I want to add other people's viewpoint in from time to time. Jasper seemed like his thoughts needed to be heard. This was kind of an impulse chapter... You know, not planned. Lol. Let me know what you all think please! :]

As said before. I don't own any of these characters. That's all SM !

Jasper's POV

I was never able to understand how Bella could be in love with two people. Although I could feel it understanding was quite different. I knew how much she loved my brother. It was plain to see. So easy that it was even recognizable to the humans as well. I didn't need my powers to know that. But I did need my powers to know that she loved Jacob Black. I remember when Edward first came to me. He wanted me to tell him how she felt about Jacob. I had to spy on Bella for two weeks while she made ample attempts to sneak off to La Push to visit Jacob. That is when I first realized how she felt for him. She didn't even realize it yet. She buried it deep within herself. And it wasn't the brotherly love that she claims it to be. No. She was in love with him. Only difference was that she loved him an ounce less than she loved my brother.

But now I completely understand. I didn't meant to fall in love with Leah. I thought I was just being a good friend at first. But then I started to notice things. Like how when she laughs, my whole world lights up. Or how when she's mad and the little wrinkle forms over her nose, I would get the urge to kiss the wrinkle away. Or when I would whisper into her ear and she would always shiver. These little things slowly thawed out my ice-cold heart. Slowly but surely Leah found her own place in my heart.

I even watched her sleep from time to time. Another thing that I never understood Edward doing when Bella was human. But now I completely understood that as well. Watching her sleep, looking so peaceful, brought peace to my world as well. The time seemed to fly so fast when I watched her sleep. I even remember when Bella caught me watching Leah sleeping. She was suspicious but I just explained to her that I was wondering what it was like to dream. That it fascinated me because all the emotion Leah felt while dreaming. Bella bought it of course. Everyone did... Except Edward. He knew I was in love with Leah. But he promised never to talk about it so I was safe.

Everything was great. I was confident that I could keep my feelings in check. That was until Nahuel came.

Alice tugged my hand and looked at me with concern. I hadn't even realized that I hissed out loud until then. Oops

"Is something the matter Jazz?" Alice asked me.

I just shook my head and look back out the car window watching the trees fly by. I felt Alice squeeze my hand. Our fingers intertwined while she was driving. I could feel the love radiating from her towards me. I immediately started to feel guilty. Knowing that all of her love was solely for me but my love was torn between two.

I started to replay everything Leah said to me tonight. I confessed that I was in love with her. I finally confessed.

huh...

This was like a cycle.

Bella loved both Edward and Jacob. Jacob getting the short end of the stick.

Sam Loved both Emily and Leah. Leah getting the short end...

& I love both Alice and Leah. But instead of me having to choose Leah made the discussion for me. She gratefully took the short end of the stick. Because while she did love me, she imprinted on Nahuel.

And while I loved Alice, I couldn't help but to get upset. I wanted Leah in my life. Am I selfish for wanting my cake and being able to eat it as well ?

I guess I pegged Leah to always be alone. Only seeking comfort in me. I never thought she would find someone.

I was torn. Torn about being Leah's friend and being happy that she had someone to call her own OR being her secret admirer and having her to myself.

I am so confused now. Alice deserves better than this. Maybe I could take some notes from Bella. Love Alice like I should and keep Leah as my best friend... It worked pretty damn good for her, Edward, and Jacob. I chuckled.

Alice pulled the car over and looked at me again. "What's going on in your head over there Jazz?"

I looked at her smiling. "Nothing my love just a thought."

"Sometimes I wish I had Edward abilities." She huffed

Thank God she didn't. If she did, I would probably be divorced by now. I lifted her hand to my mouth and kissed it. If she could blush I'm sure she would. "I love you Alice. No matter what."

" And I love you to Jasper. Always." She sais while staring into my eyes.

"Now that we're done with that can we get going before I turn into a bat and fly away." Tanya said from the backseat. I completely forgot she was back there. We all busted out laughing. Alice pulled back to the road continuing on to Alaska. Fingers intertwined.