"WHAT THE HELL? ! ? ! ?" I felt Ren get pulled off of me, and I slapped my hand over my mouth, regaining my breath.

"Hi...Hisagi..." I watched as Shuhei roughly grabbed Ren by the back of the neck and literally throw him out of my house. And I just watched.

"STAY AWAY FROM HER YOU DIRTY FUCK!" he shouted, slamming the door closed. He whirled around to face me. My hand remained over my mouth. What did I just do...? He stared at me, not saying a word. Killing me with his eyes.

"Hisagi...I...I didn't..."

"You didn't mean to?" he asked. "Is that it? You didn't want to, but didn't have the strength to pull away? You were to much in shock? Is that the bullshit you were about to tell me? What about the promise you made to me? The: "My lips are all your Shuhei!" Was that all empty promises? Huh? Was it?" I shook my head.

"No...no it wasn't! I-" I began. He cut me off.

"Then what in the holy hell was that, Rujioki? What was that guy doing here with his hands and mouth all over you? ! ? How do you even know him? He didn't even go to our school!"

"I-"

"Is this what you do when I'm not here? Pick up random guys from the street and invite them in for milk and fucking cookies?"

"Sh-Shuhei just-"

"And what about the "I love you"'s that you said to me? The three words that took forever for you to say, only for them to be mother fucking lies! I would never in a million years even begin to think that you, of all people, my best friend, would cheat on me! With a fucking stranger!" tears were streaming down my cheeks. I have never seen Shuhei so upset before. Never...and now, he was infuriated. And it was because of me.

"Shu-"

"Don't you "Shu" me, Rujioki! I'm fucking 200 miles away, thinking about you every second, and you...you do this!"

"WOULD YOU JUST LISTEN TO ME? ! ? ! ?" I screamed, causing him to stop yelling. "I fucked up okay? I admit it! I'm the biggest fuck-up to walk this Earth! And this time, I fucked up real bad, and I admit it! I'm not gonna give you some lame speech about how it was an accident or how it wasn't my fault, because it was! I shouldn't have invited him in, an I shouldn't have agreed to go to a movie with him! I'm sorry!"

"And you went on a date?" he said, throwing his hands in the air exasperated. "I can't fucking believe this..."

"But who gave you the right to control my life? I never saw it as a date! We went as friends. I'm not the one who turned it into a whole fiasco! I wouldn't never let it go any further than this! And if you know me , you should know that!"

"I don't even know if I know you anymore!" he shouted. I was hurt, and he immediately showed regret on his face.

"Are you...are you fucking kidding me, Hisagi? 2nd grade...2nd fucking grade and you have the nerve to say you don't know me? ! ? ! You practically live with me! And...why the hell are you here anyway? You're supposed to be in Osaka being a good student, not in Karakura dictating my life!"

"I came to see you!" he shouted, grabbing my shoulders and shaking me. "I filled out all my papers, got a job, and had a 3 days before my classes started! I came to see you before I lost any time to spend with you! I come here, and I see you, the girl I love, kissing another guy! Do you know how this makes me feel, Kimiko? It makes me feel like shit, because I've loved you the moment you saved my ass from Ikkaku all those years ago! Why are you so fucking stupid that you can't realize that? You stole my heart, and you're cruching it in front of my very eyes! I love you Kimiko! I fucking love you! And you're too damn stupid to figure out who you love back! Thats why I'm never able to move on! Well you know what?" he pushed me away, and I stumbled backwards into the counter again.

"Shuhei..." I couldn't believe this...he's pouring his heart out to me...and I don't even know what to say back...

"No! Don't even say anything! I'm fucking done with you! Fuck you Kimiko! Stop playing with my heart!" with that, he left, slamming the door shut. The whole house shook, and I slid to the ground in shock. I took ragged breaths, tears flowing with no end. What have I done...? I began to shake.

"SHUHEIIIIIII! ! ! ! !"