How You Change My Life
Chapter 11
The first thing I did when I arrive at the villa was to take a long warm bath. It relaxed me enough to rejuvenate my energy. I then got dress for the last plan and went to the make-shift studio to check if everything has been set. Like Alicia said everything seems to be in order and nothing seems to have been misplaced. I then sat at the corner where the gang has already set my equipment for their rightful purpose.
Then all I could do is to wait for Alicia to arrive with Nanoha. As I sat here thinking of the song I would like to sing for Nanoha. I couldn't help but thing 'how fitting it is with my current predicament.'
My musing stopped when I heard a car pulled over. Finally the last part of the plan is in motion. I heard Alicia order her bodyguards to bring the girl over to the basement. Then a few minutes later the door opened and Alicia's bodyguards came in. The two were guiding a girl between them over to the lone chair in the middle of the room. Alicia followed afterwards; she looked my way and grinned giving me an okay sign.
"Okay guys, make sure that you make our guest comfortable or you would all be sorry you didn't listen to me." Alicia then grinned wider. Her bodyguards just nodded and sitted an unconscious Nanoha on the lone chair. They then left with Alicia waving at me with a very wicked grin.
Before she left completely, Alicia turned off the lights and opened one of the spotlights. It was focused on Nanoha.
I look at her as begins to regain consciousness. She seems to be disoriented. I wonder what Alicia did to make her disoriented like that or better yet to past out. Soon though Nanoha had seemed to grasp what was happening and I saw her start to panic. I guess that's my queue to start my part. I press a button on a music player just next to me.
A melody then starts to envelop the whole room. Nanoha stopped and looked around though nothing could be seen from where she sat. Because the room is completely engulf by darkness except from where she sat.
"Is anybody there?" She nervously asked.
The melody continued to play on the background but soon enough it was accompanied by my humming. I saw Nanoha stiffen. She then looked around trying to see where my voice is coming from. She was about to ask again when I started to add the lyrics to the melody which made her stop mid-sentence.
It's cold here in the city.
It's always seems like when I've
Been thinking about the rain.
Makin' about how bad it feels alone again
I saw her slowly stood up in her position. Her eyes searching the darkness for my position as my voice fill the room. I remained where I sat while looking at her face. She had a strange mixture of fear and excitement twirling within those beautiful sapphire eyes. But something else was there that I could not put a name on.
They all knew I'm crying
I can't sleep at night
They all know I'm dying down deep inside…
I stood up and slowly I made my way towards her. The room still cloaked in darkness only the spotlight guiding my way towards her. How ironic that this song I pick tells everything that I had felt since that night I broke her trust with my truth.
I can't believe you went away
Sorry if I took things for granted
More than anything else I'm sorry for myself
Cause you're not here with me…
By now I thing she knows that it's me. I'm also just a few steps away from where she stood inside the spotlight. It was like I was outside a crystal sphere were the light from the spotlight were the walls and just a few more steps and I would be entering that crystal sphere. Tears were slowly forming at the corners of her eyes. She was still frantically looking everywhere. It does not help that this place resonate my voice everywhere perfectly.
You filled up my senses like a night in a forest
Like a mountain in springtime
Like a walk in a rain
Like a storm in the dessert
Like a sleepy blue ocean
Then her tears fell. Which made me took the last steps to enter her crystal sphere. I stopped and stood just a few meters from her. I extended my hands to wipe her tears away. I knew that in that very moment, she could see the love I have for her plastered on my face as I continued wiping her tears away. Then I continue to sing in a voice so softly only she could hear almost like a plea.
Let me give my life to you
Let me drown in your laughter
Let me die in your arms
Let me lay down beside you
Let me always be with you
Come let me love you….
Then the melody repeated and once more like a plea I repeated the last stanzas to her. Slowly I raised her head and I looked straight at her. Her beautiful sapphire eyes are clouded with tears and it made my heart ache. Pulling her to a tight embrace, I whispered into her ears.
"Nanoha, I'm sorry and I love you."
I held her tighter afterwards wanting her to meld onto me. We stood like that under the spotlight for a few minutes with no one speaking or moving but sooner than I like. I felt Nanoha push me away gently. She stared at me with tears brimming at the side of her eyes. I looked into those cloudy sapphire eyes and what I found within them scared me. It was just cloudy. It expresses nothing yet at the same time it seems to tell me something else.
I got frightened so I let her go. She took a few steps back without taking her eyes off mine. I became speechless and before I even know it, I was turning around to step away for I know such expression could only mean one thing 'Rejection'.
As I turned around to leave I felt her hands grab hold of my arms to stop me from moving away.
"Fate-chan…" I heard her whisper softly.
I turned around to look at her. Fresh tears were slowly making their way down her flashed face. Her cloudy sapphire eyes express something I found extremely confusing and my earlier assumption got reinforced when I saw a flicker of anger and sadness within them. I was about to say sorry when suddenly…
SMACK
My head got turned to the left involuntarily from her hands meeting my face. It hurts. But it isn't as painful as my heart breaking once more. I slowly raise my left hand to my face where she hit me. I couldn't believe this is happening. It hurts worst than it did before. Slowly I corrected myself and once more I turned around to leave. I think it's already clear that she doesn't like me anymore. I have completely lost the person I hold dear in my heart due to my own stupidity, dishonesty and cowardice.
Tears slowly form at the corner of my eyes as I realize that this is the end. I no longer have any way to fix anything and Nanoha have for the last time rejected me.
"I'm sorry…" I stated in a broken voice as tears finally fell from my eyes.
I slowly started to walk away from her. But then I realize that Nanoha has still not let go of my right arm. I gently slid my left hand from my face to try and remove them so I could get away from her. But Nanoha's hold only tightens when I tried to remove it. I still have my back to her as I don't want her to see me cry my broken heart out.
"Please let me go…" I pleaded with a broken voice.
But she didn't let go. I continued to struggle to let lost from her hold when I suddenly felt a weight on my back. I stood still as I heard Nanoha cry on my back. I felt a small spot of wetness on my back where she was currently leaning on me. I don't understand. Why is she still crying? Why is she stopping me from leaving? She should just let me go and forget about me. Then she could smile again. Somehow even though she broke my heart I could still only wish for her happiness. A sad smile blossom on my face while my tears continue to fall for now I truly understood the meaning of the saying 'If you truly love someone then all you could wish is for that someone's happiness even if it wasn't with you.' How sad that my first love have to end in such a way.
"Stupid, stupid, stupid, Fate-chan is stupid." I heard Nanoha mumbled at my back. Her voice was shaking and it would break every now in then from her crying but she would still continue to mumble those words.
I remain silent just listening to her mumbling. A few minutes later, I felt Nanoha's hold on my arm slacken before completely letting go. I stood conflicted between running away and staying to comfort her. Pathetic really, I was the one rejected and yet I was the one thinking of comforting Nanoha. It seems that falling in love have such a strange effect on me. Then I felt movement from behind and before I could make up my mind, Nanoha had already embraced me from behind.
Why is she doing this? Isn't it enough that she rejected me? Does she want to see me breakdown? No, Nanoha wouldn't be so cruel and another bitter smile etched itself on my face. How pathetic can I get? Here I am suffering from a broken heart and yet all I could think of doing is to defend the very person who broke it in the first place.
"Fate-chan, look at me…" She whispered brokenly. I remained still on my position.
Then I felt her slowly turn me in her embrace as I deny her of her plea. My body slowly turned yet I didn't look at her and instead opted to close my eyes. Tears remained falling yet I didn't even dare to wipe them. Fearing that it would cause me to open my eyes and look at her.
"Fate-chan, please open your eyes and look at me…" She pleaded with a broken voice.
That voice made my heart ache. Because I know that I'm the one causing it. Why can't I suffer this pain alone? I hate it when she becomes sad because of me. Even in such painful moments all I could think of is how to make her smile. I don't care if she broke my heart but does she really have to suffer too? Maybe I should have just never confessed. Then maybe Nanoha would just go through her life and forget she ever meet a person like me. Then she would only cry once and then smile again not like how she is now.
"Fate-chan, please open your eyes…" She pleaded with the same broken voice as she gently took my face in her hands. I flinch as her hand touch my bruising cheeks. I felt her hand shy away for a second before coming back with more gentleness to avoid irritating my bruising cheeks. Her hands were warm and it soothed my bruising cheeks a little. Then I felt her thumbs gently wipe away my flowing tears.
"I can't. It hurts too much to see you right now. I know that what I would see will only break my heart further so please stop and let me go. I promise this will be the end. I don't want to cause you anymore trouble Nanoha." I stated with the same broken voice.
Her thumb stopped wiping my tears away.
"Stupid Fate-chan, open your eyes and look at me. I want you to look at me as I tell you how I feel."
I shook my head refusing to follow her plea.
"FATE TESTAROSSA! Open your eyes right now and look at me."
Startled by the sudden commanding tone in her voice I couldn't help but open my eyes. Her face was so close that I could feel her breath on my face. She looked at me sternly in the eyes. I couldn't help but stare back. It did not help that she still had her hand on my cheeks preventing me from looking away. Her eyes then softened and I felt her caress my cheeks gently.
"I love you too. Fate-chan…"
At that very moment I felt my world spin out of control and my heart pounded so strongly in my chest it felt like it would come out from my chest and explode. Did I hear her right? Did she just say I love you too? Am I dreaming? If so please let me just stay asleep with this wonderful dream. My thought might have shown on my face because she repeated her confession.
"I love you. Fate-chan" then she pulled me nearer eliminating the remaining space on our lips.
Her lips tasted like nothing I've ever had before. I could not help but want more so I pulled Nanoha in an embrace making the kiss last longer. Slowly we parted and I couldn't help but cry her name out as tears of joy slid down from my eyes.
"Shhh…shhh…It's okay Fate-chan. I'm here and I won't leave you again."
"B-b-but…y-y-you…" I was cut mid-sentence when she kissed me again. This time it wasn't oxygen depriving like the first one. It was simply done to make me stop talking. I couldn't help but calm down.
"Are you calm now?" She questioned all the while wiping the tears off my face. I nodded in response.
"I know you jump to conclusions quickly but you should really learn to listen first." She stated gently while looking straight at me.
"B-b-but…I-I thought…y-y-you hate me…y-y-you slap me…"
And once more I felt her lips on mine.
"Are you questioning me on purpose to get me to kiss you again and again Fate-chan? Because I'm starting to think you really are." Nanoha stated with a gentle smile as she touch her forehead to mine.
"…." May face felt like it's on fire.
"M-Maybe…" I finally manage to say.
"Mou, Fate-chan"
"But I really need to know why did you slap me?"
"Well…It's… a maybe later. I could also keep some secret from you right?"
Have I ever told you how cute Nanoha is when she's squirming and fidgeting like a child? If not thank God you could never see it because I'm sure you'd have died and came back just to die again just from seeing how adorable she is.
"Mou Nanoha…"
And we ended up laughing at how silly everything had seems.
"I love you Fate-chan."
"I love you to Nanoha."
Then we stopped and looked at each other's eyes. Her eyes have a certain spark in them. It did not help that some of her tears seems to emphases it. Then she slowly closed her eyes and leaned forward. I closed my eyes waiting for our lips to touch.
Suddenly the door and the lights opened making Nanoha and Me jump a little startled. Hayate stood at the open door with a Cheshire cat like grin.
"I take it the two of you finally made up." She grinningly stated.
From the corner of my eyes I saw Nanoha pouting. OH MY GOD she looks so cute.
"We didn't disturb some love-love scenes right?" Hayate asked with the same grin on her face.
I blushed and took a pick at Nanoha. She was also blushing dame it can she get any cuter. I saw Hayate's smirk widen if that's even possible. Then Nanoha walked toward Hayate and pulled her a little to the corner. I looked on confused as to what they were talking about. Then Nanoha returned to my side and I saw Hayate looking pale. I wonder what they talked about.
"Hayate is there something wrong? You look like you saw a ghost." I asked concerned.
"Of course not, right Hayate-chan?" Nanoha answered with a sweet smile.
"Y-Yeah t-that's right. I-I s-should be g-going now."
It is me or did Hayate just squeak. She then turned around. I could have sweared she paled even more. Then she walked toward the door. The others then approach her and they seemed to be talking. They then looked are way and they sported a confused looked on their faces then suddenly they all paled like they saw a ghost.
"Y-yeah Hayate is r-right. W-we should g-go." Vita stuttered. Okay what just happened? Vita stuttered what is wrong here. I then looked over at Nanoha at my side. She still has that charming smile on her face. I could not help but blush.
It then made me remember about what Hayate said about our bands name. How could Nanoha possible even be called a devil? It just doesn't fit her.
Then I heard Hayate and the gang run out of the door like Satan was after them. I could even hear them shouting our bands name. Strange I wonder what happened to those guys. Oh well I'll ask later for now it seems that Nanoha and I are alone again.
I then took Nanoha's hands on mine and I tried to continue the kiss before we get interrupted again.
"So sis did it work?" Alicia came bursting in from the door.
I let out a groan and face palmed. Alicia looked confused for a second. Then she looked at Nanoha and suddenly she paled. What is it that's making them act like this I wonder? But damn if someone interrupts me again someone is gonna lost a limb. Can't I have some quality time with my Nanoha?
I was about to talk to Alicia when she suddenly cut me.
"On second thought I'll leave you two now and just ask later bye." Alicia then run like the devils where after her.
Okay whatever. It's hard to understand everyone now. –sigh- This time to make sure that no one is going to interrupt us I headed toward the door and locked it. I then took Nanoha's hand and kissed her with all the love I have for her.
Omake
What took place when Hayate meet the gang in front of the door?
"So what is it the confetti or the beer?" Vita asked
"NO! We're leaving now. I don't want to die yet." Hayate stated in fright.
"What the Hell are you talking about Hayate and whose trying to kill you?" Vita asked confused.
"Hayate you're not making sense." Signum cut in.
"Look guys trust me and let's go. I really don't want to die yet but if you don't value your lives then fine do what you want."
The others looked confused at Hayate's behavior so they looked over towards their blonde friend. Fate seems to be fine. A little bit goofy but fine. It was then that they look at the girl besides their friend and somehow they realize that what Hayate said was right.
"Y-Yeah t-that's right. I-I s-should be g-going now." Vita said
They then bolted out the door.
"I don't want to die yet. I'm TOO YOUNG TO DIE…." Vita screamed
"THE DEVIL IS AFTER ME…." Zafira screamed
"I DON"T WANT TO DIE…." Hayate screamed
Signum just run besides them.
The group did not notice the other blonde as they run screaming for their lives. Alicia looked at them confused not knowing that she too would be screaming like them.
A few second later another scream was heard.
30 minutes later
The remaining band members and Alicia were seen huddled together at a corner mumbling something about a devil and weeping for their poor Vocalist as if Fate was lost.
At the same time the aforementioned Vocalist was having the time of her life with her new girlfriend while dining by candle lights.
"This is the Best Time of my life ever."
"Mou, Fate-chan." Nanoha stated with a soft smile on her face.
Somewhere near the beach…
"Ara it sure is getting chilly…" Shizuru stated with a shiver
"DIE MUTT…" Nao screamed
"NO YOU DIE SPIDER…" Natsuki screamed
"Don't you think, you guys should be going home now? I think you guys are about to appear in Uminari Academy soon." Raven Sigh
"Yeah that's right. That's if Raven decided to be a good writer and write the next chapter of Uminari Academy already." Hime stated.
The three HiME then looked at the Author.
"Ara…" Shizuru said while tilting her head a little a weird glint in her eyes.
"YOU!…" Nao and Natsuki both screamed while pointing at the author.
Raven paled and screamed while the three came after her.
"HAYATE (UA) NOW." Raven screamed when she saw Hayate (UA) at the coconut tree.
"Owww and it was finally getting better." Hayate (UA) pouted none the less she pulled out her device and the three HiME disappeared.
"Thanks Hayate. I thought I was gonna die Again." Raven sighed in relief.
"Darn I didn't see much blood this time especially since I'm not included darn." Hime whispered under her breath.
"Hime did you say something?" Raven questioned.
"Nothing, Nothing…"
"Thanks again Hayate don't worry I'll be sure to repay you sometime soon."
"No prob. Better go now I think the gang need me in Uminari Academy now. See ya when I see ya." Hayate (UA) then disappear in a shower of light.
END
Raven: I forget to mention that I don't own any of the MGLN characters do I like to think so…
Surprise Omake
N: Raven finally returned from the island and she was relaxing on her favorite sofa.
Raven: Man I'm sure am bit though the whole drama was worth it.
Hime: I think we're forgetting something though. Don't you think?
N: Raven was thinking about what Hime said when she suddenly paled.
R: Shit, Shit no not that…(Shivering from fear)
N: The door suddenly opened with a bang and Nanoha entered with Raging Heart at hand.
Nanoha: You-You-YOU
N: Raven and Hime found themselves hugging each other us they shoke in fear.
Hime: Why do I think I'm going to get involved in this again?
R: Shish stop making noise. She might see us.
N: Nanoha took a breath and seems to calm down a little. The two friends didn't release each other from the hug knowing that as long as the brunette is near something is bound to get broken. As if to prove it Nanoha accidentally hit a vase with Raging Heart. The authors cower in fear that they would be next.
Nanoha: Sorry about that.(Nanoha faced the cowering duo) Anyway I should really be bombarding you right now with my SLB attacks for making My Fate-chan suffer but this time I'll let it pass because I have to admit Fate-chan's last outfit was really Hot.
N: The cowering duo relax a little hearing what Nanoha said. They looked at the brunette with a hopeful face.
Nanoha: But if you make Fate-chan the enemy again. I'll make sure to make you unavailable for a month's time.(Nanoha smiled over sweetly which means torture to those who knew)
N: The duo could only nod. The duo finally feeling a semblance of relief finally stood still not releasing the hug. Then suddenly the window exploded in pieces.
Hayate: (In full Barrier Jacket) how dare you? How dare you?
N: The three looked at Hayate. Raven paled because he remembered what it was that she had forgotten.
R: Shit, I knew it was 'that' that I forgot.
Hayate: How dare you end this fic without my love life coming to an answer? Will I be with the Ferret boy or Alicia? I want answers and I want them now or someone is going to meet their maker soon?
N: Hayate commanded while pointing her device at the now once more cowering duo. A ragnarok spell already starting to appear.
R: Please wait. W-we did t-that on purpose. Be-Because we p-plan to make a se-separate story for it. Right Hime?(Raven nervously ask Hime with a glint in her eyes that says 'please play along or else we both suffer the consequences.)
Hime: (getting the hint)y-yes t-that's right a new f-fic for y-you…
Hayate: (with a serious look in her eyes) Is that true?
N: Hayate aimed her device at the duo while asking. At the corner of the room Nanoha could be seen sitting at a comfortable love sit with a bucket of popcorn seemingly to enjoy the show.
R & Hime: YES!
N: Hayate looked at them unconvinced for a second before lowering her device.
Hayate: Okay then I'll be waiting. You better make it good or else…
N: Hayate copied Nanoha's trade mark White Devil Smile and the duo almost passes out in fright. It was then that she saw Nanoha on the love sit with a bucket of popcorn.
Hayate: OH! Nanoha-chan you were here?
Nanoha: Yeah I just have some business with those two before you came.
Hayate: Is that so? Hey how about we get some ice cream? I heard the Momoko-san created a new flavored ice cream.
N: The two then completely ignored the cowering duo and left to get the said new ice cream. Before leaving completely though the two ace gave the duo a twin super sweet smile and the duo almost swoon if it wasn't for the fact that those smile means something else entirely.
R & Hime: Forgive us…
N: The duo shouted while hitting their head on the floor by bowing.
N; The two then left the ruined apartment. The duo remain were they were until they could no longer hear any footsteps.
R: Is it safe? Are we safe now?
Hime: Thank God
N: But before the duo could finally rejoice for the first time that their fic ended without them having bodily or mentally harmed a streak of golden lightning past through the roof hitting them perfectly and electrocuting them.
Fate: How could you be so mean to me? Always making me hurt My Precious Nanoha and making me look like the villain, you deserve that.
R & Hime: This sucks….
N: The duo collapse in a file of smoke. Till Next time. Please R&R and comment if you want the writers to remove the omakes….See You….