Mr Belikov / Chapter 11
It's been a month since Lissa and Christian found out about me and Dimitri and since then things have been running smoothly. Me and Dimitri did our workouts every morning before school and then after school as well, I had spoken to Ms Kirova and told her that I wanted one more extra session a week so it was agreed that we had a booked session on a Saturday as well but we spent most of the day there and sometimes we go to the cabin and spend some time there. Most of the time we spend together we usually ended up having sex and it's not because I felt like I had to give him sex but because I had such a great time when we did have sex.
Lissa and Dimitri got on well and although Christian was a little off still about Dimitri's intentions with me but he was nice to him and whenever Christian and Lissa had Gym class they always stayed behind to help him clear up and talk. It was nice that they made an effort to get to know him and understand the relationship me and Dimitri shared and how much we do love each other. As Lissa had made such an effort with Dimitri I had made more of an effort with Christian and me and Christian had actually become very good friends and we were back to how we used to be.
When I got together with Dimitri I never thought that Lissa would be so cool about the relationship between me and Dimitri but she said that after she had spoken to him after her Gym classes and any other times that she got to speak to him, she explained that she understood how much he cared for me and loved me. She was happy that I was happy and she was planning mine and Dimitri's wedding, when I told Dimitri that he had started laughing and said that he wasn't going to propose… yet. I got a little excited knowing that one day Dimitri wanted me to be his wife one day and spend the rest of his life with me.
The alarm went off and I turned it off before it woke Lissa up and grabbed my things before going down to the Gym, I opened the door and went inside and saw Dimitri setting things up for our morning session "Morning" I said as I approached him and kissed him. He kissed me back and then carried setting things up as I went and put my bag down in the corner out of the way then I went back over to Dimitri "Tomorrow's Saturday… shall we do something?" I questioned.
"I was thinking that we could go to the cabin for the day and night. Spend a whole 24 hours together, maybe you could ask Lissa to cover for us just this once?" He questioned. I thought about it for a moment, 24 hours together uninterrupted sounded amazing so I agreed to ask Lissa when I next saw her but I can't imagine her saying no… the amount of times that I've covered for her and Christian I hope she can just cover for us just this once.
We did our normal morning workout for 45 minutes and then we sat down on the mats. Well he sat down on the mat and I sat down on his lap facing him with my legs either side of him and smirked "I love you" I said and leaned in to kiss him, he met my kiss and we started making out but that was as far as it went that morning.
Deciding that I needed to get back to my dorm so that I could get showered for the day I gave him a kiss and left the Gym promising to see him after school to do another session. Once I got to my room I woke Lissa up to tell her that it was time to get ready for school, she groaned in annoyance and I decided to leave her there for a few minutes so she can wake up whilst I went into the bathroom. I turned the water on for the shower and left it for a moment to warm up and whilst I wait I put the toilet seat down and sat down.
A box at the side of the toilet caught my eye. I looked down at it and saw it was a box of unopened tampons, Lissa didn't use tampons because she said that they were uncomfortable so she uses the panty liners. I was the only one that used the tampons and they were unopened… how long has it been since my last period. I realised that the water was now warm enough to get in so I put the period thoughts to the back of my mind and jumped in the shower.
When I finished my shower I wrapped the towel around me and left the bathroom and walked into the bedroom. I sat on my bed as Lissa went into the bathroom to shower and as soon as I knew she wouldn't come back out for a while I grabbed my phone and went onto the calendar to see when I was due my period. I looked through the dates and found that I was actually due to be on my period two weeks ago… that worried me a little. I had never missed a period in my life.
I thought about what that could mean, why hadn't I had my period yet this month? Was it due to stress or was it because I was pregnant? Me and Dimitri had a lot of sex and sometimes I had to admit that there was times when we had got caught up in the moment and we didn't use a condom like we should have been. It was stupid of both us to have sex without a condom and I knew Dimitri was going to freak out when he found out but I had to tell him.
Should I say something now or wait until our private session this evening after school? Could I keep quiet until the school day was over? No I couldn't keep this to myself so I sent him a text message; I'm not going to school today… you need to come over when you can it's important x
Lissa came out of the bathroom as I was putting my pjs back on "What's the matter?" She asked me.
"Just feel a bit sick" I stated.
"You were fine when you came in" She stated.
"Yeah I know, it was whilst I was in the shower" I told her.
"Oh ok…" She said seeming confused.
Lissa said that she would come and check on me at lunchtime but I told her that Dimitri was probably coming to visit so she said she would just see me after school. She left for school soon after and she had only been gone 5 minutes when the door knocked, I got out of bed and saw Dimitri standing on the other side looking worried "I just got your message… what's wrong?" He asked me looking me over for injuries.
We went and sat on my bed and I thought about how to tell him what I needed to say "I haven't had my period this month" I stated and I studied his face and I could tell that he was panicking about what this could mean "I… I need to try and get hold of a pregnancy test to make sure but they don't have them here unless I go to the clinic. If I go to the clinic they'll be asking questions that I can't answer" I told him.
"Are you sure you're late?" He asked me.
"Yeah. I hadn't realised until when I got back this morning when I saw the unopened box of tampons… I checked my calendar and found out I was due to have my period two weeks ago" I said to him.
"I'm so sorry Rose" He said.
"It was both of us" I told him.
"I can probably get out of the school Sunday, tell them that I need to get some personal supplies or something" He said to me.
"Would you do that?" I asked him.
"Of course" He replied.
"Aren't you supposed to be in Gym?" I asked him suddenly realising school has started.
"I booked the morning off" He replied.
Me and Dimitri sat in my room for the morning and discussed every option possible and we discussed what we need to do. If I was pregnant there was so much that could go wrong, my relationship with Dimitri would be exposed and then anything could happen to Dimitri, he could be fired and arrested… I think he'd definitely be fired but I was hoping that he wouldn't be arrested or sent back to Russia. Of course if they school found out and told my mom she would be so angry and she would go to the police… I know she would.
I had suggested to Dimitri that I just not tell the school who I was pregnant by if I was but I knew that my mom wouldn't let me go without telling her and then when she did find out who it was… there was so much bad stuff that could happen to both of us.
Maybe I could not tell the school and get an abortion somehow out of school grounds. Tell them that I was going to visit my mother? I can do my moms handwriting and signature so it would be no problem writing the school a letter to ask me to come home one weekend and we could do it then or something… I don't know what I was going to do. Dimitri had all these plans and ideas but I couldn't really listen to him all I could focus on was the fact that I could possibly have a baby growing in my stomach… Dimitri's baby.
"Are you listening to me Rose?" He asked me in his scary voice he only used when he was agitated.
"Sorry I… Dimitri I'm scared" I admitted.
Before I could stop them… the tears fell down my face and I heard him sigh and he wrapped his arms around me, I laid my head on his chest and started crying "We'll be ok Roza… we'll work it out" He said to me.
I pulled away from the hug and stood up "How are we going to be ok? What if I'm pregnant? The school finds out? My mom finds out and they send you to prison in Russia… what then?" I demanded getting frustrated.
"I'm not going to go to prison in Russia" He said.
"How do you know that?" I asked.
"Rose just calm down" He said standing up and placing his hands on my shoulders to try and calm me down but I was just stressing to much right now to calm down. I know it was irrational of me to think that I was 100% pregnant and expecting him to get arrested. He was right, I did need to calm down and start thinking about things properly and rationally… I was just so worked up.
"Are you not scared?" I asked.
"I'm terrified" He admitted "But freaking out isn't going to help me right now" He stated.
When lunchtime finished Dimitri said he had to go because he had three lessons he had to teach this afternoon, I said that I would come and meet him somewhere after school so we could talk about this further and we kissed before he left. I suddenly felt so alone but I knew that if he could then Dimitri would stay here with me but he had to go back to work before people became suspicious. The person we should be most worried about should be Ms Kirova but she was very clueless so I wasn't worried about her getting suspicious of us and I'm sure Dimitri could come up with a story if he really needed to.
School finished and I went and met Dimitri in the Gym. We decided that we needed to talk somewhere more secluded and away from the school so we went to the cabin which now how a bed and food and water if we needed it. I sat on the bed and Dimitri sat down next to me on the bed and we sat in silence for a moment "You know I've been thinking… maybe a baby isn't such a bad idea" He stated.
"What?" I asked in shock.
"Maybe a baby isn't such a bad idea" He repeated.
"Are you crazy?" I asked him.
"No I don't think so" He stated.
"Dimitri do you understand what could happen if I'm pregnant… do you understand what could happen to you? I'm not willing to be a single mother at 17" I said to him.
"No matter what ever happens Rose, you will never be a single mother" He told me.
"If you end up in a Russian prison then yes I will be a single mother… what could you do for me and a baby in a Russian prison?" I asked him.
"Why are you so sure I'm going to a Russian prison?" He asked.
"If you get done for statuary rape, America will deport you back to Russia and you'll go to prison there" I explained.
"I'm not going anywhere" He told me.