Chapter 10

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WARNING: This is a slash story and does contain adult content.

Chapter 10 A Teary Christmas

Her head was pounding and her mouth was dry. What had happened? They were at the Leaky Cauldron! But the bedding didn't feel like she was. This was warm thick and they smelt nice – smelt familiar. She warily opened her eyes and realised she was back in her room. In Grimmauled Place.

"Whaa?" she murmured rubbing her forehead. Had it been a dream or something? No, that was absurd...

"Don't you ever do that again!" said a familiar voice. She turned to look at Sirius and smiled weakly. Then she thought of Draco.

"How is..."

"He's fine!" Sirius snapped cutting her off.

"Padfoot... I'm really sorry... I just knew that he was in trouble..."

"I'm sure that the order could have handled something like this!"

"They wouldn't have bothered!" She sneered.

"What about me? You could have got me or Remus to go get Malfoy!"

"You wouldn't have gone!" she snapped. "Nobody likes the Malfoy's! They all think they are evil! You would have just said, 'oh Sasha, Malfoy is fine! You are just being paranoid!'" she imitated. Sirius' anger grew.

"You think I would have really done that?" he yelled. Sasha nodded fiercely. "You are the boy who lived!" he hissed quietly. "You went up to Voldemort! He could have killed you! He could have found out! You are so lucky you got out. Your parents would be disappointed in you for doing something so stupid!" Sirius ground out his hands shaking.

"SHUT UP! DON'T YOU DARE BRING MY PARENTS INTO THIS! THEY WOULD BE PROUD. I SAVED A FRIEND! DRACO WAS DYING IN THAT CELL AND JUST BECAUSE I MANAGED TO SAVE A FRIEND AND YOU DIDN'T, DOESNT MEAN YOU CAN GET ANGRY WITH ME!" she screamed at the man. She pulled out the rat and slammed it in his palm. "And I thought you might like this!" she sneered storming out the room. As she stepped out she realised she had gone too far. She replayed the scene in her mind and groaned. Sirius was angry…his red face going even redder with fury as Sasha had yelled. His eyes had widened with a saddened glint in them. She sighed and looked up to see everyone stood around the door as if they had been listening. She glared at them before speaking. "Where's Draco?" she asked neutrally. Ron instantly pointed to a door. He had been placed in Harry's old bedroom. She strode quickly and opened the door. Draco was sat up looking down at his hand nervously.

"Hi..." she spoke quietly. Draco looked up nervously.

"Hi," he whispered back.

"How are you feeling?" she said taking a seat next him on the bed. He shuffled over giving her room to squeeze on.

"Better... They healed me..." he paused. "I'm sorry... You really didn't have to come for me..."

"You heard?"

"Who didn't?!" he huffed.

"Alright..." she said rolling her eyes. "I came for you because I was in danger... Even after the fight with Sirius, I don't regret it." Draco smiled.

"Thank you, no one has stood up for me like that, I appreciate it." Sasha kissed his cheek. After a few moments of comfortable silence, Draco spoke again. "Sash... How did you do that magic? At the manor?" Sasha took in a deep breath.

"Draco... I trust you, I trust you a lot. But please, I can't answer that... Just not yet..." she said taking his hand in hers.

"Ok." He agreed disappointedly.

"Thanks."

"No, thank you. You saved me and my parents... I will never be able to repay you."

"There might be one day. When you feel as if I hurt you. All I want on that day, is that you know that I would never intentionally hurt you and I would like you to forgive me." Sasha smiled sadly thinking of what would happen when the truth came out.

"I will always forgive you..."

"Hmm I don't think that's true... What if I had been lying to you since the day I met you." Draco chuckled.

"Hmmm you're making me suspicious!" he winked. "Wait! Are you really a boy?" Sasha's eyes widened at the accuracy of Draco's guess. "Maybe you have a d..." Sasha let out a nervous bark of laughter.

"No! No! No!"

"Hmm..." he said eyeing her.

"Fine. I Sasha Lilian Portte promise you Draco Lucius Malfoy that I am a female!" she laughed. Draco joined in. The laugh was empty and she felt as if it was going to morph into a sob. She took a deep breath looked down to get rid of the forming tears in her eyes and looked back at Draco.

"Good!" he said and decided to enjoy the company of this girl next to him. Trying to ignore the ache in his heart, that was screaming at him telling him that it should be another.

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There was a knock at the door and Ron stood there nervously. "Ron... I'm okay now. I'm not going to hurt you." Ron chuckled weakly but he seemed reassured anyway.

"Mum told me to check on you both and Urm Sirius wants to meet you in the garden." he said.

"Oh." Sasha frowned. "We're ok... And I'm coming." she sighed and left the room. She stepped out into the garden, nervously and slowly planning out her long apology. When she reached quite far from the house behind a shed, Sirius was sat on the log looking away from Harry and at the Forrest ahead. The man spoke without turning.

"Your dad and I used to argue all the time. It actually made our relationship stronger." he was silent. "Sit down and remove the glamours." Sasha complied muttering a finite spell and sitting down. "I wish your parents were still here. In the past when I have looked after you, I was never a father. I was a friend. I was supposed to be a father and look out for you and not push you into greater trouble. I didn't help when I went through the veil. I put you in so much more danger. And today, today I hurt you for the first time..." Sirius' voice broke a little. "I'm so sorry... I was scared and I was wrong... Forgive me Harry?" he said sadly. Harry felt his heart break. He pulled Sirius into a huge hug.

"Sirius. I'm so sorry, I shouldn't have said those things. I didn't mean it and I know you were worried. I promise I won't ever do something so reckless like that again." he said. He heard Sirius sigh a breath of relief.

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Sasha was walking to her room when she heard her name been called. She turned around to see Draco stood there nervously. Sasha's lip twitched upwards. "Hi Draco." she smiled.

"Err Sasha I want to go to Hogwarts..." Sasha's smile fell. "I just don't feel comfortable here. Mrs. Weasley is ok... But I dunno." Sasha sighed and nodded.

"Is it Ron?" she asked.

"It isn't anyone… everyone is ignoring me, but it is unsettling that I'm staying here with people I have insulted half my life!" Sasha took his hand.

"I'm coming with you though." she smiled but Draco shook his head.

"No Sasha, you stay here... We will see each other in a week anyway. You can't leave this place because of me." he frowned. Sasha went over and hugged him tightly.

"I will miss you."

"I'll miss you too. Owl me." Sasha nodded and they walked down the steps. They went to the kitchen where everyone was seated.

"Err guys Draco wants to go back to Hogwarts..."

"Are you sure my love?" Mrs. Weasley asked she could sense Draco's discomfort for a while now.

"Yes... If there is no problem." He spoke, Ron sniggered but Draco seemed unprovoked.

"Very well then, I will floo the headmaster in fifteen minutes. Why don't you get your belongings?"

XxxX

Draco had left and so Sasha was now slumped on the sofa reading Romeo and Juliet. Ginny came into the room and took a seat opposite Sasha so she put the book down. "Hi." she said... She felt embarrassed, she had been trying to avoid Ginny because she was the one Harry confided in with everything.

"Hi..." Ginny smiled curiously.

"Hi?" Sasha said again awkwardly. Ginny smirked.

"Well I just thought I'd come and speak to you since we haven't actually spoken at all yet... Is there any reason you are avoiding me like the plague." she grimaced.

"Sorry... I really didn't mean to! I really haven't been thinking straight and I haven't been socialising with anyone much recently..."

"Hmm that's true."

"I've got an idea... Hi I'm Sasha Lilian Portte. I am in my seventh year at Hogwarts. In Slytherin house." Ginny laughed.

"Hi Sasha! I'm Ginerva, don't call me that, Molly Weasley. I also go to Hogwarts but I'm in my sixth year and I am in Gryffindor. Woohooo! Now we are bezzies!" she teased. Sasha laughed along weakly.

"So you like Draco Malfoy then?" Ginny asked and then looked a bit embarrassed. "Sorry... That was..."

"No it's fine... And I..." do! "Don't." she lied. "He is attractive and very nice but I prefer him as a friend." she smiled.

"oh... So you know Blaise Zabini?"

"Urrm yes... Why?"

"Oh uh... I was just wondering if you were..."

"No! Blaise and I are not like that! He's is like a bro! I simply have no attraction to him what's so ever. Why?" he grinned.

"Never you mind." she smiled.

"Why?"

"It doesn't matter..." Sasha knew that face... Ginny was hiding something... Ginny liked Blaise!

"Oh my god! You like him!"

"No!No!no!" now she was sure. Her eyes were wide and she had that bright red blush on her cheek.

"Yes you do..." Ginny huffed. She then frowned.

"How come it's so easy to talk to you... It's like I've known you for years but I haven't. It feels like we have been best friends or ages."

"Maybe you are just missing that best friend that isn't here anymore..." Ginny sighed and nodded.

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The days had gone by quite busily. It was now Christmas day and Sasha awoke in full spirits. She skipped down to the kitchen where her mood fell instantly. Everyone was sat there with amazing food but it was quiet. Dull. Nobody smiled. She looked at Sirius who grimaced and glared at her. She took a seat next to him. "It's their first Christmas without Harry Potter..." he whispered. Sasha dropped her fork with a clatter.

"Oh." she said. She then looked up at her friends. "Who wants to open presents?" she tried brightly. They all snapped out of their reverie and forced a smile nodding. So everyone got up and walked to the living room where there was a huge lit up Christmas tree with lot of presents scattered around underneath it." they began their work through the presents. She had got books from Remus and Hermione. Some Weasley joke shop products, a sneakoscope from Ginny, a little jewellery box from Ron, some sweets from Draco (she still had the locket Draco had given her) and Blaise and a broom from Sirius. Everyone had given Sirius strange looks. But he didn't care. They all thought that he was trying to replace Harry. Sasha had gasped and ran to hug Sirius. She had tried to refuse the gift, it had probably cost a fortune! But he wouldn't listen. Finally, a last present was handed to Sasha, it was wrapped in silver with a black ribbon and a fancy scrawl. She opened it and looked inside. It was a brooch. A gold one, with a silver sort of liquid substance. She took the note and read it.

Sasha

Lucius and I will never be as grateful as we are to you. You saved us, my son and the manor. Yes the wards couldn't be held without any Malfoy's so the Death Eaters were chucked out. They only had enough time to blast one wall down but we managed to fix that. We are safe in out manor and I do wish Draco was here but it still isn't entirely safe for him.

Anyway here is a family heirloom. It is a brooch yes. But it is special. In the middle there are Phoenix tears that have been willingly given so that it can heal anything. It will never run out. Hope you like it.

Lots of love,

Narcissa and Lucius Malfoy.


Sasha gasped. It was beautiful. She took it and put it on. Everyone looked at her.

"It's from Lucius and Narcissa Malfoy... For saving their life." Molly smiled and everyone else just shrugged. Suddenly Hermione gasped. Everyone looked up to see her holding a parcel with a note on. "What's up?" there were tears in her eyes.

"It... Says this one's to Harry... Who would send something like this? Everyone knows he's gone but I wonder how it got here..." she sniffed, a few tears escaping her eyes. "Can you read it?" Hermione asked passing it to Sasha. "I probably won't be able to speak clearly."

"Dear Harry

Ever since I met you I have simply been infatuated by you. When we were young, I felt something towards you. I thought it was something small and silly, but I was mistaken... In fact, it was the complete opposite. I have truly loved you since I laid my eyes on you. Not because you are famous, or because you killed Voldemort as a child. But because you are a simple boy living a complicated life. Through these years I have observed you and I a lot about you. From the fact that you hate the fame to the fact that you always bite your lip when you're worried or that you only have apple juice for breakfast in the summer. I have noticed the tiniest things about you and every time I learn something new, I fall in love even more. You think you don't have anyone who will love you. I love you more than my own life. Every day it hurts seeing the way you look at me and I realised it takes one mistake to ruin a whole life.

Anyway, since day one, I have written letters to you... Letters which I never sent. I know that you are no longer alive... I don't know where these will end up but I regret not sending them before.

You are beautiful my love and hopefully I will see you in another life...

Lots of love

The Dragon"

Sasha was crying by the end, as was everyone else. "H... He always wanted s...someone to love him!" Hermione sobbed. Sasha felt her heart break. Who was this? Was it a male or female? They had to be in Hogwarts.

"I wonder who it's from..." sniffed Ron. He took the parcel of letters and wasn't surprised when it wouldn't open.

"Why did they send it if it wasn't going to even open?" Ginny hiccoughed.

"Maybe to get it off their mind..." said Lupin.

"Give it here... I'll put it away safely... Maybe in a few years when everything is okay... We'll be able to break the spells and find out who this mystery girl is..." Molly sniffed taking the pile. Sasha wanted to stop her and tell her she could open it and she could find out who loved her so much.

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