Chapter 11

Mikan's POV

When Natsume saw me, he was about to smile until I slapped his face with tears starting to run from my eyes and ran away.

I ran and ran until I saw a waiting shed. Luckily, there ware no people in it. There I sat with my fave on my knees, and cried. I remembered my father when we attended his wake service.

*Flashback*

"Mr. Sakura, may you rest in peace." The pastor said.

I see everyone crying.

I 'm tired of crying.

I didn't cry.

I wanted to believe father is already happy with God beside him.

I looked at dad's sleeping face inside the coffin.

He was smiling. He looked so peaceful like he had never looked before.

We told the people who were arranging him to make him smile.

I learned when dad died right in front of my eyes that you have to make sure every time you are with a certain person, make sure every second, every minute, and every time you are with him/her, make it count.

He was the best dad I ever knew.

He was patient. He took his time letting me know life's imperfections by lettin me make my own decisions and suffer the consequences if I had to. Nevertheless, he was always there for me. He never told me, "I don't have the time." He would always make time for me even if he was the busiest person in this whole wide world.

He was understanding. When I would do something wrong and tell him my reasons, he would always listen and he never told me once that I was a bad kid. He knew I had my reasons, and he would always make sure I will be able to understand why I had to face the consequences. It was not because I was despised that I had to suffer the consequences, but it was because I was loved and cared enough for mom and dad to let me know the right from the wrong.

He never minded what anyone would say about me. He would ask what happened before giving me a lecture.

In short, he loved me. He never ever wasted a moment not to show it. He left a great legacy to me and to my mom.

I love him.

That's why I don't want to cry because I know he won't want to see his little girl cry when he died.

I know he would want me to smile and say proudly, "You know, the best man I ever knew who lived, was my dad."

Dad never liked Ruka, but since he loved me so much he let me make my own decsions.

He told me I deserved better, and that I should find a better man who will treasure me more.

Love you, dad. I hope you're having a great time up there.

Love you and miss you.

*End of Flashback*

I miss the voice who usually comforts me when Ruka and I have a fight.

I sat there reminiscing about dad.

There, I left all of my anger and sadness.

I put it all out until my eyes would burst.

As my tears fell down, the heavens cried with me as well.

Feeling my pain, I closed my eyes and started to pray.

Hey, Lord. I'm tired. Why does every man play with me? Natsume? Is he the one? Well, I don't think so. I don't know, Lord. All I can do right now is trust You without any word. Right? Right. My heart is crying. Please soothen it. Please?

After putting all of my bitterness out, I started making my way home.

"Dear! What happened to you? You might catch a cold? Come on. Go take a bath and let's talk. Tell me everything, or if you like just rest for today. I don't need to hear it if you don't want to." Mom panicked helping me make my way to the bathroom.

"Hey, Mom. I'm tired. I'll take a bath and sleep. I'm beat. I haven't felt this since dad died." I said with a smile on my face, but my eyes telling every sadness built up in me to my mom.

Mom just nodded, and let me be.

I took a bath, and went to the soft and warm bed.

"Wake up, dummy!" She said while poking my head to wake me up.

"Wh-What? Hotaru? Why are you here!?" What a wonderful way to wake me up.

"You're mom called. She told me you needed me. Well, she told me you needed someone to talk to."

"Ugh! Leave me alone for awhile."

"Alright, just call me or whatever. I'll be staying here in Paris for a business meeting in a few days anyway. I'll take my leave."

I nodded and went back to my lying on my bed.

I checked my phone and saw 2 missed calls and 1 message.

It was from Natsume.

To: Mikan

From: Natsume

Hey. Everything was just understanding. Just please come to my apartment, and you'll understand everything. Please? I'm waiting for you. I'll wait forever. Just please hear me out.

Okay. So, I ignored the text. I got up and started my day. I wanted to pamper myself. I shall go shopping and buy myself a yummy banana split. or... Howalons!

I got up and let myself wear a very girly pink and white dress with matching white wedges.

I left and hopped myself to the shopping streets in Paris.

Let's see, I left at 10:30.

Now, it is 4:30.

Not bad. I got myself 6 shoes. All of them are wedges with different designs and colors.

I also bough 5 dresses, 10 statement shirts, and 3 skinny jeans.

And most of all, I bought 7 Converse shoes with different designs and colors.

Oh, I'm loving this day!

I was feeling hungry.

My stomach was starting to growl.

I ate at a cafe.

I ordered a yummy banana split and strawberry shake.

Strawberry shake... It reminds me of Natsume. He loves strawberries.

Kaoru's POV

Oh, she's here.

I would love to see Natsume-kun's reaction when I meet her.

I tapped her shoulder and two beautiful hazel eyes looked at me.

She was beautiful just like Natsume said.

"Hi, I'm Kaoru."

I saw her surprised reaction and I just can't help, but tease her a bit.

Natsume's POV

I got sleepy because of waiting for Mikan.

I fell asleep.

When I woke up, I saw a note on the table.

It said,

Honey, I shall be going to meet this Mikan of yours. I am sure she is very sweet knowing he caught that cold heart of yours.

See you in awhile, dear. I love you.

XOXO,

Mom

Oh, Mom! Really?