Emily's Pov
Last night I had a dream I haven't been able to get out of my head.
Ali and I were in a library and she was reading a book laughing because the characters names sounded funny to her, I sat down there to see her as she laughed, her smile seemed the most beautifultiful I had ever seen in my life. She asked me if she could read me something, I just nodded I loved her against reason, against promise, against peace, against hope, against happiness, against all discouragement that could be. My heart started beating faster, perhaps this was her secret way to tell me that she loved me. So I gather up corauge and gave her a light kiss on the lips. A hope-filled kiss. When I leaned away, she looked me in the eyes and smiled at me, that beautiful smile that she kept especially for me. I haven't told the girls about my dream, not even Hanna. I don't know why I keep referring to it like a dream. I know what it really was. A memory. It scares me to know what else I will be able to will all be happy memories with Alison like this one? Or-
"EMILYYYYYYYY!" I got pull out of my thoughts by Hanna
"Huh? What?" I say to her focusing my attetion on the road again.
"You were pretty lost in your thoughts back there. What were you thinking about?" Hanna asks me by her curious nature
"Nothing special, just stuff" I say trying to avoid the issue
"Ummm.. is that stuff related to a certain small blonde, blue eyes, cute and pretty but obviously not prettier than me," says Hanna and I can't help but laugh with her nonsense
"How did you know?"
"Remember that I had known you almost my entire life plus I've seen that shine in your eyes and always is related to Alison. Have you talked to her?"
'No I haven't. No since I went to her house" I say
"Oh" is the answer Hanna gives me back
I turn to her and I see her frown "what do you mean Oh?"
"Eyes on the road!" she says
"Tell me what you're hiding Hanna" I insist
"Well... I talked to her yesterday, and she said to me and the others, she is leaving from Rosewood"
I suddenly press the brakes and the car abruptly stops
"Hey! are you crazy? another car could had hit us!" Hanna complains. I start the car again and park aside
"Ali is leaving Rosewood? When? "I say, now putting my full attention on Hanna
"She leaves tonight, Spencer, Aria, and I'll go later to her house to say goodbye" Hanna answers
"Oh... and when she will come back?"
"She didn't say when" Hanna says avoiding looking at me so I know she is lying
"She is not coming back right?" I already knowing the answer to that
"No" still cames the answer from Hanna.
Why it hurts so much knowing that Ali will leave? You already know the answer to that Em tells me that voice in my head that hasn't stopped bothering me this whole week. The same voice I heard it say I love you to Ali.
I told Hanna I had a few things to do and that I'd had to leave her in her House and that I would talk to her later, then I left her and went to Ali's
I am in front of Ali's house. I knock her door and I hope that she will open, a minute after she opens the door, I notice she's surprised to see me here
"Emily! what brings you here?" she says and lets me come inside her house
"It is truth?" I ask straight to the point
"What?" she asks clearly confused by my poor choice of words
"It is true that you're leaving town and you're not planning to come back again?"
"Emily... I... Yes it's true" she finally admits
"Why didn't you tell me? Where you planning to leave without saying goodbye" I tell her feeling hurt
"It's complicated Em, I mean we are not even in talk terms and I didn't think it would bother you so much" she says faking indifference
"Well you were wrong, it does bothers me. I don't want you to leave" I say
"Is good then that this doesn't depend on you" she says annoyed
She is still mad at me
"You are hurt... for what I said to you. Look Ali I already told you I'm sorry I didn't meant to say all those things to you, I don't know how many things I can apologize"
"I never asked you to! I know in the past I was horrible with you Em and maybe at some level I did deserved what you told me. There's no need to apologize, I already forgave you"
"Then stay" I beg her
"I can't. There's too many memories here, too many things that reminds me everyday I could have had you, we could be happy right now somewhere else starting a new life, but I lost that chance, and it pains me to know I am the reason why we can't be together. That's why I need to go away and try to move on from you"
"I'm not ready to let you go Ali" I wrap my arms around her neck and pull myself closer to her until my lips touch hers.
And it was as if my body came back to life, with the molten rock moving inexorably, running all the limbs of my body. I'm kissing Ali as if my life depends on it, and it feels like that, because I need to show Ali I feel something for her or I will lose her forever. I pull away her and I both panting, I'm still with my arms around her neck
"Emily"-
"No," I cut her off "Don't say anything. I'm not ready yet" I look her in the eyes to see if she understands what I mean, and I find understanding in her eyes so I step back
"Ali I understand that you need time to think so I'll not prevent you from taking it, and if when you've thought about all that has happened you realize it's too painful for you to come back, then don't do it, I won't blame you if you don't. But really I hope you come back Ali, because I deeply care for you and I don't think I can be myself again without you"
"Okay" she says nodding her head with crystal eyes
"Bye Ali" I tell her and then give her a hug that lasts a couple of seconds more than usual. I really don't want to let her go but I know that she also deserves to take a break from all this. I pull away from Ali and I immediately get out of her house.
This could be the last time I see Ali but I really hope that it's not.
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