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I was running to my room as fast as I could, needing to be alone. Needing quiet so I could just think about what happened. I prayed that the others had not seen what Logan had.

Isn't it always when you need to be alone that you can't?

Rounding a corner, I saw Diffuse. I would not have realised it was her if not for her exceptionally bright hallow. Why I would not have recognised her was 1) Most of her was covered and 2) Most of her was covered with a boy.

"Diffuse!" I said, totally shocked, as I pulled the boy off of her.

It was that pervert, Arez!

Arez smirked at me, "You jell'n on what you missed out, new girl? Wish you could have gotten this action? Understandable."

"You sicken me." I hissed at him. "She is at least four years younger than you!"

I tried to pull Diffuse away with me, but she held her ground. Again I looked at her in shock as she yanked her arm back and placed herself in Arez's arms.

"What the hell do you think you're doing!" She shrieked at me.

"Um, maintaining whatever pride you have left?" I yelled back at her. "What do you think you're doing, making out with that pervert?"

"Feeling good about myself, something that hasn't happened in a long time! Arez thinks I'm beautiful!" Diffuse yelled.

"Have you gone stupid since the last time we saw each other? He just wants you for-" My scold was interrupted by an awful laugh from Diffuse.

"And how long ago was that? What, now that you have normal looking friends you just ditch us freaks?" She screeched into my face, her words making me back up. "Now that you have that handsome Russian, you'll just forget about Derik? He too "mutant" for yah? Too ugly for the pretty "normal" girl? I told him that you would leave him at the first chance to have a handsome human looking boy, falling at your feet!"

"Derik and I never-"

"But you led him on! You made him think that it would work out between you two once we were safe! And what about poor little Leah?" Diffuse's hallow was becoming increasingly brighter. "You went from practically being her mom to a stranger. You deserted her, like the rest of us!"

"I never meant to-" I could feel tears in my eyes. I never meant to abandon them or for them to think I had. Poor Leah, I should have checked on her the moment I woke up! I disgusted myself.

"But you did." Diffuse said flatly. "But you wanna know something? I don't care. You may still look human, but you're the biggest freak out of all of us. Your head is so screwed up, you aren't even the least bit human any more. So stop trying to be my mother. Arez cares about me, unlike you, freak."

All those months I looked after this poor confused girl. All those months I told her she was beautiful, no matter her mutation. All those months I taught her self defence, in hopes that she could protect herself. And yet the first time some horny boy tells her she's beautiful and she's in the palm of his hand.

He was taking advantage of her. He knew it, and he liked it.

Arez gave me another cocky smirk as he slid his hands down to the younger girl's bottom and gave it a little squeeze, knowing that I was watching.

Something inside of me snapped, like before in the Danger Room.

This predator was going to hurt one of my pack. Like an instinct, I pounced onto him, holding his down with a strength I didn't know I had. He struggled wildly, fear filled his eyes as they met mine. I could hear his heart pumping faster. I could smell his fear. He continued to struggle, but I knew his efforts were pointless. I held my hand to his throat, ready to spill his blood-

From far away, I heard a scared female voice yelling at me to stop.

I ignored it, until a blinding flash filled my eyes, forcing me to stop.

I rolled off of Arez, holding my head. Diffuse's hallow had shrunk to a size that was bearable to look at once more, so I looked at her, my eyes watering.

Her face was terrified. She grabbed the still stunned boy and pulled him away from me. She helped him up, and had him stand by supporting him under his arm. Arez was murmuring something about "eyes, her eyes".

Turning to go, she gave me one more horrified look and whispered. "Freak."

They had made it halfway down the hallway when I threw up my arm and screamed. "Stop!"

And they did.

I must have reinforced the command with my mind control powers,

Slowly I walked up to the still couple. I knew I had to erase this awful memory, as I had with the teachers the other night, but I also had to know. I had to see what I had done.

Putting my hand up to Arez's still head, I connected our minds. Suddenly, I was Arez. Looking at girls in their miniskirts, wolf whistling at them as they past, looking at a Playboy I had hidden under my bed, sneaking into the girl's change room-

There it was, I thought to myself, finally finding the memory through all the filth.

I saw myself tackling me (Arez) to the floor and pinning him down. I was so afraid. This crazy girl actually wanted to kill me! She was going to kill me! Her yellow cat eyes told me-

I pulled my mind from his, horrified.

"It can't be." I whispered.

Quickly I erased the memory from both minds and sent them to the rec room.

I ran to my room and slammed the door. Throwing myself onto my bed I covered my face with my pillow so no one would hear my screams and prayed that the pillow would cut off my air.

My eyes had not been my own silver ones when I attacked Arez, when I became an animal. They had been the giant cat man's eyes. The one who had murdered my family.

I removed the pillow from my face and looked over at the mirror that hung on the back of the door. I saw my silver eyes and tear streaked face, but I could not forget those yellow eyes that had been mine.