Chapter 11: Strange feelings
"Lissa have you been having strange feeling lately?" I asked.
"No. Why?" Lissa asked with a curious look on her face.
"Because, I feel like we're being watched. Well, maybe it's just me." I kept thinking about seeing Stan Alto at the photography store. Why would he have business here? It was clear that he was here looking for Lissa and I.
"Are you sure on staying here, Rose? I mean we shouldn't keep running, but we need to be protecting the babies, not putting them in harm's way."
"Lissa, I know what I'm doing. Stop worrying so much." Lissa has been worrying about getting caught and getting the babies torn from our hands since we've seen Stan Alto. "Lissa, I know that it's hard for us right now, but there was something that my grandmother always told me and I think you should know what that is: 'You fight to protect, You push to love, and you shove to get.' You may not understand it, but I do very clearly. And this is what has gotten me here. Without the words of wisdom that my grandmother has spoken to me, I would not have the faith and courage to protect what's mine. I can't thank her enough for teaching me and making me realize what I can really be. If she were her today, I'm sure she would love you just as equally as I do." Tears were stinging my eyes, but grandma also told me to be tough and never give up on myself. So, I blinked back the tears and gave Lissa a smile that told her that the frown in the inside might hurt, but the smile on the outside was all that was to matter. She gave me the same smile. She walked over and grabbed my hands. She sat down beside me.
"We will get through this. Somehow, someway. We will never give up. We will always fight for what we have. And goddammit, when we get pushed, we will shove! And when we feel like nothing is good enough anymore," her voice got quiet, "we will look at those babies and we can remind ourselves that it's not us who makes us enough…it's them. The two monsters that keep us up all night. The two monsters that we have to clean up after. And the two fucking monsters that we protect. That is when we will say that everything is good enough." My cheeks were drowning in the tears I was trying so hard to hold back. I kept crying at everything Lissa had said. I held my biggest and best smile at everything she spoke. I giggled.
"You're just like my grandmother. Strong, Brave, and so damn determined."
"We are a team. And as a team…we will never give up."