Heya guys! Thanks so much for all the positive feedback on here and on Tumblr. It means a lot to me that some people actually follow this story, I wasn't sure where it was going or whether it was worth carrying on, but now I think I shall.
I hope you enjoy this chapter. And if you're lucky, I might update twice today xD
Love Ches.
Dear Kurt,
Today has done nothing but make me miss you more. More than I thought I ever could. Rob and I met for coffee, as friends, and it just made me feel unbelievably guilty. I didn't want anything to happen, although he clearly wanted to ask me out again, but I just felt so bad. I felt like I was letting you down, Kurt, like I was rubbing it in your face that my life will go on and yours won't.
I was quite rude to Rob too, although I did text and apoligse after. He wanted to get to know me, but it didn't feel right.
You were the only one who truly knew me. But that was okay, because you were my Kurt. I just can't have anyone getting to close right now.
God, Kurt, I miss you so freaking much. I wish you were here with me now, waiting for Jackson's cake to bake and fighting your way through the piles of washing with me. I still never pick up after myself, getting a maid was the best idea I ever had. But she smells funny, and puts things in the wrong places. I'd much rather have you nagging me for 3 days to pick up my towels than I would spending 3 days actually trying to find them.
Jackson wanted me to tell you all about his new classmate. He's called Kurt too, and it confused him a little a first. Bless the poor boy, he was convinced that you'd come back as this little boy, reincarnated I suppose. I got him to understand eventually that you weren't coming back. It broke my heart just that little bit more. I've never said it aloud, never admitted that I'm alone now.
Please Kurt, just come back to me.
Please.
I love you.