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~Chapter 9~
The stupid man stomped out of the cell as we carried on with my training. Ken whined and said he was too exhausted to continue so I ended up training with Mukuro now.
"Kufufufu, why do you wish to train, Yukina?" He asked.
"To get stronger of course." I answered nonchalantly."And then I'll help all of us escape."
He casted an illusion at me but I dispersed it with my snow flames without panicking. He smiled fleetingly, not the usual smirk, but a smile and said, "You don't need to. I'll be the one to do it."
"I don't need your help." I stopped talking for a while to concentrate on summoning mist flames. Mukuro's smile was long gone and he was waiting for what I was going to say next."I can do it alone and when I do, we'll part ways." I said to him with mist flames present around me. "Teach me more difficult illusions."
He stayed quiet for a while before he gave me a quick nod.
I had learned basic illusions now. And with the help of Ken and Chikusa, I can control my Sun and flames a lot better now and could use its power to their extent. I can attack, defend and heal myself pretty well now I guess, this is what I can only do for now anyways.
I have all flames in me.
Sky, storm, rain, sun, lightning, cloud, mist, and the last one –– Snow.
Snow is a new flame they invented and tried on me. I do have to admit that I love the Snow flames even though they basically had no attack powers. But it's good enough since it could render other flames useless. If there's no attack coming my way then I can attack them back with other flames. Snow flames are also my defense in this way.
I realize I'm a Sky flame user too, because it's my dominant flame type and it's so easy to control them. They are like a part of me.
Having so much flames aren't as nice as it seems. I went through a lot to obtain them. But even after all that, I still have to suffer so much. Nothing comes without a price, so this is what it means.
"Coughs– Coughs–!" My small frame shook violently as blood burst into my palm I held over my mouth. The coughing didn't stop for a long time and it hurts with every cough. I felt piercing pain around my chest. It hurts to breathe. I was panting hard when it finally ended.
Yes, I have all flames in me. No one can achieve this. But due to the experiments, my body system is disrupted. I cough out blood and will be on the verge of dying if I overuse my flames. This is what I need to pay to use this powers that doesn't belong to me. I'm weak. Extremely weak. I hate this feeling of dying any moment and needing the help from those bastards.
But do I have a choice now? In such a place, without any memories. That's why I'll get stronger. Much stronger. To live and to be free from this cage.
~Time Skip : Half year later~
The moonlight shone brightly upon my pale face as I parted my lips to speak, "I'm sorry."
"...I have long understood the risk of joining the mafia. I won't blame you, for you are only doing your job," The brunette said, "But, please spare my child. He is not even involved in this! Please, he's innocent!" She hugged the child beside him as I followed her gaze to the child. Round and innocent eyes, blurred with tears, filled with fear. He looked around 5. Those innocent eyes...remind me of someone I used to hold dear to...But who?
"I cannot do that. My job given to me is to kill every single one of you. Even those uninvolved people." My heart ached; it felt like spears pierced through. It hurts. "But I can at least allow you two to have some time to talk. It is against my principle to kill people with regrets in their hearts."
She frowned but nodded hesitantly after that.
"I'm sorry but that's all I can do for you." I took a few steps backwards and gave them some space.
"It's okay, that's enough. Thank you. You're a kind person, may God bless you." The woman looked at me and smiles softly. Her smile was still beautiful with all those sadness overflowing from it. God bless? Me, a killer? Hah, the irony.
I nodded and turned around. Shivering at the cold that was slowing seeping into my skin, I warmed my hands with my breath. The moon's pretty bright tonight...How beautiful. Even though I can come out to the outside world, not once had I felt like I was really free.
Staying in the Estraneo Lab made me understand the fact that you don't need to be imprisoned to be restricted. I was locked away— in an invisible cage that I can't break through, yet.
But soon, I'll be somewhere where I can look at it every day. I'll be somewhere else where I'm free. Unrestricted and truly free.
Snapping out of my thoughts when I heard sounds behind me, I turned around quickly to find the pair of mother and son running away.
I sighed and ran after them as I summoned my flames. Don't they understand? Running is futile. The woman attacked me with her lightning flames but was dispersed by my snow flames right away. I shot a few storm flames arrows at them at which they dodged. I caught up with them soon because they both fell. Their clothes and bodies were covered with scrapes and dirt.
"I'm sorry." I said with my voice tight. I shot her with my gun and the sound of pain and despair echoed throughout the forest as I closed my eyes.
My vision blurred and I blinked the tears away. Killing was the thing I hated most after the Estraneos.
"Mama? Mama...?" The boy shook her mother's body. "Mama!"
I flinched and my movements halted.
Mama?
What's a mama?
Why is it that I don't know what Mama is? I searched for an answer, and explanation appeared into my mind,
[Mama]
An intimate way of calling your mother.
Mother? Everyone needs a mother to be born so I have one too, right? But I guess I didn't have one now. Maybe I was abandoned, or she didn't love me and I was just an unwanted child. If I wasn't, tell me why am I here, in this state?
All my knowledge are fake, I know nothing at all about this world. All these knowledge are inserted into my brain by them. I have neither knowledge nor memories of myself. I'm just a 'thing' controlled by them, with the artificial memories and knowledge given by them.
Just living each day is painful. Can you live like this? Not knowing a single thing about yourself, knowing nothing about anything else other than the things someone tells you and everything you do is being controlled. Am I even living? I don't know. I'm just a lifeless puppet that could be destroyed any time.
I couldn't think anything else when I felt a sudden piercing pain in my chest as my legs grew limp. I fell down to the ground and started coughing vigorously. "Coughs–! Coughs–!"
It hurts...
Blood spurted out of my hand that was covering my mouth, tears formed in my eyes, and I knew I was in big trouble.
Panicking, I hurriedly released another gunshot at the boy and summoned my mist flames. I disappeared into them, only to appear back at the place I detest the most yet was the only place I belonged to.
The Estraneo Lab.
Some other place in Estraneo Lab
"We can't just sell her to someone!" A voice full of anger resonated through the room.
"But the money offered to us will be able to support us for the next two year!" A different voice full of determination rang.
"But she's our first successful specimen! We can't just sell her off!" He looked at him.
"We can! We already know to do it! We just need to do it on other children!" He reassured him.
"But you can't be so sure that other children can withstand all those procedures!" He yelled. "Plus she's a rare Sky! Not to mention in her body is the Vongola blood!"
A moment of silence.
"But we do need the money! And by selling her off with a large sum, they will still need an endless supply of medicine from us and that will lead to another huge sum!" He said.
"...Hmm...But still," His words were stuck in his throat.
"We have all the children we need anyways! With the endless supply money and the children, we will be able to do it again!" He convinced. "And with this, I'm sure our future will be bright!"
Another moment of silence.
"Hmm...Well," He hesitated again. "Argh, fine! Just sell her off at a good price!" He threw his hands up in the air, showing that he had no more objections.
"Heheheh, I sure will!" He grinned.
And so, the contract has been signed between the Estraneo Lab and another Famiglia that goes by the name, Javico.
The details of the contract are as below,
Human Murder Weapon
Suitable Specimen : #171
Sex : Female
Age : 6
Comments : Equipped with all flames with an additional snow flame. Kills ruthlessly and will never fail. Fast-paced.
Weaknesses : Weak physique.
Personality : Stubborn and easily-angered. Can be easily controlled with some mind tricks and medicine.
Remarks : Vongola blood, full of potential. No memories, no other problems.
A big red [SOLD OFF] was copped.
Few months later
I materialized back to my new room and immediately ran to the bathroom. I went down my knees and threw up into the toilet bowl. With shaky hands and ragged breaths, I clutched my chest and tried to take in air only to identify the stench of blood and vomit. Disgust filled me as I threw up again.
After ten agonizing minutes, I stood up a little wobbly and took off my blood stained clothes. The colour of the clothes caught my attention. I gazed at it and wondered when did red become the colour I hated most. I turned the tap and water poured down on me like rain. I took a long hot bath to wash away everything.
The blood, the soreness in my muscles, and weariness was soon gone. How I hope the feeling of disgust and guilt could be washed away too. It never did go away no matter how hard I cleaned. They stuck to me like stubborn dirt.
I slumped down on my bed after getting out of the bathroom. Silence crept up to me and darkness was all around me. I was used to the darkness but the quietness isn't really pleasant. When it's quiet, I can hear them; the screams and pleas – which I ignored each time. How suffocating.
I glanced out of the window. The moon was present again. I have come to love the moon. So bright, so beautiful yet so far away. But in the end, it was always there isn't it? That's exactly what freedom meant to me. Shining so beautifully, not in my grasp but I knew that one day I would be able to reach it.
Now sold off to the Javico Family, I've turned into a professional assassin. I have higher ranks and people started to know me. As a ruthless killer that is. Now with a larger and warmer room, softer bed and windows, with freedom away from there, I earned another chain bound to me. No more friends, more loneliness. More freedom but only to kill. By myself, quietness surrounds.
Lying down on my bed, I closed my eyes and tried to sleep. It was the only time I don't feel pain and everything can be forgotten. As I relaxed and let go of all my thoughts, I felt my muscles ache. I could heal them now with my sun flames, but my eyelids were too heavy. I can do it tomorrow. The pain wasn't that much of a deal. As time passed, pain became something natural to have.
Just when I was about to fall asleep, my head suddenly throbbed. I was hit by dizziness and I winced at the pain that striked. It felt like my head was going to split apart. It forced me to sit up abruptly. Without any warning my heart thumped heavily and my whole body felt cold and weak.
I let out a series of painful screams.
My body didn't felt like mine. Everything seems to be falling apart.
"Just how messed up is this body?!" I screamed and hit the wall with my fist. My knuckles were white from gripping too tightly. Then, it bled.
Tears were streaming down my feverish cheeks uncontrollably. It hurts. Everything that I am, I have is in pain.
"I wonder for how long can I keep on living?"
A/N I changed their ages again for a better match so here you go.
Yukina - 6
Tsuna – 8
Mukuro – 9
Chikusa and Ken - 8
For those confused, Yukina was captured when she's almost 4 and she stayed in the Estraneo Lab around two years so she's currently six. Sorry for the inconveniences caused. And even though she's only six but she's so mature, do remember that she's after all already sixteen.
Phew. Finally updated this fic after a year. I'm so glad I could still write for this. Personally, this is my favourite fic out of the three I have written.
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Merry Christmas once again! May you be filled with joy and happiness for the year to come, continue to be blessed by the people around you and be a blessing to others which I'm sure you already are :D
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-Kazue