Maybe I'm Crazy
You know what I said about you making completely unpredictable, right? It's all your fault, really. I wouldn't have done it if it hadn't been you. So I hold no liability to what I did. It was probably your face, or maybe it was the stomach-churning jealousy you had suddenly expressed about me and the person I hate most in the world, or maybe it was the just how fast this situation was accelerating.
I made it all crash down.
Tonight was probably when I just got completely fed up, just couldn't take how things were going. So I made a U-turn. Starting with hugging you and ending god knows when.
Maybe it was a bit of my fault.
But you still looked like you wanted to implode on yourself, and I really could sympathize with that, you make me feel like that all the time.
In the end, I just did it. I wasn't thinking, all my inhibitions were stripped and I made the scene came clamoring to a halt.
I kissed you.
Maybe you were a bit right about the fucking Cartman thing, maybe I've been paying way too much attention to the bastard then he even deserves.
But really, it was probably because he was always standing next to you. He was the easiest target to aim my drifting eyes to. I couldn't help but fight with him the second my eyes met his. It's absolutely repulsing that I had to look at his pudgy little face instead of yours.
Frustrated.
Maybe I did it because of how you said you didn't care about whether I loved him or not.
A part of me desperately wants you to care. I want to make you care.
After way too soon I pull away. Oh my fucking god I didn't want to. But my heart couldn't bare it any longer.
I must have looked nothing short of a tomato. My red hair and my bright red face.
Goddammit I don't care you make me into such a fucking dork. I can only hope that you like me despite it.
Remember what I said about the whole nine yards earlier.
Fine! Just fine!
"Then I'll make it all about you..."
((Ending Notes: ...anyone else notice that I update faster with reviews?
-Le Burbs.))