I'm wrapping this part of Sherlock's journal up until I see some of Season 3. I find that I'm not comfortable straying too far from the plot of the TV show for this story especially when it's starting again very soon (although figuring out what to do about Clara will be a challenge for me!) . I didn't want to leave readers "hanging" so I've added this chapter as a semi-ending. Thank you so much for reading my story and commenting. I would like to continue again in 2014 so if you enjoy this version of Sherlock's character, check in again once Season 3 airs in North America. :-) Thank you again. If writing is cake then readers are the icing.
November 15 2013
John, you are looking better. I watched you take Clara to the clinic this morning and I can see that you are feeling a sense of purpose again. You are never better than when you are called upon to be the gifted doctor that you are and help someone. Of course I wish that this illness hadn't struck Clara, especially since I know that you care for her. But you know me John, I can only see the facts as they are, not as they might be (human sentiment has no impact on biological systems). I hope you understand then when I say that I'm glad that you have someone to care for who needs you. Your military health coverage and benefits will make a big difference to her as she has none of her own.
I couldn't go the marriage ceremony. I wanted to be selfless about this, and thought I could because I know you're marrying Clara for compassionate and practical reasons, but still I couldn't do it. I'm too jealous John.
It turns out jealousy is a major character flaw of mine. Who could possibly have guessed this? Well, alright, there was your complaint about me being rude to your girlfriends, so you claimed, but honestly I wasn't that rude, and if I was, it wasn't because of jealousy. Your girlfriends really were insipid John; anyone would have found them annoying. And Mrs. Hudson doesn't count. She likes anyone who will eat her fruitcake.
On that note, I'm going to finish up this journal entry and do some checking whether any of my targets have been tempted by the bait I set out for them. I may be away for a while, but be assured that I will be kept informed daily about how you are John. In the meantime, I'm greatly relieved that you are no longer alone in the flat and that Clara will stay there with you until she is no longer able to. I see that you have prepared your room for her and I confess that it gives me more happiness than Mrs. Hudson would think decent to imagine you in my bed every night, although obviously it would be preferable if I was there also. I will miss you unbearably but will be back soon. All my love.
December 15 2013
I returned tonight to London, and soon I will be coming home to 221 B. I believe Clara a few months, perhaps a little longer under your care but I will be home before things become very bad; I give you my word on that. You won't have to go through another loss alone. I know you are better able to deal with Clara's death than you were mine but I still don't want you to have to be alone. You may decide that you do not want anything to do with me but at least you will have a choice.