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Ga Eul felt really guilty. She overreacted. She knew that. It was just… she panicked. She did everything to make her life this perfect and she's too afraid that it would be hell again. She didn't consider Yi Jung's feelings when she screamed at him. She only thought about herself. About the possibilities that her life will be like years ago… Before she started committing with their family business. It was horrible.

After she graduated from college, she didn't contact the F4 to help her. She dealt with the problem alone and her state became a lot worse. She became depressed for weeks and even tried to commit suicide. Her dad and mom told her that they were going to separate and that her dad… her dad got a girl, about her age, pregnant. And it wasn't just any girl. She's a childhood friend. She's practically like a sister to her. Among Jun Hee, Seo Hyun and this girl, the girl is the closest to her. It wasn't an accident. In fact, the girl loves her dad and came to live with him abroad. It broke Ga Eul's heart. She felt deceived. Betrayed. And it's like a part of her was gone missing. The girl shamelessly forgot about their friendship and fled with her dad. She says she loves him.

And what depressed her more? She knows that her father loves her Omma dearly. Yes, he does. And she knows her dad didn't mean to do that. It's all because of depression too. Her Omma never loved her father and never will. She loves someone else and their marriage was arranged. Her father loved her Omma from the moment he saw her so he agreed with their marriage but her omma tried to stop it by fleeing with her boyfriend. Unfortunately, her grandfather shot her omma's boyfriend and he died. And bearing Ga Eul, her omma always says, was a mistake. It pained her more when everyday since she was born, her omma reminded her that. Her appa was the only one who cared for her like a person when she was growing up. So she loved her appa like she never did for her omma and when she knew about him getting her closest friend pregnant, she started to break down. She hated them all and for once, even her appa. She didn't know what to do. Her life was a mess back then. It took her a year of depression. Of not eating much. Of not caring for the world. Of being suicidal.

Her parents took her depression privately. They didn't want the whole world to know the Chu's dirty background because it will ruin their reputation. So no one knew… No one. Not the F4. Not Jun Hee nor Seo Hyun. So Ga Eul had to endure the pain… alone.

She had to take up therapies to regain her normal cheery self. She had to study again for two years to refresh her with everything. After all those, she became numb. She became cold-hearted and never knew the meaning of love. Yes. She's perfect outside but inside, she's wounded. That's why she didn't know how to interact with boys. She didn't know how being friendly differs from being flirty. So that's why she never had a boyfriend. Because she closed herself from giving her whole heart. And that's also the reason why she buried herself to work. Day and night, it's always about work. She's afraid that if she paid attention to the things around her, like living a life, she would break down and become depressed again.

After she saw Yi Jung, no… the F4 again, she felt uneasy because… she was happy. She was happy to see her best friends again. And that happiness, if something happened again, she's afraid that the joy she was feeling will equal to the pain she will feel when something broke her heart again. And her feelings became out of control when Woo Bin's actions confused her. It also didn't help when she went to Yi Jung sudeenly to feel at ease and it's worse when she even asked to stay the night at his place. Slowly, her memories of the past, her happiness, poured into her soul. And she didn't think about the consequences even once. And then… That happened, her screaming at the one who made her feel so happy and then him backing away… Why so soon? Why did she have to experience pain again this soon? Life's too unfair.

At this moment, her cold-hearted self gave in and her heart became soft. For the first time after all those years, she let herself become depressed once more. She didn't know why seeing Yi Jung leave like that pained her. She cried uncontrollably the night after that scene happened. She didn't make sense. Why did she scream because of a petty reason? Why did she have to be so stupid to overreact like that? And why the hell Yi Jung had this effect on her?

She screamed with a pillow on her face preventing someone to hear her. She was in bed. She still hasn't got any sleep. As she recalled all her memoried, happy or not, she felt furious. Frustrated. Hatred. Anger. Everything came back to her. It's five o' clock in the morning. She didn't know what to do anymore. She wants to talk to Yi Jung so badly but she didn't know how she'll do that. She hurt him. She said things to him that are very unreasonable. Slowly, she stood up from her bed.

Walking to her bathroom, she scratched her eyes. She looked at herself in the mirror and sighed. She looks pretty much of a mess. Her long silky hair was a mess. Her eyes are puffy and gloomy. Her face was pale as ever. She washed her face with cool water and brushed her teeth.

She went to her bed again and let herself collapse on the soft and comfortable thing. She reached out for her teddy bear, one that Yi Jung gave her when she was ten. "Hey Mr. Bear, is Yi Jung mad at me? What do you think?" She asked the bear like a child. Sighing, she hugged it tightly on her chest.

Suddenly, her phone was heard throughout her room. She sighed in frustration again. Work again. She reached out for her phone on the bedside table and didn't bother to look at the caller ID.

"Hello? Shin Hee?" She said while yawning.

"Ga Eul? It's me. Woo Bin."

"Oh, hey." Ga Eul raised a brow.

"Hey, I hope I didn't disturb you sleep or anything?"

"No. Not at all. So what's up?" Ga Eul said, trying to sound casual.

"Well, nothing. I just thought that may be you need someone to talk to or something. Want to grab some breakfast?"

"I'm not really hungry." Ga Eul replied. Well, it's true but her main reason is that she didn't want to be with Woo Bin right now.

"Well, can I come over?" Woo Bin's getting persistent so Ga Eul sighed in defeat.

"Sure thing."

"Great! I'll be there in an hour. See you!" Woo Bin said enthusiastically.

Hmmm… I guess it'll be okay… I need someone to talk to about Yi Jung anyway…