean looked offended. " What? Are you guys insinuating that I would have bugged him about it continuously? " Seth and Roman answered at the same time. "Yes! " Alexis and Wade looked at each other and laughed. Dean points a finger at Seth. " You would have done the same thing just differently. " Roman looks at Seth pondering that. " You're right. He would have. " While the kettle boiled Alexis went over and gave Roman a hug. " I'll protect you Roman. " Chuckling he wrapped his arms around her placing a kiss on top of her head. " Thank you sweetheart. " Wade watched with appreciation on how they were treating her. * They really do love her and her them. They are doing what they can. * Once the kettle was done she had also made coffee for the boy's. Sure enough Roman had tea with them as Dean and Seth had coffee. Alexis took a drink before looking at Wade. " How are they doing? " Taking a drink he looked at her. " They are doing alright. They are still coming to terms with on how things could have been handled better. " " Good. So, is A.J. with you as well? " Wade chuckles. "As soon as she caught wind of me coming she begged me to take her as well. Then she threatened to hide in someones luggage if she didn't come. " Alexis laughs at the image she got. " I can see her doing that. " She took another drink of her tea. " I would love to see her. " All four men smile at her. Wade. " She would love to see you too Alexis. Just name the place and you'll know she'll be there. " Her smile faltered a little at the thought of going out of the house. " I know she will. " They talked a little longer about the others that came with him and Wade told the guys some funny stories from when she was younger. Alexis got caught up in the stories and laughed and put in her version as well when needed. Soon Wade left as Seth offered to drive him this time. Once the door closed she turned to Dean and Roman. They knew she didn't want to leave the house yet and when Wade said name the place she closed up slightly until the stories were told. With out a word she went up to both men, tugged them close to her so she could hug them both. Without a word they returned it not saying anything as they held her.
They knew it was hard on her as it was them. That was why one stayed with her when the other two went out to check the area as well as get a quick run in. They wanted her safe and would ensure she feels it. Yes they wanted her body as well but knew that it would take time for that part of their lives. They just hope that it won't be to long. They're not sure on how long they can wait before the urge is there to mate. But, for her they were willing to wait as long as necessary.
Sorry if there's any *oops* in this chapter. This one was a little different from the others because there is no threat as of yet. I want them to try to heal more first before throwing more their way. Also, not sure when I will be updating after this. Starting a new job and all. But I have not, nor will I forget about this story or all of you that have left reviews and favorited this story. I thank you all from the bottom of my heart. Virtual hugs all around!