I watched as Rosalie picked clothes out for the little baby in my stomach, I was jealous I didn't want her to dress this baby like that. I wanted her to where clothes she could move and play in and not care if she got them dirty, fuck this. I slammed the basket of clothes Rosalie gave me to hold on the floor and ran off to the bathroom crying, I could hear Rosalie shouting for me but I wouldn't stop for her to ask me why. I haven't told her that I was regretting giving her this baby, or didn't want to, this would break her heart. I looked in the bathroom mirror that was surrounded in graffiti, I saw a pregnant girl crying nothing like when I use to live in England, and I used to see a beautiful girl that was adored by the whole school. Now I just saw what I was… nothing. I grabbed some tissue and wiped the tears away from my face.

A hand came from now where and closed around my mouth when I tried to scream, I saw the man who was holding me was Ash, he looked angry. I tried to squirm but he held me tight. He whispered in my ear.

"Cooperate with me, or I'll hurt this little mutt in your stomach." I tried to scream but I felt him put his hand on my stomach, I stopped without hesitation, he pushed me to the door and when we entered the mall in Seattle that I was dragged along to he whispered in my ear once again sending chills down my spine. "Walk out the door and go to the bright yellow car." His grip tightened on my bump and I was too scared to do anything but follow his orders. I walked slowly out the door hoping Rosalie would see me but she never did, I got to the yellow car just before Ash but he came behind me quickly and opened the car door and urged me in.

As soon as we were both in he sped along the highway, I made sure he was nowhere near me before I spoke to him.

"Ash where are you fucking taking me?" He didn't look at me but spoke.

"You wouldn't talk to me, I had to get to you somehow, and I know you love me even if you are Jacobs imprint." He looked like he believed everything he was saying.

"Ash, I'm sorry but I don't love you." He stopped the car at a screeching halt. I held my stomach hoping my little Syrah was okay. He got out then dragged me out to, we were hardly a mile away but it was secluded enough, he dragged me into a small wooden cabin with a bed and most facilities you could need. I was scared even though it wasn't a scary place, I didn't know what he wanted me to do or what he had in mind. "Ash what are you doing?" He stopped and grabbed my hand and pulled me towards him, I tried to pull away but it didn't work. He pulled me in so his face was millimetres away from mine, but that space was soon closed when he kissed me, he tried to get me to kiss him back but it felt so wrong. I showed him what I was feeling and he pulled back. He snarled and pushed me to the wall.

"You will love me, Renesme get inside the house, our house." My heart dropped he want me to live with him?

"Why?"

"This is our new home Renesme, me and you." His voice was cold and heartless.

"What about my baby?" My voice was breaking I was so scared.

"When it is born, we will just get rid of it." He was going to kill my little Syrah, he couldn't could he?

He left when he saw I wasn't going to run but boy was he wrong, I looked around the small cabin and saw the door which was locked, but there was two French doors which were locked but I bet they would smash, I grabbed a chair which was quite heavy but that wasn't going to stop me and threw it at the glass, it cracked but didn't smash, I needed something heavier. I looked around and saw an ancient TV; I knew it was going to be really heavy. I finally picked it up after a few attempts and threw it at the window. It smashed into a million pieces and I went through it until I realized, I'm pregnant what am I going to do? There was a bag on the counter and I filled it with food, and then looked at my mobile which of course had no signal. So I journey through the mother fucking hundred acre woods.

I had been walking ages when I heard a car, I jumped behind a tree until I knew the car had gone, I knew that car was Ash I just knew, I ran down the road, I heard an howl and ran faster, I wasn't going to make it. I was about to give up when, I could hear loads of cars, it was the motorway, I ran quicker until I saw some cars. I nearly collapsed when I got to the road but I knew I wasn't safe yet. I stood in the road and waited to a car came and screeched to a halt.

The man and woman looked like they were only 20 came out to see if I was okay.

"Are you okay?" The shrill voiced woman asked me while she stroked my arm.

"Can I have a lift I'm lost?" The man didn't even think before answering.

"Yes, if you're not a murderer." I laughed and followed them into their car where there was a sleeping baby.

We drove in silence for a few minutes until the man spoke.

"So where to you live?"

"Forks but just drop me off where you are stopping."

"Sorry to say this but are you pregnant?" I smiled at the lady she wasn't prying but she was worried. I nodded and looked out the window until the woman spoke again. "What are you doing out here, you're so young."

"I… can't say." The woman nodded and we carried on with our journey.

I kept getting these pains in my stomach that kept getting worse, I didn't know what they were until, I thought I has pissed myself, this isn't happening, I can't give birth now. "I am so sorry but I think there is going to be another baby in this car." The woman looked at me opened eyed and shouted at her husband to take me to a hospital. She was telling me to just breath but I couldn't it hurt so much. I couldn't give birth in a human hospital, will it be different to Carsile doing it. My family doesn't know where I am, they don't know I am giving birth. Rosalie won't know I am giving birth. No one would know, I could be a mom to my own kid, to my little Syrah. Giving birth without my family doesn't seem too bad.

I screamed it just hurt so much, I could still here to woman in the front, telling me to breath and hold on, I felt a hand wrap around mine, soon I was in a hospital room. The doctors were hooking me up to a load of machines, I wanted someone's hand to hold not just someone's I wanted Jacobs, I wanted his hand. I wanted his hand to squeeze, I called for the woman in the car I didn't know her name but the doctors soon got her to me.

"Honey what is the matter?" The woman from the car asked me. I shoved my phone at her, the pain was so intense I screamed.

"Call Jacob, tell him to come alone." I whispered, she understood and was about to leave until I grabbed her hand once again. "What is your name?" I huffed.

"Lillian, baby." She said while stroking my hair.

"Thank you Lillian, I'm Renesme." She nodded and turned around.

Look I am not doing a birthing scene. But I will do what happens, in her head.

It hurt so much but I knew it was right, I wanted my girl, I wanted Jake. I wanted this. I did what the doctors told me, I was sure I was doing it right, it was at least an hour and a half until I felt someone grab my hand. I looked up to Jacob, he looked like he was going to faint, I wanted him so much. He leant down to me and kissed my head, he whispered in my ear how I was doing great and how it was going to be okay. I screamed, and pushed and hoped that my little Syrah would be okay.

I heard cries, sweet cries but I couldn't hear them my head was fading into darkness. I let it take me, I fell into a void of calmness and tranquillity.

I woke up to the most handsome man, holding the most beautiful baby. He was smiling at me like I was a goddess. For once in my life I only felt one emotion. PURE LOVE