Chapter 11 – School Affairs
I take a deep breath and knock on the imposing wooden door.
"Come in" says a low voice behind it. Here goes nothing. This has been a ritual for many years. The principal calls me in a few days before the exam to 'talk about my grade'. Talk…huh…right. The old man can't keep his fingers away from me and he calls that talking. Last year he managed to say one sentence since I unbuttoned my shirt and until I left which was about an hour later. 'I see a promising student with a promising future…' he said. He gave me a very good grade and Rosmarine got mad, he doesn't like it when I get a good grade especially in Latin which is his specialty.
I don't care about grades though, I just want to pass and get the hell out of this dungeon.
So here I go, firmly opening the door.
"Ah, Gilbert, I've been expecting you. Close the door and come here" he says patting the corner of his desk. I obey and sit then I unbutton my shirt and take off the ribbon. He touches my chin, lifting it up a bit then traces an invisible line with his middle finger down my neck then chest until he reaches my pants.
"Beautiful as ever…" he says. I can feel the lust in his voice, it makes me sick, but I do everything he tells me to.
One hour later he gives me a paper, tells me to copy it in my hand writing and turn it over at the exam.
"By the way…" what does he want now? "Rosmarine is waiting for you." This can only mean one thing. He has a letter for me from Augu.
I run out of the principal's office not even bothering to button up my shirt. Everyone stares at me and whispers something about 'whore' and 'indecent' but I don't care, all I can think about is Augu.
"How dare you come in here like that?" says Rosmarine as soon as I bust in his room "Get out, make yourself decent, knock then come in." I don't have time for his stupid games so I don't move.
"The letter" I say raising my hand but he hits my palm with his stick. "The letter…please…" I say raising the other hand and putting the hurt one down but he hits me again "I'm not leaving without the letter" I continue.
"There is no letter…" he says. I feel so hopeless, I need a letter so bad… but he can't understand that. He wouldn't be toying with me if he did. "…just a note." I lighten up a bit. That's good enough for me too as long as it's from my Augu.
"Give it to me!" Maybe he doesn't like my tone because he hits me again, harder this time. I fall on the floor but I still look up at him.
I'm not leaving without MY note no matter what you do to me, Rosmarine. Get used to it and hand it over already.
He hits me once again with his stick then gives me the note. "Get out!" There is no reason for me to stay here any longer so I do as he says.
This is the happiest day I had in a long time. The note says that Augu wants me to join him for dinner tonight; he's picking me up at six. I don't even feel the pain in my body anymore when I think that tonight it's going to be just the two of us.
I don't want to be late so I started getting ready a long time ago and now it's time for me to go, he must be here already. I run down the stairs and storm out of the dorm building, then down the alley that goes to the front gate.
He's here but as I enter the carriage I see that he is not alone, Serge is here too. Why did he come here anyway? This is my time with my Augu and he is not supposed to be here. I know it's not his fault though, it's Augu's. It's always Augu's fault. I hate him, I hate him so much but I can't stop loving him. I'm trapped in his net and I run around in circles but I can't get out.
The dinner is even worse. Augu keeps babbling about some dead person I don't even know nor do I care about and he wouldn't even look at me after I did my best to look perfect for him. I hoped I would convince him to let me spend the night with him too but I ended up saying nothing at all until he invited Serge for Christmas.
Things didn't go as I planed. I thought he would let me decide who to invite for Chritmas and if I told him at the last moment that the person can't come he would forget all about it and it will be just the two of us. But no, he had to be one step ahead and I will be stuck with Serge for the holiday. That will only happen over my dead body.
"I won't take this. You can't be serious. I won't allow him to ruin our Christmas" I say hitting the table with both fists and making everyone there look at me.
"It seems a very good idea to me, this way you two can get to know each other better and Serge won't be alone either." I don't care if he's alone or not, he just can't come. No one can come.
"It's very nice of you to invite me but I can't accept" What is Serge doing? Is he trying to make me like him or something? But maybe if he refuses Augu will listen to him.
"Nonsense, I won't take 'no' for an answer." He smiles but I know that the decision was made, not even Serge can change his mind now.
I swear I will make his life miserable and he will run back to school in no time. If he thinks that night was the worst that can happen he is so wrong, the real nightmare begins when I pull the strings.
We get back to school and I slap him, it's not like he doesn't deserve it, then I run to my room. I just want to go sleep and forget all about this miserable day.
I close the door behind me and light the lamp but only then I notice that I'm not alone. Jacques is in my bed all naked smirking at me.
"I've been waiting for you for quite a while" he says.
"Get out" I say showing him the door.
"Don't be so hostile. Don't you want to know why I'm here?" As a matter of fact I don't. I just want you out.
"What do you want?"
"The question is what do you want? You want to pass the history exam tomorrow, right? Well I happen to know the questions and I happen to have the answers and I happen to want to give it to you for a good price." I wish I could wipe that smile off of his face but he got me there. Blough and Jacques always know what I want, or better said what I need when it comes to school affairs.
"You have one hour" I say taking my shirt off and getting my alarm clock but he puts his hand over mine stopping me from setting the alarm.
"It wasn't easy to get the paper done, I had to pull all the strings I have in this school to get it and I want the fair price for my work." Your work? Cut the crap. Everybody knows you have your minions to do the job for you and in the end you get the payment. "The whole night would be a fair price."
"Show it to me?" You didn't think I would let you have your way with me without any proof that you're not trying to trick me?
"You think I'm stupid or something?" he barks "You didn't think I would bring it here so you can steal it then throw me out, did you?" As a matter of fact I do think you are stupid. "Tell me Gilbert…" he starts with a calm voice "did I ever disappoint you with things like this?" You wouldn't dare to because you want me so bad. You're addicted to me. But I can't let my guard down, can I?
"Not yet but I still don't trust you. I want proof." What am I saying, I must be really desperate. How can I have proof that he knows the questions from tomorrow's history test? He can give me any paper he wants just to get in my pants. I guess I will just have to believe him for now but if it's a trick he'll pay for it.
"You want proof? Fine" He gets his jacket and takes a paper out of its inner pocket "Here's your proof" he says as he throws the paper in my face "These are the questions. There is a paper with the answers too but you'll get that first thing in the morning if you give me what I want."
There's no other choice for me. The history teacher is one of those teachers here who won't give me a passing grade in exchange of an hour of pleasure so I have to obey and give Jacques what he wants.