Desires

After finding out that the colt wouldn't be able to kill the devil things settled back into the usual routine for the brothers. Gabriel was seen in and out so far having nothing new to try but when he did come around he was hanging out around Sam. Sam didn't mind either since he was beginning to see that Gabriel was really on their side. Dean still needed to be won over but most of the progress he had toward Gabriel was thanks to Castiel. He couldn't help but notice that when Gabriel was visiting them quickly Castiel was there as well. Castiel was stood near Gabriel and listened to his every word including the bad news portion of it. He could understand Castiel's need to be near him and talk with Gabriel since he knew how hard it was to lose a brother. Granted he didn't deal with the loss of his brother as long as Castiel did with Gabriel but he still knew the pain.

The relationship between Dean and Castiel had quickly healed and there wasn't any more discussion about the kisses that they had shared. Dean ignored it every time it was brought up and Castiel soon learned that if he wanted to keep talking with the hunter he would just have to forget it ever happened. It was hard for him since he could tell that Dean wanted it just as badly or he wouldn't have returned it like he did. He just wished he knew how to approach the topic because he would like to kiss him again and he couldn't help himself from looking into Dean's mind finding that he wanted to as well…

Dean wasn't in the mood for Valentine's this year and wished that the holiday would be skipped somehow. He didn't know why since usually he would be more than ready to find a woman or even a few to spend the night with. He would like to investigate where the urge to be abuse this holiday went but they had a pretty odd case on their hands. Sam found out that the victim's hearts had what appeared to be an Enochian sigil on them and that was the only clue they had right now. He took out his phone and called Castiel's. "Hey Cas, we have some angelic clues here, we need your help."

"Where are you?"

"Saint Mary's hospital Morgue in Burningham, New Jersey." he answered and was looking off to the side as he walked around the table or he would have stopped a lot sooner than he did. Castiel had appeared right in front of him with them barely over a foot apart from each other.

"I'm there."

"I get that." nodded Dean as they both continued to hold their phones and stare at each other. Sam literally felt like a third wheel with just the two of them staring. He just wanted Dean to get over whatever obstacle was keeping him from having Castiel so he wouldn't be stuck where he was now waiting for their eye fuck to get down.

"I'm going to get off the phone now." said Castiel a little uncomfortable and not sure of what to say. Dean only nodded and their staring match continued for a few more seconds before Castiel finally moved to shut his phone and pocket it. That broke the trance Dean found himself in and did the same with his own phone. "I understand you need my help."

Sam nodded and motioned the angel over to the table as he pushed the container with the heart inside of it. "It looks like an Enochian sigil and we were hoping you could tell us what it meant."

Castiel didn't need gloves as he picked up the heart and turned it over in his hand. When he saw the mark he instantly knew what was going on. "It's a mark of union. This person was marked by a cupid to be a soul mate for another human."

"Well the two of them ate each other alive." pointed out Dean.

"That is very strange but there is no way a cupid could cause that unless the arrows were poisoned." he explained.

"So it looks like we're hunting a baby in a diaper then." he smiled definitely glad they got an interesting hunt like this one.

Castiel shook his head looking over at Dean. "Your bible got that one wrong Dean and tends to get more wrong than right."

"Where do we go hunting for a cupid then?" asked Sam.

"Seriously…a bar?" asked Dean looking around expecting anything at this point to come out of nowhere and touch two people. He didn't understand why a cupid would be hunting in a bar since not a lot of people meet at bars and actually stick around.

Castiel nodded finding nothing wrong with the environment. "It is the perfect place."

Sam decided to take a more logical approach to why they were here. "How do we know he is here?"

"I will be able to sense him." he assured Sam.

The waitress who took their order came back with two plates of food setting them down in front of Sam and Dean. Dean grabbed the ketchup and put a rather gracious amount onto the burger before moving to take a bite out of the burger. He stopped though when it was close to his mouth and he set back on the table. "Dean?" asked Sam never seeing his brother turn down a chance to eat a greasy hamburger. "Are you feeling sick?" Sam could understand if he didn't want to participate in the usual festivities for Valentine's day when he was focused on Castiel but turning down food?

"Yeah I'm fine, just not that hungry."

"You're not going to eat it?" asked Castiel too distracted since he was watching Dean the whole time with his hamburger or he would have sensed Cupid's magic working on that particular hamburger after Dean picked it up.

"Go ahead."

Castiel picked up the burger and Cupid was glad another job was completed. Cupids have had tough jobs before but this job concerning his own brother was the hardest one anyone has ever dealt with and there have been several other times where a cupid has done something. Nothing seemed to be working so far which is why the continued to get orders and would until it finally worked. Cupid flew over to another couple he was ordered to take care of and that small movement caught Castiel's attention. "He's here." He then turned to have a small wind pick up out of nowhere and make a napkin fly and hit the couple who were close to each other. Sam and Dean were looking around for someone new in the bar and Dean was the one who caught the napkin.

"Was that seriously him?"

"Meet me in the back." he stated instead of answering the question and the burger suddenly dropped to the plate as Castiel disappeared. Sam didn't care too much about his food at that point and followed quickly after Dean to the back of the bar. They about passed the room Castiel was in and weren't sure what was going on. Castiel had his hand out holding onto the cupid. "Manifest yourself." he demanded and after a few seconds he dropped his hand looking around.

"Did it work?" asked Dean but before Castiel could answer somebody hugged him from behind.

"Here I am!" smiled what they assumed was Cupid who hugged Dean tightly enough to lift him off the ground and keep him from freeing his arms. Dean looked helpless as he was too shocked to even say anything until he was let go. He watched dumbfounded along with Sam as the Cupid walked over to Castiel. "Brother! It is so good to see you!" he exclaimed before hugging Castiel and lifting him off the ground slightly.

Castiel had absolutely no reaction and didn't even bother trying to return the hug. "What..ar-are we in a fight? Should we be fighting?!" frantically asked Dean having no idea of what he should be doing and looked between Sam and Castiel for an answer.

Cupid turned around and spotted Sam. "Look at you! You get one too." he smiled and Sam really didn't care for a hug from him turning around to try avoiding it. He only ran into the Cupid who hugged him just as tightly as the other two.

"It is normal Dean. This is their handshake." he assured the eldest so that he wouldn't begin fighting since they needed to find out what was going on.

"Well I don't like it."

"No one does."

Cupid soon pulled away from Sam and walked over to a spot so he could look at the three. "Now why did you manifest me brother?" he asked hoping that he didn't sense the magic he had done earlier.

"The people you are marking, they are killing each other." began Castiel but Dean quickly interrupted him.

"So we need you to stop poisoning your arrows."

"What?"

"Don't pretend to not know. Your love birds are murdering each other." he stressed.

Cupid shook his head looking completely lost. "No, no, no, that shouldn't happen."

"You're obviously doing something!"

Cupid began to look heartbroken and turned away from the three as he began to cry. He didn't want to cry but he couldn't believe he was failing at his job. He loved love and hated to see it being destroyed. "I'm not doing it on purpose! Whatever they do after I hit them with the arrow is their business!"

Sam frowned slightly but knew they shouldn't just leave him crying like that. "Someone has to go cheer him up."

Dean quickly volunteered Castiel patting his shoulder. "Go get 'em buddy."

Castiel's eyes widened slightly because he wasn't that good at giving advice or being able to tell emotion. He really didn't want to be the one to console since he wasn't sure if he would say the right words but the brothers continued to look at him and Cupid's crying got louder. He resigned himself turning around and going up behind the Cupid. Castiel reached out like he wanted to pat his back and hesitated trying to think of words to say. "It's…okay." he said nearly sounding like a question. He barely got one pat on the Cupid's back before the cherub turned around pulling him into another hug.

"I love, love Castiel and if loving love and doing my job is wrong I don't want to be right." he sobbed into his shoulder.

"You're okay." he said slowly and even brought his arms to rest on his back while one patted him lightly.

Cupid soon calmed down and pulled away, "I'm sorry. I really don't know what's happening but I was so enthusiastic to get this assignment because one of our biggest ones we've worked on since the Mary and John Winchester match was here."

"You guys found famine?" asked Gabriel as right after he appeared into the room. Castiel had been cluing him in the whole time and he was glad for that. He had run across a lead and it involved the four horsemen so if they were able to find a way to talk to Famine, they might have another way to ice the devil.

"Yes." nodded Castiel through a mouth full of burger. Gabriel raised an eyebrow but didn't really question it right now and looked over at Dean. Dean looked like he was handling Famine's power very well since he wasn't out having sex or drinking himself to death. "What are you guys planning on doing with him?"

"Kill him of course."

Gabriel frowned instantly at that shaking his head. "You can't kill him I have a lead about how to get rid of Lucifer and it deals with the four horsemen."

"Then we'll find another horsemen who isn't killing off a whole town as we speak." he stated crossing his arms. Castiel was too content right now to eat the last few burgers in the bag he had gotten to argue or input his own advice about the situation.

Sam was in the bathroom splashing cold water and more cold water on his face. He just wanted, needed to calm down and get his mind focused on something else, anything! He grabbed the towel and wiped at his face to dry it off as he stared in the mirror. His breath was a little heavy and he closed his eyes trying to count. Ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two, one… That didn't help at all as he felt his mouth go dry as if he was speaking the numbers instead increasing his need to drink demon blood.

"Sam?" asked Gabriel placing a hand on his shoulder and startling the hunter. Gabriel never really thought he could catch the hunter off guard like that when they were on a hunt or he might have just not heard the argument getting done with in the other room. Dean was dead set on killing Famine and he had to leave when the hunter began bitching about how much hamburgers Castiel was eating. It didn't help that once Castiel finished the bag he was longingly staring at the bottom of it like more should magically appear. Dean-o must be jealous that a different meat is getting Cassy's attention.

"I can't help." he stated looking at Gabriel in the mirror before looking at him directly. "I can't."

Gabriel furrowed his eyebrows concerned and glad that they were building up their friendship again. "Why not?"

"I need it…I need blood." he said hating himself how he just couldn't control it but at least it made things a little easier to know it wasn't just his lack of control. Famine was hacking into his old addiction and forcing it out of him. "I need to be tied up until you guys take care of him, I don't want to drink it again."

Gabriel really hated how Sam could look so down, pitiful and lost so quickly. He was a natural too and that didn't help one bit. He wanted to go with Castiel and Dean so he could hopefully get in a few words with Famine before he died but if Sam was in this much trouble, he thought his place was here. "Alright, just stay in here and I'll get the other two to help."

After Gabriel told Dean about what was going on with Sam his brother tried to get Castiel to send him far away from the city. That was when he only found out that he couldn't do that since Famine was already affecting him and would just follow wherever he went infecting more people. Sam knew it wasn't a great idea but it would have to be done. "Dean, just lock me up, in the bathroom and make sure you cut the bastard's ring off before I get loose."

It didn't take too long for Dean to handcuff Sam around the pipe of the sink in the bathroom. "You'll be okay?"

"Just go get the ring." he said tired of feeling the urge to drink demon blood because he didn't like it before and now he really detested it.

Dean nodded and got up to leave the room so that Castiel could push the wardrobe in front of the door. "Come on Cas and Gabriel, we have to stop Famine tonight."

Castiel nodded moving to follow Dean but Gabriel hung back. Dean noticed when he only heard one other set of footsteps and looked back with a raised eyebrow. "I think I'll stick around and keep Sam company. I'll also make sure no one tries anything while he's immobile." he explained. "Just be careful you two." The two continued leaving the room and Gabriel didn't move until he heard the Impala start and pull out. He then snapped himself inside of the bathroom and sat down on the edge of the tub. "Well, looks like you'll have me to talk too." he smirked.

Sam had rested his head on the wall startling a little when Gabriel appeared. He relaxed right away closing his eyes. "I don't really want to talk Gabriel, sorry." he said softly just trying so hard to quell his demon blood addiction but he really had no idea of how to do that.

Gabriel couldn't blame him but he still didn't need to be quiet as he pursed his lips trying to think of something he could bring up. "What can help distract you?"

"Gabriel, I really don't know what can help. The last time I drank the blood I had to be locked up to detox."

"So? That's not what I was asking. I was asking if there would be a way to distract you." he smirked as he moved close to Sam and kneeled down next to him.

Sam opened his eyes and looked over at him furrowing his eyebrows. He wasn't even sure of where to begin to find some way to distract himself even though it would be nice if there was a way. "If you have any good ideas I'm up for suggestions." he stated feeling his mouth go dry again and moved his arms to get a glass of water but they didn't go very far.

Gabriel's smirk only grew and he knew that he would most likely be stepping over his boundaries yet he couldn't help it. Sam was too cute and on top of that it was always a good distraction. He leaned forward just as Sam looked at him about to ask for suggestions when he was quieted by their lips connecting. Now he was ready for Sam to find some way to push him back or pull away since he wasn't sure if he was reading the atmosphere right. They did flirt a lot, well technically him but whenever he did flirt, Sam always did it right back so that was the tiny bit of hope he was going for. I might as well just pull back now just in case.

Sam was hesitant since his brain had stopped working. It was a nice quiet after feeling his brain pulse from his heart rate going up and thoughts circling around blood, blood, and more blood. He relished in the quiet for a few seconds before he realized he should react and his reaction was to kiss the archangel back. He did flirt with Gabriel over texts and times when he would come visit him at the library because he enjoyed his company. Once you got past the candy addiction, things he had done in the past, and the ego that could sometimes show up he was just like the Janitor he met years back. He did crush on him then and as time continued to meeting him a second time, he ended up falling for him. He was the one who pulled away from the kiss with a small smile. "That did help a little."

Gabriel couldn't help looking surprised when he felt the other return the kiss but his smirk was right back when he said those words. "Well then how about we continue distracting you?"

"Dean, why is Famine not affecting you?" asked Castiel as he appeared back into the Impala with another bag of hamburgers. He had been doing that a lot, every time he ran out he went to go get more.

Dean shrugged a little at that learning not to talk about the amount of burgers he was eating since he found out he had lost count. "I don't know…when I want a drink, I go get it, when I want sex, I go get it." he explained.

"So you're adjusted?"

"God no, well fed." he smirked a little but it was unsettling how he wasn't reacting like everyone else. Dean wasn't even sure of what he would be addicted too if it would start affecting him.

Castiel nodded as he continued to eat the hamburgers and saw a demon walk out of the hospital. "That's him."

As much as Gabriel was enjoying the heated kisses he was sharing with Sam a presence in the room made him pull away. "We have company kiddo." he said and tried not to take too much pleasure out of seeing Sam's face red and slightly breathless. Sam heard people in the room as well and watched as Gabriel stood up. "I don't think it's our brothers." he said narrowing his eyes and summoned his angel blade. He was more than ready to attack the moment whoever it was got through the door. The only thing he wasn't ready for was to be hit by a glass bottle that was on fire. He screamed out in pain before he disappeared along with the fire.

Sam didn't know what had happened but it was obviously painful for the archangel. He glared at the two people who walked through the door and he instantly knew what they were. "No." he said already feeling the addiction quickly rise in his body. "What are you doing?" he asked ready to attack, not drink, not drink.

"We're here to free you." she answered bending down and easily getting the cuffs off.

Sam lost himself after that point because he was attacking the demons to keep them from harming him and hoped that Gabriel was okay. He was getting revenge for whatever they did to Gabriel but after he had pinned the woman underneath him his eyes focused on the main vein in her neck.

"You know the drill right?" he asked Castiel handing him the demon knife. Dean really didn't look like he was really focusing on what he was saying and he even seemed to come out of the back of his mind.

"Yes, I take the knife, go inside, and cut the ring off Famine's finger." he nodded and Dean was glad he was listening but didn't expect the angel to disappear right then. Castiel appeared inside where he felt Famine would be yet he wasn't there. The angel frowned and looked around at the empty diner where a few bodies were still sitting in the benches. He moved to walk to the back before Famine came out in his wheelchair.

"Hello Castiel." he smiled a little and motioned for the demon who had a tray full of raw hamburger forward. "Here is a present for you."

Castiel would normally ignore it but it was the red meat his vessel's body enjoyed more than anything. He blinked a little as he watched the demon set it on the ground and tried to ignore the desire to eat all of the meat. He succumbed after at least taking a step toward Famine before bending down to eat the meat.

Dean was outside and barely waited seven seconds before he felt this sudden urge to go inside. He almost wondered if the thing he was supposed to be addicted too could be inside but there wasn't much in there anymore from the way it looked on the outside. The only thing he knew for sure that was inside was demons, Famine, and Castiel. Demons he was never too fond of so there was no way that was the cause of this need to go inside and Famine himself would be a strange thing to desire. Castiel was the only option left and it was bothering him. He thought he had gotten rid of all feelings he could possibly have for the angel but the more he thought about Castiel the more he would rather like it if he was in the seat next to him. You've gotta be fucking kidding me. Dean tried to see what would happen if he started the Impala to leave just as experiment and instead of grabbing the keys, he grabbed his pistol and began heading inside. Once he caught up with his body he decided to quickly tell himself a lie. "It's taking too long."

Gabriel finally got back to the room after too long and was pissed. His six wings that couldn't be seen were ruffled and puffed showing his anger as he looked around the motel room. It was destroyed and he saw the two demons bodies, dead and drained. "Great…" he sighed quickly disappearing to find out where Sam had gone having a pretty good idea he would be where Famine was.

That is exactly where Sam went and it was a good thing too. Dean was captured, Castiel was busy, and he was the one who saved them. He was glad Famine ate the demons so he could destroy them while they were all inside of him and that gave them the chance to get the ring off. Sam wasn't given the option to just forget his need for demon blood though since he drank it.

"Sam? Did the bastard really send two demons to get you?" asked Dean.

Sam nodded and was about to say more when Gabriel appeared in the room. "Looks like you boys got it handled." he said before looking directly at Sam. "I'm sorry I couldn't stop them."

"It's fine Gabriel." he assured him with a small smile.

"Don't smile right now gigantor. The demon blood moustache you got going on makes it creepy." he said but with a small smirk so he knew he was teasing him before snapping his fingers to clean his face. Gabriel wished he could help him out with the detoxing though so he wouldn't have to go through the pain of getting demon blood out of his system. The only good thing about this time was that he didn't consume a lot of blood.

Dean was slightly surprised when Gabriel stated he wanted to stay in the panic room with Sam since it didn't go the greatest when he began detoxing. It would be definitely an interesting sight for Gabriel when the withdrawals began kicking in but he had a feeling he was doing it more so that Sam wasn't left alone. He couldn't stay in there since it was hard for him to hear and see his brother in pain. So with Sam and Gabriel in the panic room, Bobby on a hunt, it left Dean and Castiel in the kitchen. Castiel was awkwardly sitting across from Dean as he continued to stare at the wall and move his beer bottle in a slow circle. He knew that something was wrong with Dean and he could easily see it. "Dean, something is wrong." he started wondering if that would get him to talk. Dean however stayed quiet not even bothering to glance at Castiel. "Are you worried about Sam? I can assure you that Gabriel will make sure he deals with as little pain as possible."

"It's not about Sam." he said glancing finally but it wasn't toward Castiel, it was at the beer before he set it down on the table completely ignoring it.

"Then what is bothering you?" he asked pressing the subject since he didn't like what it was doing to Dean.

Dean didn't say anything for the longest time and the quiet was beginning to bother him. He didn't know how to go about this or if he even should after he had completely ignored that time, refusing to talk about it to Castiel. "I had a desire that Famine touched."

Castiel furrowed his eyebrows, "But you did not act any different."

"That's because what I desired was with me the whole time."

Castiel really didn't feel like guessing especially since whatever was his desire was making Dean act so different. "Sam?" he tried.

"It was you Cas…" he said softly surprised himself he was able to get it out.

Alright so I barely got this chapter done in time. In time you ask? My fucking college decided that right before the Thanksgiving vacation that they would shut down the internet to update it so I had to get this done before I had no internet until I was home. I hope you guys enjoyed this rather lengthy chapter, nearly 5K, and continue reading!