Disclaimers: Gensomaden Saiyuki isn't belongs to me.

ADD: I didn't know who I should choose as the next Sanzo's enemy in taking Goku's heart! Then Hazel came floating in my mind…so I add him! Yeah for Hazel! Don't worry! This chapter will be where………I don't want to spoil it! Yeah! Enjoy!

Namassuki

Of Your True Identity

Hazel smiled handsomely at Goku as he stretched his hand for Goku to shake it. Goku slowly took the hand (winced) and shook slowly. "Long times no see," said Hazel.

"Aah…"

"How are you doing? I heard you got heart attack," Hazel's eyes turned to pitied eyes and smiled sadly.

"Oh yes…but I'm fine now," said Goku, grinned. Hazel looked intently at Goku for a while then his eyes widened when they were stopped at Goku's chests. His hand slowly reached for Goku's chest and…he touched it. Everyone stunned, one of them cursed mad in his mind, one of them was laughing hard in his head, one of them sweatdropped, one of them wishes he was Hazel, while the other stunned and speechless. Goku looked at Hazel's hand and felt odd, then looked at Hazel and blushed. "KYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!" Goku screamed and his voice echoed in the gym.

Hazel stared at blushing Goku whom now hiding behind cool (winced and twitched) Sanzo. He looked at his hand unbelievably then to Goku. His mouth was slightly opened. "Goku-san? You're…"

"HENTAI!! HENTAI HAZEL!!" Goku shouted.

"What the hell did you do that for, Hazel?! Are you crazy?!" Eroshi said, blushing.

"I…I didn't know Goku-san was a girl," said Hazel.

"She is Goku's sister," Kougaiji said. Everyone looked at him in awe. "What?"

"Hakkai, Kougaiji didn't know?" Goku asked Hakkai.

"Err…I guess no…" Goku slapped his forehead and sighed.

"What is going on?" Hazel asked. "I was sure Goku was a boy before I left the orphanage," said Hazel. Gojyo's eyes widened and looked at Hakkai.

"You didn't tell ero kappa where I lived?" Goku said.

"Hahahaha…I guess not…" Hakkai sweatdropped. So, Goku, Eroshi, Gojyo and Hakkai explained to Kougaiji and Hazel about Goku's transformation into a girl due to Dr. Nii's potion. Kougaiji kept staring at Goku and it made him felt easy that he hide behind Sanzo. Hell, Kougaiji felt betrayed for he had fallen in love with girly Goku. Now, knowing that girl Goku was actually a boy Goku, his heart break into pieces though his expression didn't change. Poor Kougaiji na… Hazel however interested in Goku's new sex and his eyes were gleaming and shimmering as he watched Goku pouted.

After explaining Goku's transformation, Hakkai explained AGAIN to Gojyo about Goku's place and how he found out about it. Actually he had done some researched on Goku for he was VERY curious about Goku that he asked Principal Jiroushin nicely where then Principal Jiroushin gave the details easily because Hakkai would never give up if he started some MISSION. He also told all of them except Sanzo, Eroshi and Hazel about the abuse Goku experience since he was a little in orphanage. Hakkai tried to use soft and gentle word so that it won't hurts Goku's heart. Gojyo and Kougaiji stunned hearing it. Since then, Gojyo swore he would not treat Goku like dirt.

"Aww Gojyo, it's okay! That old man already dead and I were glad the Prince took care of place. Ah! I wanted to see him neh!" said Goku, his face was happy. Eroshi, Hakkai and Kougaiji looked at Sanzo before they received the glare. "Oh, by the way Eroshi, is Sora okay? I heard he got sick…" Goku's face turned to worry.

"Oh, Sora's fine. Flenisa take care of him. He really misses you, you know," said Eroshi.

"Mou…I miss him too. I miss Flenin and the others," said Goku.

"Aww…do you miss me, Goku-san?" Hazel smiled.

"Err…yes…?"

"Aww! I miss you too!" Hazel hugged Goku tightly from behind that Goku could feel he was touching his breasts and blushed irritably. Seeing from Goku's face, everyone knew what happened. Gojyo wishes he was Hazel, Kougaiji remain cool (his mind screaming), Hakkai chuckled, Eroshi speechless and Sanzo, well…he winced and twitched.

"Ha-Hazel! Let me go!"

"Aww…I want to hug you more!" Hazel didn't release Goku.

"Bu-but Hazel! You-you're touching my----!" Goku stunned as Hazel tighten his clutched. "KYYAAA!! HAZEL!!! STOP SQUEEZING IT!!!!" screamed Goku. Everyone silent and stunned. Eroshi's jaw dropped wide, Gojyo was imagining it and drool, Kougaiji twitched, Hakkai was laughing soft and Sanzo, he grabbed Hazel's hand and gripped it tightly, his eyes were glaring at Hazel. Hazel smiled seeing Sanzo and Goku shocked seeing Sanzo's face were full of angry, despise and jealousy.

"Ara, ara Sanzo-san. Please let me go," said Hazel, his other still at Goku's chest.

"Let him go," said Sanzo, stern.

"Hmm…not until you let go of my hand," said Hazel. Sanzo's gripped tighten and he was getting madder when there was no changed in Hazel's expression as he gripped it tighter.

"Ek! Stop squeezing it!!" Goku tried to free from Hazel but Hazel was too strong for him. Perhaps the basketball made him this tougher than before. Sanzo twitched hearing Goku moan from the squeezing and tighten his gripped against Hazel's hand.

"I said it once. LET.HIM.GO." Sanzo threatening Hazel. They stared at each other for a long time that Gojyo started to lighten his cigarettes, sat on the floor and inhaled the smoke. Hakkai sat next to him and was enjoying the scene. Kougaiji kept cursing at Hazel silently while Eroshi speechless, still standing, stared at the two young men staring (glaring actually) at each other. Goku was getting tired and gave up on struggling.

"Please! Why can't one of you just give up?!" Goku whined as he felt another squeeze, he winced. Sanzo saw this, and as usual, when Sanzo lose temper, he will gone mad (coolly) that he pulled Hazel by his hand roughly, causing Hazel to surprise and release Goku instinctively, landed on the floor, hard. "Gasp! Hazel!"

"Ara, ara…Sanzo-san…" Hazel stood up and patted his messy trouser then glanced at Sanzo. "You're strong," said Hazel. Goku looked at Sanzo then to Hazel and back to Sanzo again. He was afraid they're going to fight here. Before Hazel walked towards Sanzo, Goku stretched his arms in front of Sanzo to block his way, surprising Hazel. "Goku-san?"

"Don't Hazel," said Goku. Hazel awed. "Do-don't hurt Sanzo," said Goku, blushing. Sanzo stunned hearing this from Goku's mouth and he could feel his cheeks burning hurt. Gojyo was whistling, Hakkai was smiling, and Eroshi (ALWAYS!) speechless and Kougaiji ignored them. Goku was protecting. But heck! He also strong! So Sanzo put on his ego and sneered.

"I don't need your help, bakasaru," said Sanzo, using the word bakasaru for the first time. Everyone looked at Sanzo in amazed; Goku felt hurt and lowered his arms.

"Sanzo-san, you hurt Goku-san," said Hazel.

"So?"

"So…it pains me to see Goku-san hurt," said Hazel, hand at his chests in girly way. "You won't like it if I'm mad when someone hurt Goku-san," Hazel's eyes turned serious and glared at Sanzo. The juniors who still in the gym quickly ran outside the gym only left Sanzo, Goku, Hakkai, Gojyo, Kougaiji, Eroshi and Hazel.

"Ch. I'm not scared of you," cursed Sanzo as he looked at down-Goku with the corner of his eyes. He felt guilty inside actually. He shouldn't have kept using his ego. But that was why he was popular among the girls. He's handsome, cool, EGO, pretty, charming, EGO, smashing, gorgeous and EGO again. Seeing Goku down like this made him thought a second about keeping his EGO. Maybe he should delete his EGO.

"Oh really? That's good to hear," Hazel smiled evilly which made Goku and Eroshi shivered. "Before I do what I should I do, can I ask you something, Sanzo-san?"

"What?"

"Do you love Goku-san?" Hazel asked. Everyone looked at stunned Sanzo to wait for his answer. They were anxious and wanted to know even Hakkai whom already knew about Sanzo's feeling wanted to hear this for he was sure Sanzo dislike to confess in front of everyone. Goku, the most anxious of all waited patiently and his mind was playing the Hazel's question repeatedly like a tape. What will Sanzo answer? Did he love Goku? If he did, would he tell him in front of everyone (important peoples!)? Or did Sanzo only love Mokumi, not Goku? Goku nervous, anxious, worried, curious at every seconds. However, depth down inside his heart, he wishes that Sanzo loved him as HIM.

"What if I am?" Sanzo replied and asked back. Goku blinked.

"Is that a yes?" Goku asked. Sanzo stared at Goku and blushed.

"Bakasaru."

"Neh, is that a yes?" Goku asked Hakkai. Hakkai smiled satisfied and nodded. Goku blinked for a seconds before blushed irritably. 'Sanzo love me!' thought Goku. His heart jumped in joy and he felt happy as if his world has changed from boring world into a world where was full of his favourites food. The memories about Nataku and him were slowly vanish and retreated as he kept repeating the thought that SANZO LOVE HIM over and over again. 'Sanzo LOVE ME!! But wait! Did he love me as ME or MOKUMI?' Goku looked at Sanzo.

"Hmm…then I have no choice…Goku-san is very precious to me…" Hazel smiled.

"?" Then Hazel, with his hand at his hip and the other hand pointed to Sanzo, he said.

"Genjo Sanzo, I challenge you on personal competition and whoever wins, got the prize," said Hazel. Great! Another challenge from a man, thought Sanzo. This is probably the 59th times he received challenges from a man. The reason most likely because their girlfriend had fallen in love with Sanzo and all of them lose the challenges easily where Sanzo isn't interested and wasn't using his whole strength. Both the men and their girlfriends lose because Sanzo wasn't interested on having a girlfriend first. However in Hazel's case… "The prize will be…" Hazel smiled at Goku which Goku didn't like one bit. "Son Goku."

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"STUPID HAZEL!! WHAT THE HELL HE WAS THINKING??!

"I think he's going nuts."

"You're right! He's gone nuts! I cannot believe he had challenge Sanzo and me as the bet!!" Goku stamped his bed.

"But Sanzo accepted it," said Eroshi, sitting on Gojyo's bed. Goku thought about IT and blushed. "You know, for a second I thought he would refuse…"

"Me too." Goku bowed, his fingers playing with his toes. Then he blushed again, scratched his hairs and lay down on the bed, facing the ceiling. "Argh!! I cannot believe this is happening to me!!"

"Heh. Goku, you have a lot of fans," Eroshi grinned. Goku stared at Eroshi for a while then to the ceiling. Since he had turned into a girl, he had met a lot of cool and handsome young men. Nataku (well, he's bestfriend but after becoming his girlfriend, Goku got to know him better), Homura and Sanzo. Sighed. Being a girl was difficult. They are weak, sensitive, cannot eat much and easy to get mad. He hated those things especially when he was in period. Damn it was painful!

However, Goku also find positive things about being a girl. Like getting to meet cool and handsome guys (Ah…Sanzo…), can skipped class if in period (Dokugakuji once wished Goku would skipped during his class but Goku forced himself to attend the class and ended up going to toilet every ten minutes), he could run faster, he could jump higher and etc. Hell, he didn't know what to do now. He wished Dr. Nii would make the reversed potion.

"Na Eroshi…"

"Nanda Goku?"

"Am I…beautiful?" Goku asked. Eroshi was speechless (AGAIN!) and blushed. "Eroshi?"

"You mean when you were a boy or a girl?" Eroshi asked back. Goku blinked.

"Eroshi na! Of course when I am a girl. I'm not that beauty when I was a boy," said Goku, blinked as seeing Eroshi blushed deeper. "Am I?"

"Well, Flenisa always said to me that you look beautiful…even when you're a boy," said Eroshi. Goku stunned. "When you wore a dress," added Eroshi. "And bracelet, necklace, steep shoes, ribbon--"

"Knock it off Eroshi! You're making me blush!" Goku pouted and buried his face onto the pillow. He cannot believe Eroshi had just said that to him.

"Opsy. Sorry Goku."

"Mmmm…I shouldn't have asked you," said Goku and rested his chin on the pillow, staring at Eroshi. He watched Eroshi intently and realized that Eroshi sure is cute and handsome too. "Neh Eroshi."

"Nanda?"

"You look handsome," said Goku instinctively. Eroshi speechless again.

"Wha-what?!"

"Hehehehehehe. You're blushing!"

"Wha---! Goku!" Eroshi threw a pillow towards Goku and it hit Goku's shoulder. Then they started to have a pillow fight. After a few minutes fighting, both of them rested themselves on Goku's bed and stared at the ceiling. "Neh Goku…"

"Hmm?"

"Who do you think will win?" Eroshi turned his head to Goku.

"Hmm…I don't know. Sanzo is really good in basketball."

"Yes I know that. I have seen he played before and boy his pose look perfect!"

"Mmm…" Goku smirked wide imagining Sanzo's sexy prefect pose when he tried to shot the ball. So…smashing.

"But Hazel is not that bad too. He's the best in our place," added Eroshi. Goku's smirked turned to frown.

"Sighed…I don't know anymore and I don't want to think about it right now!" Goku sat up, scanned the room and sighed again. "I'm bored…"

"Me too. What do you want to do?" Eroshi asked.

"I don't know. What do you want to do?" Goku asked.

"I don't know."

"Sighed…" Goku laid down back and stared at the ceiling. His mind floating around the room, thinking about Sanzo, Nataku, Sanzo again then Hazel and then Sanzo again. Damn, he had fallen in love with Sanzo. Goku shifted his body to his left with his back facing Eroshi. He had fallen in love with Sanzo. He didn't know when but he was sure right after Nataku's death, Sanzo always be there for him, comforting him (in different ways such as helping him in his studies) and was kind to him. He remembered the first time Sanzo smiled handsomely at him.

Ahh...he will never forget that day.

The day where he, Sanzo, Hakkai and Gojyo were having fun spending time together (though Sanzo sometimes irritated) and the first time he had forgotten about Nataku. He felt peace and calm being besides Sanzo.

Sanzo is a light to him. Goku couldn't find what word that matches with Sanzo's characteristics and so far he only likes one word. Sun. Sanzo is like a Sun to him. Shining him right after Nataku's death and lead him to a better life. Sanzo never left him since then and always in front of him to vanish the darkness which engulfed him.

Sanzo is his Sun. Ah…gorgeous and handsome Sanzo is his Sun.

Then he felt guilty. He had forgotten about Nataku. He felt guilty and mad at himself for easily forgot about Nataku. He still sad though but sometimes when Sanzo's around him, Nataku was vanish from his mind and it pissed him off. He shouldn't forget about Nataku, his lover, his bestfriend. Damn he hated it. There's no way he can love Sanzo if he was still thinking about not forgetting Nataku. But forgetting Nataku guilty him. Goku sighed and turned around to face Eroshi. Eroshi was sleeping with his arms behind his head. Goku sighed again, closed his eyes and soon, he drifted to sleep.

"Goku, wake up!"

"Mmmm…let me sleep…" Goku pushed the annoying hand which tried to woke him up.

"Goku! Wake up!!" the hands shook him roughly.

"Stop it!" Goku abruptly sat up, half-open eyes, looked at frowning Eroshi. "What is it?" Goku rubbed his sleepy eyes and yawned.

"Sanzo wanted to see you," said Eroshi. Goku's eyes suddenly wide opened as he stared at Eroshi.

"What?"

"Sanzo want to see you," said Eroshi. "He's waiting in his room."

Goku walked towards Sanzo's room slowly and thought about the possibility of what would Sanzo wanted to talk with him about. About Hazel? About his feelings? Is Sanzo going to confess his feelings towards him privately? Or Sanzo just wanted to have a talk, nothing more. Goku confused and by the time he realized it, he had knocked the door and there was voice; 'Come in' from inside. Goku turned on the doorknob, peeked inside and saw Sanzo sitting at his desk; Goku stepped inside and closed the door behind him softly.

Goku decided to take a sit on Sanzo's bed (he didn't know it was Sanzo's bed) after a long silent and glanced around the room. The room was tidy, unlike his and Gojyo's room. Maybe Hakkai cleaned it or maybe Sanzo did it. Goku didn't care about that. He felt comfortable being in Sanzo's room (or on his bed). Tidy, neat, and clean. The books belongs to Hakkai (Goku think) positioned on Hakkai's desk in front of Hakkai's bed. Besides Hakkai's desk, was Sanzo's desk and Goku realized now that Sanzo was facing him, wearing a glasses (HANDSOME!) with arms folded in front of his chest, leaned against the chair. Goku gulped. Sanzo look smashing!

"So…why do you want to see me, Sanzo?" Goku asked to kill his nervousness. Sanzo glanced at the other wall and Goku was sure he saw Sanzo blushed for a second before he glanced at Goku and smiled handsomely (Goku stunned and speechless). Sanzo stood up, walked towards Goku and sat next to him on his bed. Goku gulped seeing Sanzo wearing glasses this close. 'Sanzo look gorgeous with those glasses!' Thought Goku. Then Goku felt something, he looked at his hand and saw Sanzo's hand was holding his! Goku blushed redder as he stared at Sanzo who slowly leaned forwards and pressed his lips against his. Another soft and gentle kiss he received from Sanzo.

Sanzo broke the soft kiss and looked at stunned, blushing Goku. 'Kuso…Goku look cute when he's blushing,' thought Sanzo. Still his hand being hold, Goku shook his head and looked at Sanzo in awe. He couldn't control his nervous and happy that he was blushing redder than before. Sanzo amazed seeing Goku's face could turned redder than usual. 'Kuso! He's so cute!' Sanzo screamed in mind and kissed Goku again.

'Sanzo kiss me! Sanzo kiss me! Sanzo kiss meeeee!' Goku's mind screamed in joy before Sanzo broke the kiss again and stared at blushing Goku. 'I cannot believe Sanzo kiss me!!!' thought Goku.

"Okay, stop blushing already," said Sanzo, in his usual tone. Goku snapped back to reality and began to blush again. Sanzo started to get irritated with Goku blushing yet he liked it. Sanzo then raised his hand and pinched Goku's nose.

"Oww!" Goku rubbed his nose. "What did you do that for?!"

"For blushing hard," said Sanzo.

"Oh…but is that wrong? I mean…blushing?"

"Bakasaru."

"Saru teru na!"

"Whatever." There was silent between them. So, what was the kiss for? What does it mean? Does it mean Sanzo love him? If he does, did he love Goku as HIM or HER? What happened if Sanzo said that he love Goku? Will Goku forget about Nataku? Will he felt guilty if he forgotten about Nataku? "Goku," Sanzo called.

"Huh?"

"I love you."

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Goku woke up early that he shouted outside his room; "MORNING EVERYONE!!!!!!" waking Gojyo up and other students from the same block (Sanzo one of them). He then grabbed his towel and take a bath, put on clothe and skirt after that and walked happily outside towards Sanzo's room. He opened the door without knocking it first that Sanzo whacked him on his head because Sanzo was wearing only a towel around his hip when he opened the door. Goku didn't mind at all when he got whacked. Sanzo being half-naked is worth more than the whack he got from Sanzo.

Yesterday, Sanzo had confessed his love towards Goku personally. Goku was happy, joys, stunned, free, in love, excited and anxious. He didn't know what to say after Sanzo confession but then he screamed; 'I LOVE YOU TOO!!!!' and Goku kissed Sanzo back. Sanzo wasn't expecting that from Goku but he was glad Goku didn't rejected him. He was afraid (Yes, Our Sanzo is afraid) Goku would rejected him and it made him worried for Goku didn't say he love him too after he said so yesterday morning in front of the others in the gym. He saw Goku's face was happy when Hakkai told him Sanzo love him but he still not satisfied so, he called Goku and confessed and it went well.

Except a part where Goku mentioned about Nataku. He told Sanzo that he didn't want to forget about Nataku when he was with Sanzo. Sanzo felt jealous because Goku still remembered about Nataku who had died due to plane crashed two months ago! Forgetting Nataku made Goku feel guilty and it pissed Sanzo off but Sanzo let it slide. Loves don't easily wear off. So, Sanzo told our Goku that so long Nataku is in Goku's heart, he would never forget about Nataku. Receiving a cool advice from Sanzo made Goku loved him more than he already had that he kissed Sanzo again, passionately this time.

"Sanzo! Finish yet?!"

"Urusai bakasaru! It's still early!" shouted Sanzo from the bathroom. Goku pouted and sat on Sanzo's bed. Hakkai who still in pajamas smiled.

"Mou!"

"Ma, ma Goku. You're early today," said Hakkai. "Today is Saturday, no classes," added Hakkai.

"Em! Sanzo is going to bring me to a date!" Goku giggled happily.

"Really? Wow…I didn't Sanzo would do that."

"Yeah! I also never thought about that! I mean, he's a guy who isn't that romantic! But I like it about Sanzo! Hehehe!" Goku grinned. Then Sanzo left the bathroom and grabbed a fine clothe and trouser. After putting them on, he grabbed a black cloak. Goku blushed seeing a smashing handsome Sanzo in front of them. 'Sanzo sure is rich having those cool clothe…' thought Goku and looked down at his clothe, blushing. 'Compare to mine…it's more like ten to one,' added Goku. Sanzo noticed this and looked at the way Goku dress.

'Bakasaru.' Sanzo pulled Goku up and shuffled his hairs. "Let's go," said Sanzo and walked outside his room. Goku stunned for a while before he turned to Hakkai.

"Don't worry Goku. Sanzo still love you as you," said Hakkai, smiled. Goku felt a little relieved and quickly, he followed Sanzo before Sanzo got madder.

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Oh yeah! Oh yeah! Oh yeah! Finally Sanzo x Goku! Hooray for Sanzo x Goku! Hip! Hip! Hooray! Hip! Hip! Hooray!! Hip! Hip! Hooray!!! Thanks to those who reviewed the last chapters! Really appreciate it! I loved them all! Hehehe.

Nan

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