Alright, so glad to be on chapter 11. Today is my birthday and I'll be getting drunk so I'm writing this now. WARNING: Sort of explicit rape. R&R

Converting my actions

Chapter 11

John P.O.V.:

When I got Wade's text message, I didn't want to go see him, but out of curiosity I wanted to know what he wanted to talk about. Plus, I had some questions for him. "Guys, I have to go do something", I told Triple H, Vince, and Randy. "Okay", they said. Vince and Triple H didn't know about me and Randy so I didn't kiss Randy before I left.

I looked for the room and found it quickly. I need to get this over with. I found the room and walked in. Wade was turned around. He didn't see that I was in the room until I locked the door and he turned around. "John! Hi", he sounded kind of surprised. "Wade, what's this about? I was talking to some friends about Daniel who I plan on visiting in the hospital".

Wade P.O.V.:

"Good", I told him. I was so happy that he was in front of me that I didn't know what to say. "Did you do it?" he asked, glaring. Oh no! He thinks I raped Daniel. Shit! I didn't do it, but I was involved, which is just as wrong. Still, how did he know I was involved? "Hello! Wade? I asked you a question. Did you attack Teddy Long?" John asked. I breathed a sigh of relief. He was talking about Teddy, not Daniel. "No. No. I don't know who did that", I told him. "Uh huh", he muttered. He sounded like he didn't believe me. "Really, I didn't John", I tried to reassure him. "I told you, I've changed. I want to be a different man than the one you see in the ring". John looked at me and said, "Good for you, but I still don't see why you wanted to talk to me in private".

"John, I need a friend right now". He looked at me like I told him something crazy, which it probably was. "So?" he said. Then I explained, "I know I'm the last person you would probably want to be friends with. I mean, I did some bad things to you in Nexus. Some were unforgivable, but I'm begging you to forgive me and let bye gones be bye gones. I should be trying to make friends with people on Smackdown or with the Corre, but no one else wants to get to know me after what I've done. Justin really doesn't even want to talk to me after I broke up with him. He's with Heath now so neither Justin or Heath want to see or hear me unless it's work-related. Ezekiel is the same way. I don't know if I can trust him". I really don't know if I can trust Zeke after I saw him help in the Daniel attack.

John spoke, "So you want me to forgive you and for us to be friends just because you feel rejected?" he had an angry glare while saying that. "No John" I tried to think of something to say. I needed him to hear me. "Please! Please forgive me. I want to show you that you can trust me and that we can be good friends even if we are on different brands. I want you to want us to be friends, but" I looked down. "This is really difficult to explain". "Look I can't forgive you, Wade" John told me. "Please, call me Stu" I asked of him. "Okay…Stu…Like I said, I can't forgive you and I don't know about us being friends. How do I know that this isn't a trick? You were very cunning when you were the leader of Nexus. That dinner and that kiss on the cheek…" I gulped then blushed "…could be a way for me to let my guard down". I reassured him, "You have my word, John. I'm a different man. The man you see in the ring, Wade Barrett, is the one that's cunning and would do anything to win. The man you see before you, Stuart Bennett, is a man of his word. He's a gentler human being and can be trusted". John smirked, "So I'm to believe that you suffer from some sort of personality disorder?" John and I both giggled. "No, but I do want us to be friends. Um…I'll tell you what. Let's visit Daniel together and then maybe afterwards we can go to see a movie together, huh?"

John P.O.V.:

I thought about it for a moment. Wade…uh…Stu was being sincere and maybe he knows something about these attacks in the WWE. I could trick him into getting some answers. I didn't want any of my friends to see me and question why I was hanging around Barrett either. If he was the reason behind these attacks then I will be the one to catch him. If not, then I will entertain the idea of us becoming friends, but I have to visit someone who's already a friend in the hospital after some animal attacked him. "Look we can both go to the hospital, but not together", I told him. He hung his head down before I said, "But…" his head came up "…we can both drive our own cars and meet in the lobby. Danny's probably awake so he can't see us together either. That's why we both have to see him at separately. I'll go in first then when I leave you wait a few minutes and go see him". "Good idea" Stu said, smirkin-…wait…did I just call him Stu? 'Cuz you only call a friend by their real first nam- "I'll meet you at the hospital" he said, breaking me out of my thoughts. "Then we can go see a movie together".

"Sounds good", I said. "But let's go to the signing first". "Okay" he said. He held his hand out for me to shake it. I thought for a moment before reciprocating his handshake. Then we both look out the door to see if any prying eyes were out there, which there wasn't and we left.

Justin P.O.V.:

I wish Wade hadn't stopped our plans. I was looking forward to getting back at John. I wanted to do horrible things to him. It was because of him that Wade broke up with me. Yeah, I know. I have Heath, but I really loved Wade and it's because of John that Wade wanted him instead of me. I've never felt so rejected in my life. Then Wade walked up to the car. "I'll be driving my own car to the signing". "Why?" Heath asked Wade. "I need some alone time so I'll drive my own car". "Okay" we all said. That was okay with me because that means that none of us would have to squeeze in with Zeke.

After he left, I remembered that I had Wade's jacket. I decided to give it to him later. I looked at the camo-jacket and saw something sticking out. It was a picture of John Cena and it was autographed from 2 weeks ago when the Nexus and the Corre were on Raw backstage. Barrett was going to use it for something, but it looks like he won't now. "Ya know, I think I know what I can do with this", I thought, smirking evilly.

Wade P.O.V.:

I went to the Royal Rumble signing and signed a bunch of autographs. If anyone had any doubt that I still had fans then they should come to the signing and see how many fans I have. I also noticed a few other things like the extra security that was hired around the building. These guys were really good at their jobs. Whenever a fan tried to get to close to a superstar, they would push them back. Also, when a fan talked to a superstar too long, they would tell them "move along, please".

While signing autographs, I looked at all the fans and felt bad for them. Because of me and those other guys, they were being treated like criminals when all they wanted to do was show us how much they love us. This happened all because of some who were bitter about things that they most likely deserved to happen to them.

I was supposed to meet John in the hospital lobby at 3 so after the signing I went to the hospital. When I got there, John wasn't there. It was 2:30 so he wasn't late. I decided to wait for him, which wasn't long. He arrived 15 minutes later. "You're early", he said. "So are you", I said to him. "I see you did come alone". He looked down then up at me, nervously, "Uh, yeah I…I don't think my friends will take kindly to me talking to you. They still remember you and the Nexus beating me on your first day and the numerous times the Nexus attacked them, which was unscripted". I looked at him with serious eyes, "I promise, I've been following the script since I moved to Smackdown". After saying that, I could have sworn I heard him mumble, "Yeah we'll see". "Huh?" I asked. He lied and answered, "I said, 'Let's go see Daniel'. The nurse should be able to tell us where he is".

We walked up to the desk. "Ello, we're here to see Bryan Danielson", I said to the nurse. I figured that Daniel must have used his real name. "Are you family?" he asked. Yes, the nurse was a guy. "Uh, no. We work with him. We're WWE Superstars just like him". We showed him our IDs. "Well", the nurse began, looking at some computer notes. "Securities up there, man. They're only allowing one person at a time in the room and only if the patient wants them in there with them. Good thing you showed up now 'cuz he didn't want to see anyone, even the police or doctors, earlier". John and I looked at each other with shock on our faces. Daniel was always happy to see everybody. What happened to him must have traumatized him. I began to have guilt pangs. This was partly my fault. "He's in Room 213. You can go up now, but put on these visitors passes". After putting our visitors' passes on, we said thank you to the nurse and went to the elevator.

The elevator was huge and it didn't talk long before we were able to get on. When the doors opened on the 2nd floor, we got off and searched for Room 213. We went down a long hallway before we turned a corner and saw security around a room…and 3 WWE Superstars sitting on a bench. We turned back around the corner. "Oh shit", I said. "If they see us together, then they will give us shit for this". "Yeah maybe I should go see Daniel and then tell you how it went later". I shook my head yes. I was about to leave, but then I got an idea. "Wait! I'll be waiting in the men's room in one of the stalls and then after you go see him and the superstars are gone, you send me a text and I'll come see him". John's mouth hung open, "You would go through all that trouble just to see Daniel? I thought you guys hated him since you kicked him out of Nexus and he joined Team Raw at Summerslam".

"I'll tell you more about that later. Just join your friends now and tell me when they're gone", I told him. I was about to leave when he said, "Ya know, maybe you should come with me. If you really have changed then they should see it too. They should know if we are going to become friends". I turned to him, "Not yet. It's too soon. Maybe later." He looked at me and shrugged, "Okay, but this could have been your chance". Then he turned the corner and I went to the men's room and waited.

John P.O.V.:

I walked over to Eve, Ted Dibiase, and CM Punk? "Hey, what are you doing?" I snarled at Punk. "Well Johnny-Boy, out of the kindness of my heart, I came to visit an ailing fellow wrestler". He was obvious lying. I mean, 'out of the kindness in his heart'. What kindness? I decided to not to pay attention to him. I saw two security guards on both sides of the door. They were zeroing in on us. I turned my head to Ted, "Where's Maryse?" "She said she hated hospitals and that she was going to let me come instead. I think that's what she said. It was all in French", he answered. Punk turned to Ted and said, "She let you come. Sounds like someone is pussy-whipped", he told Ted then made a whipping sound.

"Shut the fuck up!" yelled Ted at Punk. "Shush!" said the nurse at the station. Ted mouthed the word "Sorry". Punk was going to say something, but then someone came out of Daniels' room. "Randy!" I almost yelled, remembering that it was a hospital. "Hey John", he said. "When I heard where Danny was I decided that he needed a visit from a friend". Then Eve told him, "Well, superstars have been visiting him all day. Hell, Derrick Bateman was here earlier. He was crying and apologizing for not being able to do much". Randy asked her, "Really?" She replied, "Yeah! He was in the bathroom the whole time it happened. They had locked him in there and he couldn't get out to stop them. Even if he could, he was outnumbered".

Ted said, "It wasn't his or Daniels' fault. Those guys should have never showed up". We all nodded. Then Eve said, "Gail Kim showed up too. She was in tears". One of the security guards, Tim (I saw his name tag) interrupted and asked, "Would someone else like to go in?" "Sure", Eve told him. Eve went in. After her, Ted then Punk. The guard kept peeking in the room and asking Daniel if he wanted to see each person and he said yes. I noticed that Punk was smiling when he left, which was odd. Then it was my turn. When I walked in, I saw that Daniel had his head turned towards the window. He had a sad look on his face. When he heard me walk in he turned towards me and snarled, "If you came here to tell me that it's my fault and that I should have stopped him, then you can just walk out that door".

I was shocked. I've never heard him talk like that to anyone, including me. "Why would I ever say that? Who said that to you?" I asked him. He simply replied, "Punk". I sighed. That asshole. That's why he came to see Daniel; to break him down. He was probably behind these "Riots" vigilante attacks. "Well, I came to tell you that I want you to get well and anything the police and doctors asked of you, you do", I told him. "I did what those guys told me to do and then one of them came back and raped me anyway", he told me. "Wait! They left and came back? What did they do to you before they left?" I asked. He started crying and put his face in his hands. He muffled, "I don't want to talk about it. It was too embarrassing and horrible. I'm embarrassed that I let them do those things and that I let them rape me". He looked up at me and put his hands in his lap, "I was so embarrassed that I asked…no, begged Vince and the police to not make it public. I'm so glad that they did what I asked". He looked down at his hands.

"You have nothing to be embarrassed about! Nothing!" I yelled. I couldn't believe he blamed himself. "If anyone should be embarrassed, it should be those guys who did this to you; whoever they are. Those assholes!" He looked at me and started drying his eyes. He sniffed, "Thank you, John. You've really helped me see things clearly, but I still think some of the people who came to see me are silently judging me". He looked and I said, "Well fuck them and keep your head up high". He looked up at me and smiled, "Will do" he assured me.

We said our see-you-laters and I went into the hallway. Everyone else was gone except the guards and of course, Randy. "Come on, baby. Let's go back to the hotel so I can show you how special you are", he whispered so the guards wouldn't hear. I remembered my promise to Wade, "Sorry Randy. Not yet. I have some other things to do here". "Like what?" he asked, looking confused. "You already talked to Danny". "I know, I know, but I thought I should stay until visiting hours are over. It really needs a friend right now."

Randy nodded. "See you at the hotel". "Okay". When he left, I texted Wade so he could see Daniel. I just hope Daniel will let him talk with him.

Wade P.O.V.:

I was in one of the men's room stalls, thinking over the past couple of weeks. I promised to be a different man at the beginning of the year. It hasn't been a month and I had already broken that promise. I don't deserve John. A man like John deserves better. Maybe I should let John go. I mean, I obviously can't keep my word.

Then I lift my head up with confidence, "No! I can't just let John go! I have feelings for him and I really, really want to be with him. I have to fight for him", I thought. "I'm also going to make it up to those people I helped hurt. I'm also going to keep going to church. It's really helping me turn a new leaf. I'll be the man John needs". I realize that John already has a guy who satisfies his needs, but I have to try to at least see if I have a chance with him. Maybe…just maybe…I can be a little more to John.

My phone buzzed, breaking me out of my thoughts. "CMON, d coast S clr" (Come on. The coast is clear). I got up and left the stall. I took at look in the mirror and then left the bathroom. When I reached the room, I saw the two security guards, but not John. I decided to go in anyway, but the guard stopped me with his arm. "You are?" he asked. "I'm also a WWE Superstar and I came to see him", I answered, surprised that he didn't already know that. I mean, I bloody well started Nexus. Nexus! The guard, Freddy spoke, "I'll see if he wants to see you. What's your name?" he asked. "Wade Barrett", I said. Freddy went in to talk to Daniel. I waited. A half a minute later, he came out. "He doesn't want to see you, Freddy told me. "Oh no", I thought. "I need to talk to him. I helped cause this. I need to make up for it".

The door was opened and I could see Daniel laying on the bed, looking at me angrily. I tried to walk into the room past the guard, but the guard used his body to hold me back. I tried to talk to him anyway, "Daniel, please. There are things we need to talk about". "What do we possibly have to talk about Wade? How you're glad that I was fired that time from WWE because you thought I wasn't good enough? No, wait! You're going to tell me that I deserved it just like Punk said". I was takin' aback. "Punk said that to you. That asshole shouldn't have been talking to you", I told him. "And neither should you", he told me. I put my head down. "Please. It will only take a moment". He sighed, "Fine then. Come on".

The guard let me pass and I walked in. I closed the door and got right to it. "Look, first of all, when you were fired, everyone from Nexus begged Vince to bring you back. We really care about you". He turned to look at me. I realized I had said 'care' and not 'cared'. I continued, "Secondly, you didn't deserve this and Punk was wrong to say you did. Don't believe what he said. He's a jerk. No one deserves this! Not even your worst enemy." He nodded. Then he hung his head, "I'm not a man anymore". I told him, "When you get out of here, hold your head high because no matter what anyone says, YOU ARE INDEED A MAN!" I was a little angry that he thought he wasn't. "In England, men will admit to rape, but in America, men are so worried about being labeled gay or not a man that they will let a rapist walk free and pretend nothing happened. You came out with it so you are stronger than most men, which makes you more than a man".

He looked like he thought about this. Then he looked up and asked, "What do you know about any of this? What do you know at all about rape? You haven't experienced it!"

"Yes I have", I told him. "I've seen it".

Flashback

Dad was drunk. He always came home drunk every day and beat me or my mom. I don't know why she didn't leave him. I was 10. It was my dad, my mom, my 7-year-old little sister, and me at home. My dad worked very early mornings and came home in the afternoon. We were in the kitchen. Today, he came home and accused my mom of cheating. She kept denying it and then he hit her. As the other man in the family, I went up to him and punched him in the stomach, watching him hunch over and held his stomach. My mom and sister gasped.

"Be a man!" I yelled at him. "You don't hit a woman!" I know that's not how a kid is supposed to act towards a parent, but he wasn't acting like my dad. Every day he acted like a monster and would scream and hit us. He didn't hit my sister though, thank God. She's was his angel.

Dad looked at me with alcohol-filled rage in his eyes. He lunged at me and put his hands around my neck, choking me. His voice slurring, "You little bastard! Don't you ever hit me! I'm your father, you little twat! Trying to protect your whore mother, huh? She such a whore that I don't if you little shits are even mine". While he was talking, I tried to breathe. "Stop it, daddy! He can't breathe!" my sister yelled at him. He didn't, which surprised me because he usually listens to her. My mom tried to break his hands off my neck. She looked very angry though she always looks scared around him.

"Let him go! Now! You're not going to hurt my baby!" she screamed. He took his hands off me and pushed her to the floor, near the sink. "Your baby? So I'm right! He's not my son! You are a whore!" My sister and I crawled into a corner across the room. I rubbed my neck. It really hurt. Then my dad did something that fucked me up for life. He got on his knees and reached into my mothers' skirt and pulled her panties down. Then he said, "I'm going to treat you like the whore you are!" He started unzipping his pants. I was young, but I knew what he was planning to do. I wanted to do something, but I was shaking from him choking me. I was scared out of my gills.

"Charles! Don't do this!" my mom yelled. "Daddy! Don't hurt mommy!" my sister begged him. "Dad!" I yelled to him. "Please Daddy! Just…stop…pleeeaaase!" "Shut up, Stuart!" he yelled to me before pulling out his member. He was hard. I couldn't believe the idea of hurting my mom was turning him on. I can't believe he was going to do this in front of me and my sister. "Watch and remember, Stuart. This how you treat a whore like your mother!" Then he pushed inside her and I heard my mother deliver a blood curdling scream. She was in pain. He was hurting and he didn't care that his own children were watching. By what he said, he wanted me to watch, but he also wanted my sister to watch or he would have locked her in her room. No such luck! He had locked all the doors.

Every time my father thrust into my mother, she screamed. I kept begging him to stop, seeing my mothers' pain. Didn't the neighbors hear? I wished someone had burst in and stopped this! My mom, my sister and me were all crying for him to stop. I had to cover my sisters eyes and hold her. I closed my eyes too. I told my sister, Puella, to cover her ears and she did. I couldn't cover my ears since my hands were covering her eyes and holding her so I still could her the dirty grunting sounds my dad made. The sounds of their privates slapping together. The sounds of my mothers' pain and scream. This went on for half an hour. Then his breathe started to hitch and I heard him growl. He must have came. When I heard him zipping his pants, I opened my eyes and let my sisters see and hear what was going on.

What I saw horrible. My moms' skirt was up. Her vagina was out in the open and some white, sticky stuff was on her and her clothes. My dad tucked himself away and stood up. "Maybe that will teach you to think before you cheat, whore!" he told my mother. Then he left with his car keys.

My sister and I ran to our mother and pulled her skirt down. Our eyes widened at the blood on the floor. She had a bruised eyes and a tear-stained face. We held her up. She tried to walk, but she kept screaming in pain with each step. I looked at my sister and saw that she had wet her pants. She also showed a lot of fear in her eyes.

Then suddenly, I snapped. I was angry. "He can't get away with this! He took this too far! That asshole is going to have to pay dearly!" I thought.

End of Flashback

After I finished my story, Daniels' mouth hung open. "What happened next?" he asked. I didn't think he needed to hear that. I didn't trust him to hear that, but he did need to hear the first part so that he knows that I know a little something about this. "Look Daniel. I understand what you going through. You probably feel dirty and like someone split you in two and made you a different person, but that's what they want. Don't let them win."

"I can't believe I'm taking advice from the leader of the Nexus…oh sorry the Coooorrree", I laughed. The way he said the Corre was funny. I didn't care that he was trying to insult me. "Why do you even care about me?" he asked. "Because I'm trying to be a good person and good people help good people", I told him. He nodded. "Plus I know you need as much help getting through this? You are going to get therapy, aren't you?" I asked. "Yeah, the WWE's main therapist offered to help and I accepted. If I don't, I don't know. I just might kill myself". I gave a shocked expression. "Well, don't! We all need you Daniel. Your family, friends, and your fans". He smiled. "Thank you, Wade". "You're welcome, Daniel and call me Stu". "Okay…Stu…call me Danny and come visit again".

I left the room and went down the hallway.

John P.O.V.:

When I came from the vending machine back to the room, I heard what Wade told Daniel. I wasn't the only one eavesdropping. The guards were listening closely too, but I didn't stop them. Wade's story brought a tear to my eye. No wonder he treated me like that in the Nexus. His dad fucked him up during his childhood. That doesn't mean that Wade isn't responsible for his actions, but his father must have been the reason why Wade felt he needed to act this way.

When he was finished, I went down the hallway and around the corner and waited for Wade. When he came around the corner, I grabbed him and hugged. When I pulled away, he looked surprised. "I heard what you said to Daniel", I told him. He looked down. "I've been dreaming about that horrible day on most nights". "Well, your advice was really nice", I said with smiling eyes. He smiled back. I decided not to ask about the rest of his story until he was comfortable.

"Let's go" I said. Then we both drove to a movie theater that not a lot of people went to and we went to see The Green Hornet.

I told you guys a couple of chapters ago that I was going to get into details about the dreams Wade had, but remember that this is only part of it.