ok so i wanted to do something different for this chapter. its from niether shizuru's or natsuki's perspective. it's basically just text messages. idk how crazy i am about this so i might delete it... it's just something i wanted to try.

Bold = Natsuki & Normal = Shizuru

9:06pm: Hey.

9:08pm: Hey, feeling any better?

9:09pm: I guess… what're you up to?

9:12pm: Just about to head down to the lake with nao. You?

9:12pm: Lying in bed.

9:13pm: Do you want to come to the lake with me? I can go pick you up on the way

9:14pm: Not really.

9:16pm: Ok… do you still want me to stay over for the week?

9:16pm: I guess

9:17pm: Are you mad at me?

9:18pm: No

9:36pm: Well what's wrong? Sorry it took so long to answer. I just go to the lake.

9:37pm: I'm fine. I'm just tired. Long day…

9:40pm: Yeah I know :/ I really wish you'd come out with us tonight.

9:42pm: I just don't feel like going out

9:45pm: Well ok… I'm probably going to get to your house at like 11ish if that's alright

9:46: Yeah, I might be sleeping by then so I'll leave the back door unlocked.

9:46pm: Ok :)

10:30pm: Natsuki?

10:32pm: Yeah?

10:33pm: Nothing, I just can't sleep and was wondering what you were doing

10:40pm: Oh. Yeah I'm just hanging out. May and nao "went for a walk" so I'm just sitting here

10:41pm: They probably went to go make out. Losers

10:43pm: Oh… sounds boring

10:44pm: Not really, I brought my ipod and I'm feeling pretty good right now

10:44pm: Oh

10:52pm: When are you coming home?

10:53pm: soon. Once they get back we're probably going to smoke another bowl then I'll head out. I miss you

10:54pm: I miss you too.

10:57pm: Uhg nao's being so annoying. I think I like her better when she's "playing the field"

10:58pm: I'm sorry. What's she doing that's annoying?

10:59pm: Idk… it's dumb never mind

11:01pm: Natsuki what is it?

11:04pm: It's dumb. I think I'm just jealous because things are always easy for her. And for mai too… they're not all guarded and shit. They're not paranoid or all messed up emotional. They find someone they like, they tell them, they get together, end of story. I just mess everything up…

11:07pm: Natsuki…

11:07pm: We really shouldn't have this conversation through text.

11:11pm: I know… I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said anything… I know nows not the right time to talk about all that. I'm just kind of upset. Plus not for nothing I might be a bit delirious from lack of sleep.

11:13pm: Yeah I know the feeling… we'll talk about it when you get back ok?

11:15pm: Yeah I'm leaving now.

wow this is a super short chapter. and like i said, i'm not crazy about it.