A/N: sorry for the long wait guys, college has been kicking my butt. I'm so tired!
Anyway, hope you enjoy this chapter and happy late Halloween (better late than never)
As usual thanks to pounkcakereal20 even though she forgot about me this time. Still love youthough :*
Chapter 11:
Arizona Robbins, September 18th 2015:
"Finally!" She exclaimed when she saw the little girl enter her room. "You're late." She stated making the little girl roll her eyes. "Hey! I saw that!"
Sofia stopped and looked at her with puppy dog eyes, probably trying to make herself forgiven. Arizona knew that she wouldn't be able to resist this adorable little girl.
"Ugh… come here." She finally broke. Those little brown orbs were like kryptonite to her. A huge victory smile spread over Sofia's face before she run toward the blonde, careful not to hurt her broken arm and broken ribs, before giving her a big hug.
"So what took you so long kid?" Arizona asked. Usually Sofia was never late and carrying donuts in her little arms. One for the blonde and one for herself. It has been five days since the little girl came to her room to hide. Since then she always comes after lunch to spend the day with Arizona until Dr. Yang came to take her to her mother.
It was an arrangement they made, all three of them together. It would give Arizona someone to entertain and Dr. Yang wouldn't have to run after Sofia in all of the hospital.
Arizona noticed that the little girl had become quiet infatuated with her and to be honest she was too. She was a pleasant breath of fresh air, always making her laugh even when she is not in the mood to.
Since she woke up she kept having those weird dream or memories, she wasn't quite sure. There was always this brunette girl or woman she couldn't see the face of. Sometimes her parents were there too. She really hoped that it wasn't memories because there wasn't a very nice man in them. Sometimes, the dreams were pleasant but some other times they felt like nightmares.
She didn't talk to anyone about it. She didn't know what to say or who to talk to. It seems as if everyone was walking on eggshells around her. Her parents only came to see her late in the days, when the visiting hours were almost done. The little time she spent with them she didn't know what to say to them. It was awkward, they spent hours or two looking at each other with blank looks in there eyes. Every time she tried to ask them questions about her life and their life, they avoided the questions. Saying that it would be best for her to remember on her own. Even without knowing them, Arizona could tell that they were hiding something.
It was the same with her so called best friend. Only coming to see her between two surgeries, trying to be cheerful but never being quite genuine. She wanted to tell her that she thought that she was recovering her memory through dreams, hoping that she would be the on cheering her up this time around. However, one day, she overheard the nurse talking about how sad it was that doctor Altman was burying herself in her work because of all the terrible things that happened in her life. After hearing that, Arizona courage to tell her best friend about her dreams vanished and instead guilt came to replace it.
The only person with whom she felt like she hadn't ruined their life were little Sofia and Dr. Torres.
Ah Dr. Torres… where should she start?
After her first encounter with the doctor, Arizona pretty much figured that she was gay. If her body's reaction to the doctor wasn't enough, the dreams she had of the mysterious woman didn't let any doubt in her mind.
Dr. Torres was the most beautiful woman she had ever seen, even though she couldn't remember it.
The highlight of her day was when the woman came to do her daily check up on the blonde and Arizona couldn't help herself but flirt with the woman. Even though it was inappropriate and probably making the doctor uncomfortable, Arizona just couldn't stop. She loved seeing the blush covering the tan skin, seeing the doctor trying to ignore her.
"Arizona look!" Sofia said getting her attention. Looking down at what the little girl was showing her, she could see that Sofia had tried to write her name. She had been teaching her to write it a few days ago and seeing now how she wrote 'Sofia Robbin Torres' without Arizona's help made Arizona feel something she never felt before. Even though the little girl still had trouble writing the R and the F, Arizona couldn't be more proud.
"That's awesome!" She exclaimed "I'm so proud of you Sof!" She bent down and kissed the little girl's head. "You know what, when you come tomorrow, I'll give you my chocolate pudding" Arizona said wanting to congratulate the little girl's hard work. However, it didn't have the reaction intended on the little girl. "What's wrong kid? You don't like pudding?"She waited for Sofia to be ready, not wanting to push her.
"I like pudding, but I have school tomorrow…" Sofia said sadly and Arizona could see the disappointment and dread over the little girl's face.
"Well that's ok. Don't worry I'll keep yours until you come back ok?" She couldn't see Sofia nod but her mood still wasn't what it was moment ago. "Do you want to tell me what's really bothering you?"
"I don't want to go to school." Arizona was lucky to be sitting close to the little girl, otherwise she wouldn't have been able to hear her.
"Why? I thought you loved school." She was really confused. The girl who always wanted to learn and her favorite place was the hospital didn't want to go to school.
"People always make fun of me because I only have one mommy." Arizona could see that Sofia was on the verge of tears and brought her into a hug, her heart breaking for the little girl.
"You know people are always mean when they are scared of something they don't know. It doesn't have anything to do with you. When I was your age people were making fun of me too because I was different. Then when I grow up I made awesome friends and I ignored them until eventually they got bored." Once Arizona finished talking, she froze. Where did she got all these information about her childhood? She didn't even think about it; it just came out naturally. It was all still foggy but she could make out a few things.
Sofia lifted her head from where it was resting on Arizona's good shoulder. She looked at her with her big deep chocolate orbs, they were glossy because of the tears that were threatening to fall. Arizona could see the little girl muster all the strength she had not to let them fall. She could see the little girl's face change as if she had an epiphany.
"Arizona… can you be my other mommy so the other kids won't make fun of me anymore?"
Ok pause….
What was she supposed to say? What kind of question was that? If Sofia wasn't looking at her with her big brown eyes full of hope she would have laughed. She was completely at a loss for words. She didn't want to immediately reject the little girl afraid of breaking her heart. Even though she knew as soon as she gives Sofia her answer, she would be sad. At the same time, she didn't want to give her to much hope, afraid of having her react badly to the rejection just after it.
"I- look Sofia, I…" She started but then stopped wanting to try this another way "Do you remember when I told you I was in an accident?" The little girl only nodded her head. "Well it was a really bad accident and I got hurt really bad on the head. Now I don't remember anything." Sofia looked at her confused. "I don't remember who I am and I'm still really hurt, which means I can't be your other mommy because I won't be a good one. I'm sorry kid" By the time she finished explaining to the little girl, Sofia had tears streaming down her face. Arizona could see the confusion and heartbreak written all over the little girl's face and knowing that it was her who caused this, hurt more than it should.
"But that doesn't mean I wouldn't have loved to have you as a daughter because anyone lucky enough to call you their daughter would see how amazing you are." She felt the need to comfort the little girl. She couldn't be the reason of her sadness. "But you know what kid? You're my best friend" she said taking her in her arms for a warm hug. In the short time that they spent together this week, Arizona has become attached to the little girl than she would like to admit it.
She frowned when Sofia separated herself from the hug and stood up walking to the door.
"Hey where are you going?" She called after Sofia.
"I'm tired, I'm going to find my mom." The little girl said before leaving the room.
"No wait Sof-" but it was too late, the little girl had already left.
She cursed herself for being untactful. She should have dealt with this better but she failed and now she broke the heart of a six years old. But for her part, what was she supposed to do? It wasn't something you were asked every day and she had no idea had to act.
She lied back down on her bed when a blinding pain shot threw her head.
They were both laying on their bed. It was one of those rare days when they didn't have anything important to do or study and took the opportunity to spend it together. They usually spend it like today, in bed, naked. After a lot of rounds of hot sex that were long overdue, they were both exhausted. Arizona was half laying over her girlfriend, her head in the crook of the brunette's neck. She loved the smell of her girlfriend even when she was all sweaty and sticky.
"Arizona?" The brunette murmured as if she was afraid of ruining the peaceful moment they were in.
"Mmm?" was Arizona's only answer before she nuzzled deeper in Calliope's neck pressing a small kiss on the way.
"Do you want children?" Surprised by the question, Arizona lifted her head from where it was comfortably resting and gave Calliope a confused look. "Not right now… I just… would you like to have children? One day in the future?"
Arizona took a few minutes to think about what the brunette's just asked her. To say it was an unexpected question was an understatement. However, she didn't have to think too hard about her answer. She just needed to look at her beautiful girlfriend unsure eyes to know what she wanted.
"well I never thought about it to be honest." She started pushing a few strand of hair off of her girlfriend's face. "I never thought that I'll be a good mother or that I'll even find someone with whom I would have a family with. But even if I'm still not sure about the good mother part, I know that you'll be an amazing mother and I wouldn't want to have kids with anyone but you Calliope Iphigenia Torres." She laughed when she saw the look of disgust on her girlfriend's face knowing how much she hated her name.
"You really mean that?" The brunette asked still a little unsure. She didn't want to have any false hope.
"Of course baby! I love you and I can't leave without you and our ten kids!" She said before kissing Calliope. The kiss was slow, tender and reassuring and when they broke out of the kiss, Arizona could see the biggest smile on her girlfriend's face. She still had her eyes closed but even then Arizona could see how much she was happy. Knowing she was happy thanks to Arizona, brought all the joy the blonde needed.
"Ten kids uh?" The brunette asked teasingly.
"Oh yeah! Ten mini you running around! I mean if we are going to have kids might as well do things all the way, right?" Her girlfriend didn't answer her, she simply brought her hand to the back of Arizona's head to bring her down for another kiss.
This time, the kiss was so much more heated and filled with passion that it led then them to another round. That day they never moved from their bed, enjoying each other's body as much as possible.
The pain finally stopped and the images with it. She suddenly opened her eyes. It never happened to her when she was awake, it was the first time that she had the dreams/memories in the middle of the day. This time she knew for sure that it was her memory coming back and not a dream. However, she still couldn't see who the brunette was.
She only had one thing in mind.
"Calliope."
A/N: let me know what you thought, I love reading from you guys and it always keeps me motivatedand makes me write faster.
Next chapter should be up this weekend.