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Chapter 11 - Unspoken Pains
For you I shall fight the world
My promise I shall never forget
I pledge my love for you
Letting it remain unspoken, I regret
Your beautiful eyes, your warm touches
As a friend, your trust in me
I joined the Dark, never let you know
But true Light, you made me see
For your sake I still fight
For my unrequited love, I cry
But my last promise I shall fulfill
Till my last breath, I shall try
"Because of me?"
Both the boys looked at the potions master, shocked.
"Yes. Your parents and I had been in the same year as you know. Your mother and I had been good friends, in fact best friends. We'd met a month before we came to Hogwarts. I lived down the same lane where she lived. Once I saw her perform magic and told her that she was a witch. First she wouldn't believe me. Then I told her that I was a wizard too. After that day, we started getting along well. Your aunt didn't like it but was afraid that we could hurt her, so said nothing. Lily started confiding into me, she trusted me completely, and as I said I was her best friend. As for me, I loved her but she never knew this, of course." Severus paused for a moment. By now he had turned his back to the boys and was staring out of the window.
"Then she married your father. I was devastated. But still, I continued to be her friend and confidant. When you were born, she wanted me to be your godfather. I had been branded three months before that but never let her know. So, she asked me if I agreed but your father said that he had already promised Black. She didn't like it but didn't say anything. She said that's love, you ignore such little discrepancies to see the greater joys." His voice was husky now. "Then, one day when she was alone with me, she said she was afraid that Voldemort might be able to hurt you inspite of all the protections. I promised her I'd never let that happen I, a death eater, promised to keep her son safe. And so I did. I tried my best, till date. When Dark Lord killed them, I went to Albus, asking him to give me shelter. He made me go back and become a spy. I hated you because you were Potter's son and so much like your father. You reminded me of him and the Mauraders. Yet, I protected you because you were Lily's son. She is the reason,that I'll still fight for you and you, hence are my reason to join the light side"
"Thank you Severus" said Harry as he went to stand by the black haired wizard and placed a hand on his. Their eyes met, silent words were exchanged and smiles spread on their faces.
A few moments later, they sat down again, discussing further matters.
"Sev, when we were at the forest of Dean, Harry felt Voldemort's presence very close by as if he was coming towards us. Do you think he tracked us?"
"Forest of Dean, you say? I don't think that he tracked you, in that case as he has started using it as a training ground for new recruits. So if he came there, it was probably because of that. But in any case, you'd rather stay at Grimmauld Place. It's the safest place for you"
With a few more conversations and a promise to meet again, the boys left.
Standing alone in his office, Severus opened a drawer and pulled out a photograph. His eyes were still wet. Looking at the laughing green eyed girl, he smirked.
"I succeeded again, Lily. I love you"
A/N: A short one, but I really wanted to get this out..Hope you like it...Suspicious Severus, no? I love keeping you in suspense (smiles wickedly) Thanks to all you guys for your reviews...esp Danny the beast, thanks for startin reviewing....keep going guys...and do tell me what you think Sev's secret could be!!