Part Eleven
- where are you? Finn.
- Parking lot. B x
He picked up his bag and headed for the door.
"Where do you think you're going Finn?" he heard the teacher ask but he ignored her. He found the parking lot and saw Brittany by his car, when she saw him tears began to fall rapidly down her face. He ran towards her and pulled her into a tight hug.
"Quinn!" he called to her but she ignored him.
"Quinn" He called again, "what's with the silent treatment?" he asked walking towards her. "Whatever I did I'm sorry," he told her, the last few words barely making it out as he registered the look on her face.
"I'm pregnant…" she told him as a tear ran down her cheek.
The whole world slowed down and her voice faded out as he tried to make sense of her words. Images of weddings and filming their little baby learning to walk, mixing together with images of angry parents, unpaid bills and the two of them overworked and arguing flashed through his mind.
"Mine?"
"Yes" she said nodding. "Who else's would it be?"
"But we…"
"Last month, Hot tub…"
"But we were wearing our swimsuits"
"Ask jeeves said a hot tub is the perfect temperature for sperm" she hesitated, "It helps it swim faster"
"Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god" A thought suddenly occurred to him, "are you gunna get a..?" she shook her head.
"No" tears began to quickly run down her face, "I really thought I had a shot of getting out of here…" she said almost falling into his arms.
He shook the memory out of his head; he did not need to be thinking about Quinn right now, or Beth.
"Come on, we'll go back to mine, we don't need to deal with school right now," he took her hand and helped her into the passenger seat before getting into the drivers seat himself. The first few minutes they spent in silence until Finn decided to switch the radio on.
…My first love broke my heart for the first time
And I was like baby, baby, baby, oh
Like baby, baby, baby, no…
Finn switched the radio off immediately.
"I used to like that song…" Brittany said, sounding disappointed, "But that just kind of killed it"
"You used to like that song? And I used to think you were cool" he said smiling slightly. She gave him a sad smile in return and the rest of the drive home was silent.
They arrived in Finns room and sat on the bed, still in silence.
- hey Quinn, I've seen Brittany, we're at mine so we wont see you in school 2day. Shes fine. Well shes not fine, but shes not dead or anything. Finn x
They continued to sit in silence for another 15 minutes before Finn finally decided to speak up.
"So are you sure you're pregnant?"
"No,"
"Well- wait, did you say no?"
"I'm not doing a test, I refuse to do a test." She looked at him pleadingly; "I want to put it off as long as possible… please"
"Ok," he said, grabbing her hand and squeezing it reassuringly, she shifted slightly and lay down with her head in his lap. He began to stroke her hair and she visibly relaxed. "So what do we do if, you know…"
"I'm sorry Finn, but if I am, I think I'm keeping it… I just cant, I just cant have an abortion, it's not that I'm against it. I just think I'd be scared, and I think I'd regret it."
"It's okay, Brits, I promise whatever happens, I'll support you,"
"You're such a cliché sometimes Finn, but thank you…" She turned onto her back and smiled at him, "I learned that word the other day, I didn't think I'd get to use it so soon," her smile faded quickly as her thoughts returned to their current situation.
"If we have a baby… what would happen to us?"
"What do you mean?"
"Well, we should raise it together, obviously, but should we do it together together?"
"You're not making any sense…"
"I mean should you be my girlfriend… and speaking of that, what do we say to Santana and Rachel?" Brittany's heart broke at his words, she hadn't thought of Santana or Rachel, or the future for that matter, she had barely thought about it at all.
"I don't know Finn… Do you think- do you think they'll forgive us?"
"I hope so… But what if they don't?" He shifted on the bed so he could lie down and pulled Brittany into his arms, her head resting on his chest.
"I don't know, do you think we'd work together?"
"Don't take this the wrong way Brit, but I don't want to need to find out. I think we would, but I just don't want to know,"
"Me neither…"
"If we had to though, we could make it work. I mean, you're my best friend, we work together as friends don't we?"
"Yeah"
"If I'm honest, I think I might be in love with you…"
"You're… you're what?" she asked, her eyes wide in shock.
"I don't know, it's confusing, you, Quinn, Rachel. I don't know who I'm supposed to love anymore… everything is all twisted and fucked up"
They lay there in silence both staring at the ceiling.
"What are we going to do?" Brittany asked eventually.
"I don't know," he told her.