CHAPTER 11

Life on the edge

Kurt closed his eyes, breathing in deeply he tried to calm his rapidly beating heart. His breath was ragged and shallow, his forehead was starting to moisten from the sweat that was trying to escape his body. He had no idea what he was doing here, why he had allowed himself to be pulled, no dragged to this place. So many memories were starting to swirl around his mind, memories he had tried so hard to push away. Kurrt swallowed hard as he tried to open his eyes, get his barings. He had heard nothing since they had come hear, the breathing and footsteps had disappeared.

God did he leave me here alone? Kurt panicked thought to himself, willing himself to believe that he wouldn't be that cruel, that evil.

Kurt bit his lip tightly as he pushed through his barriers and slowly opened his eyes. Swirls of colour appeared before him as his eyes shakily opened, he could feel his stomach starting to churn as his eyes began to focus. Kurt slowly turned his head to the left, his body pushed back tightly against the wall, his fingers gripping to the brick as if letting go would make him fall. His eyes fell on a form in the distance, a shadow agianst the light of the sky. Kurt swallowed and blinked his eyes as he tried to clear his foggy brain, he swallowed deeply again as his breathing started to ease realising that he had not been left alone.

"Blaine, please" Kurts voice was small and shaky as he pleaded with his former friend, his room mate. Blaine had dragged him through the hallways, up the stairs to the roof, the roof of all places. Kurt had panicked and gripped the side of the wall closing his eyes shut tightly, he had heard footstepas disapearing.

Did he not remember? Did he do this on purpose? Kurts thoughts swirled around his head making him dizzy. He could feel the tightness in his chest growing.

Blaine hadn't said a word since they had arrived, he didn't know why he had run after Kurt, why he had felt the need to get him away from the Warblers, protect him. He didn't know why he had brought him to his sanctuary, the only place he felt right, safe.

Blaine sat on the wall his legs dangling over the edge, he peered down at the floor below, his mind fazed in and out of reality as he started to daydream. He had slipped into his own little world, a world where there was no pain, no anger, only peace. Nothing and no-oneelse existed. So many times he had come and just sat up here watching the school carry on around him. If he screwed his eyes and squinted they all looked like ants, and if he placed his foot just so then he could pretend to squash each and everyone of them.

Blaine lifted his leg, his foot raising just before he pushed it back down. A smile crept over his face as he repeated the movement over, and over again.

"Blaine, please"

Blaine was shook from his thoughts as a breathy, pleading voice swept over him. He frowned deeply, hehad forgotten he was not alone, forgotten he had dragged Kurt up to the roof. Blaine turned furrowing his forehead even more, irritated that he was pulled from his fantasy.

"Please, Blaine" Kurt tried to control his shakey voice but it came out more as a pleading. His breathing was becoming more irracted with each breath, his throat tightening drowning his pleas.

Blaine watched his former friend for a moment, he took in the pale shaking boy who seemed to be clinging to the wall. His brain was searching for something, something hidden deep in his mind. He shouldn't of brought him here, he should remember why he shouldn't of brought him here.

Kurt was trying so hard not to pass out, his chest was becoming so tight, he felt sick as his breath became more shallow and sharp. His chest hurt, his head hurt, EVERYTHING hurt.

Why did he bring me here? Why is he doing this? Kurts thoughts whirled around his head, he was slipping further into the darkness. He hated the darkness, it consumed him and he couldn't escape it alone.

Why won't he help me? Please help me? Kurt tried to make him understand, but nothing would come out, nothing but a whisper.

Blaine swung his legs back over the wall, confusion written all over his face as he watched the struggling boy carefully.

"Please... stop" Kurt managed to get out between his breaths, his voice no more than a whisper, his eyes began to water as he tried to fight down his panic. He didn't want to get lost, he didn't want the darkness to come.

And there it was, Blaines brain suddenly kicked into life. He looked at Kurt and then down at himself. A memory hidden away for so long came rushing forward, the reason he should never of dragged Kurt up here.

Kurt was scared of hieghts, no, he was panic stricken, shit scared of heights. He was so scared tht his body shuts down and he sinks into himself.

Blaine jumped off the wall and literally sprinted towards the pale, now visibly shaking boy. Blaine thought nothing of swooping the boy up into his arms just as Kurt collapsed. Without even a second thought of what it may look like to others he pushed the door to the roof open with his back and started down the stairs. He couldn't believe how light Kurt was as he pratically ran down the steps, pushing the door at the bottom with his shoulder making sure not to hit Kurts head on it.

"Blaine" Kurt whispered as he held on tight to the curly haired boy. Blaine could hear the panic starting to build even more in Kurts voice, his breath thick and shallow. Blaine could feel Kurts whole body tighten and shake as he carried him throught the hall ways.

Blaine said nothing, he couldn't trust his own voice as he ran quickly down the corridor, pushing through the door that led to the corridor that led to his and Kurts dorm room. He didn't let his mind think, he couldn't allow himself to think of how stupid he was.

"Get out the fucking way" Blaine shouted as a group of lads stood in the corridor. He didn't even register who it was, or the fact that they were calling after him. He just had to get Kurt back to his dorm.

As he reached his door he turned and tried to push down the handle with his elbow. He tried to push his own panic down as e nearly dropped the shaking boy in his arms. He didn't know what to do, then he saw Wes raceing towards him with David, Neil and Jeff. They were the boys who Blaine had pushed through a moment ago, they all seemed to have worried expresions on their faces.

"Open the door" He said breathlessly as they all reached him at the same time.

"What the fuck Blaine?" Wes shouted his face full of confusion and worry.

"What the hell did you do?" Jeff shouted at the same time,anger coming through in his voice.

"Just open the fucking door" Blaine shouted his forehead furrowed in anger and frustration. He had no time for their questions, he had to get in his room.

Wes didn't think twice as he pushed down on the handle and ran through the door holding it wide so Blane could bring Kurt through. Blaine carried the still shaking boy, who had practically wrapped himself around Blaine to his bed, not Kurts but his own. He placed him gentlyy down on the bed then ran over to Kurts side of the room. He started pulling everything out of his draw to his side table. He was frantically looking now, his own panic growing as he searched.

"Where the fuck is it" Blaine growled in frustration as he reached for Kurts bags.

"Blaine what the hell did you do?" Jeff shouted angrily at the curly haired boy as he kneeled down beside Kurt. Jeff placed his hand on Kurts cheek his own face showed how scared he was. He didn't know how to help his friend..

"Kurt? Kurt?" Jeff cried as he watched the boy struggling for breath.

"Blaine" Kurt whimpered, his face screwed up as tears started to run down his face, his breath was coming out shorter and sharper. He was loosing control, he could feel the darkness coming, swallowing him whole.

"Blaine, shit, what the hell happened" Wes tried to talk to his friend as Blaine rummaged through Kurts belongings. He had no idea what the hell Blaine had done now.

"What are you looking for?" Wes placed his hands on his friends arm but Blaine just shook it off. He didn't want to talk to Wes, answer his stupid questions, he just had to find..

"Got it" Blaine shouted triumphantly as he grabbed the plastic device from Kurts bag and ran back over to his bed.

"Blaine what the fuck" Jeff shouted, nearly falling over as Blaine pratically yanked him out of the way. Jeff fell onto his back, Neil ran to help his boyfriend.

Wes came back over to Blaines bed his face showed his concern, not just for Kurt but for his mad friend aswell. Blaine could get kicked out if the dean found out Blaine had hurt Kurt in anyway. He was on his last warning.

David wrapped his arm around his friends shoulder, no words were exchanged as Wes leaned into the touch, seeking the comfort there.

"Here Kurt" Blaine ignored Jeff and sat down next to Kurt, wrapping one arm around the shaking boys back, he held him up in a sitting position. With his other hand he held the device to Kurts lips, as if in sync he pressed the button as Kurt took a deep breath inwards.

Wes, David, Jeff and Neil stood there mesmerized, their brains trying hard to understand what they were seeing.

"Asthma attack" Blaine said to no one in particular as he kept his eyes on the boy in his arms. Holding him tightly as he tried to help Kurt calm down.

A/N Sorry it's short but needed to get this up so I can start moving the story along again. Thankyou for being patient while I've been away but I'm back now. Hope you will review please x