It had been three months since the gate of hell was open. We went back to Lawrence. I still lived with Ruby and Dean still lived with Anna. Dean says it's because he needs to save up money for baby stuff and to get a better apartment. I shrugged it off and just sat around at home. Dean ordered me to stop hunting in my condition. I couldn't complain. I was still having morning sickness and my stomach was swelling. I was too embarrassed to go outside.

Another three months pass and Dean hangs out at my apartment a lot. He tells me that he has a lot of money piled up. He needs to look for an apartment.

"Dean, we don't have to move. Ruby and Anna could move in together. We could live here. We can have my room and the nursery can be Ruby's room. The money you have saved up can be for buying the baby supplies like a crib or something." I said as Dean rubbed my expanded belly as we layed on the couch.

"I just feel ike we should have a place of our own." Dean said.

"Well, I think we should stay here. I know your's and Anna's house is bigger but I think it's comfier here." I said running my fingers through his hair.

"Fine, fine, hey, are you fine just being her with Ruby and Anna for like a week or two?" Dean asked.

"Is it still trying to find Lilith? If you have to go then go. I don't want you to go to hell but I'm in no condition to help other than research." I said.

"Thank you, Bobby and I think there these omens a couple states over. We think it will be a week, two tops." Dean said. "I'm heading out tomorrow morning."

"We are half way through the year if you have to go off because of Lilith I'm fine with that." I said.

"But you are about seven months along. You could go into labor when I'm gone." Dean replied.

"Dean, I want that bitch dead. You're not going to hell. I have Ruby and Anna to help me through this. It would be amazing if you were there when the babies arrived but if you can't because of Lilith I understand completely." I explained.

"I am not going to miss the birth of our baby. I would rather go to hell than miss it." Dean said looking up at me.

"I' not letting you go to hell. Now get ready to leave." I said trying to stand up.

"I will tell you one thing, Sammy. I am NOT going to miss the birth of my baby." Dean said lying back on the ground looking up at the ceiling.

"But you're NOT going to hell, Dean." I said closing the bathroom door.

By the time I got out of the bathroom Dean was gone. I looked around my apartment and he was nowhere. I looked out the window and the Impala was gone. Dean left. Without saying goodbye. Tears started running down my face. Was he that angry that he just got up and left?

I grabbed my phone and dialed his number.

"Sam?"

"Dean? Where did you go? Why did you leave?"

"Calm down, Sammy. Your hormones are acting up. I'm fine. I'm not leaving you."

"Then why did you leave?"

"Bobby called well not really. It was our code that he was in trouble. I'm off to his house."

"Call me when you find out what's wrong."

"Alright, will do." Dean hung up.

I prayed to God he was ok. As much as I wanted him to be there for the delivery of the baby I didn't want him to go to Hell.

I never go that phone call. I never knew if Dean was ok. I waited for four weeks. I was eight months along. Anna came over every day as I waited for the phone call from Dean that never happened.

Nine months rolled around and I was almost positive Dean was dead. I still never left my apartment. Anna is here full time now.

"Sam, you have to stop worrying it going to bring your blood pressure up and that's bad for the baby." Anna said.

"I think Dean is dead. He said he would call when he found out what was wrong. When he goes on hunts like this he calls once a day or when he can. There's no way he can't pick up a damn phone unless he is dead." I panicked.

"Sam, Sam! Calm down! You could go into labor any day now. You can't get worked up over this. I know Dean being gone is horrible. Just think about the baby right now." Ruby said.

I tried to take deep breaths but this pain come over to me.

"Ruby, call Ellen. Call Ellen." I said sitting on the couch holding my stomach.

Anna quickly called Ellen. Ruby went into the other room probably to see if she get a hold of Dean. Anna got off the phone and walked over to me. "Ellen will be here as fast as she can. Ruby is trying to get contact with Bobby or Dean or anybody that might know where Dean is."

I just looked at her with tears building up in my eyes. I felt a warm liquid in my pants. "Anna, I think my water broke." I said.

Ruby walked into the room with the phone to her ear. "I got Bobby."

My head shot up. "Is Dean ok? What's going on?"

"Bobby hasn't said much but I'll ask him." Ruby said. "Bobby? Bobby, is Dean with you?"

I waited in silence. Ruby looked serious.

"Where is Dean then? He is ok?"

I was about to cry again if a contraction hadn't hit. "Urrrrgggghh!"

"Thanks Bobby. I have to talk to Dean. It's really important."

"Where the hell is Dean?" I yelled.

"Sam, calm down, we have to go to your bedroom. Ellen should be here soon." Anna said.

"Tell me where the fuck Dean is, Ruby!" I yelled.

"Bobby says that Dean was supposed to come over to his house two months ago. Lilith took a U-turn and took off Colorado. That's the last he heard of Dean." Ruby said.

"Call his cell phone!" I yelled.

"I did he didn't answer." Ruby said.

"No his other cell phone." I said.

"He doesn't have another phone." Ruby said.

"The number is on my bedside table dial it." I said with Anna helping me stand up.

Ruby walked behind me and grabbed the number off the bedside. She dialed it.

"Dean?"

"It's Ruby?"

"What do you mean it's not good time to talk?" Dean hung up.