As we walked across the quad towards the med clinic, both Lissa and I didn't talk. I think we were both thinking about the consequences to our actions, and just hoping that

Dimitri was okay, but I couldn't help but feel this is my entire fault, if only I had dealt with the darkness better, or if I had just dragged Lissa away from the situation before it led

to what we have now.

I really didn't mean to hurt Dimitri; I mean how can I after all we have been through?

But I was just so angry, it's hard to hold in, but the darkness just magnified it by one-hundred I lost it, I lost me and turned into this monster. If anything happens to Dimitri I

will never forgive myself, I wouldn't be able to live in a world where he doesn't exist, if anyone should die, it's me... I'm a horrible person. I just hope that if he does survive that

he will forgive me, and if not I won't stop trying till he does.

As we moved closer to the med clinic the ground went from the cool crisp grass to the cold hard pavement leading up to the clinic, and the lights started to shine through the

darkness we were currently walking in.

Both Lissa and I weren't talking, as we were both content in walking in silence, trying to deal with the overwhelming gilt that racked through our bodies, and I just know Lissa is

blaming herself, even though she's blocked the bond I just know Lissa is blaming herself because in a lot of ways she's just like me.

We came to a halt at the doors of the clinic as a guardian stepped in front of us blocking our entry. I took a deep breath, I will not get angry it will do no good I said to myself

trying to gain control of the worry, anger, frustration of this situation that we before me.

"Hello Guardian Tan" I said nodding my head towards him in a professional manner, "Hello Miss Hathaway, I must say I'm surprised to see you here after the recent events, but I

must say you're not aloud entry to the building while Guardian Belikov is here and so you need to return to your dorm and you will be contacted in all due time" is said using the

don't-you-try-anything-with-me-tone.

"I appreciate that you believe that I have come here to hurt Belikov some more however that is not my intention, however you do not understand the truth behind the situation,

and I do not expect you to, but I would just like to ask this favour of allowing us in, in means to help Belikov" I said with a slight smile on my face so he could see I was normal

Rose, not crazy Rose.

"Oh I think I have enough information, the fact that you attacked Belikov for no apparent reason is enough for me not to allow you in here, now if you are refusing to leave then

we can have you taken to a jail cell to cool off. Make your choice Hathaway"

Hmmm this is harder than expected he wasn't going to budge, okay think about it Hathaway, we only need to get Lissa in there to do the healing, maybe they might allow it, I

mean after all it's in Dimitri's benefit and she's a moroi she wouldn't be able to do much.

I was thankful that Lissa was staying quite during this time; I didn't want to be worrying about her and what she would say as well.

"Guardian Tan can I please ask that you only allow Lissa in and not me? It's only I feel it would be in Guardian Belikov's best interest to allow her to heal him and fully recover" I

said slightly hopeful that maybe they might allow it, that's if Dimitri will allow her near him.

"Rose-I don't think-""please, I know it might not seem it after today but, I care about Dimitri a lot and I just want to make sure he is okay, It would kill me if... if he were to be

worse off" I stuttered towards the end of the sentence, just the thought of anything happing to Dimitri is enough to make my hear clench. "I'm sorry Rose no can do, I'm under

strict orders not to allow you or Princess Vasilisa anywhere near him, and if you cause a scene you will both be escorted away. Sorry Rose it's my job."

I huffed, appearing to give up, but Rose Hathaway doesn't give up, we will get into his room even if it takes all night.

I Turned to Lissa "come on Liss lets go, we will just have to hope for the best" I said faking sadness and hoping she would understand and catch on to my plan, but through the

bond I could feel her shock and confusion as to why I'm 'giving up'.

"But Rose... Dimitri" she said quietly moaning, but instead of saying anything more I just grabbed her arm and pulled her away, before she could start making a scene and we

would both end up in jail.

Once we were farther enough away from Guardia Tan I let go of Lissa but making sure she was still close to me, so I wouldn't have to speak these next words too loudly "Liss I'm

not giving up, when have you ever known me to give up?"

once I spoke these words she seemed to physically relax a bit more "so what are we going to do then?" she asked me still in hushed whispers "Liss you know I would never ask

you to do something unless we really needed it, don't you? Well I need you to go up to Guardian Tan and ask him what room Dimitri is in, using your compulsion and Liss... I

won't be able to come; Guardian Tan will get suspicious and be on his guard. You will need to go on your own" I said, and as soon as the words left my mouth I felt incredibly

guilty.

I never wanted to put her in this sort of situation but I needed to know Dimitri will be okay.

"Sure I can do that, easy peasy" she said sounding confidant, but I could just tell that she was putting on a bravado, but I could tell that through the bond that she was nervous

and scared "Lissa I'm sorry we can find ano-""no" she interrupts me "I'm going to do this, for you and for Dimitri" she said while storming off on her own towards the clinic and

Guardian Tan full of determination.

Now I guess all I can do is wait.

I didn't bother looking through the bond to see what happens I would know if she was in trouble, and to be honest I don't like Lissa using compulsion on anyone as it takes away

their free will, but in this situation it was necessary, but that doesn't mean I want to watch her do it, so I just stood there in the darkness of the trees waiting for my best friend

to come back.

After what seemed like forever, but was probably only about fifteen-twenty minutes Lissa returned looking rather proud of herself. "Room 46B, Floor 3" she said smiling and I

couldn't help but feel happy that we were getting somewhere now, but the mission was far from complete so I didn't let my hopes get too high and so I started to plan how we're

going to get a Moroi up a three story building without hurting herself, of course I had plenty of experience scaling the walls of buildings, but Lissa's experience was close to zero,

and that was going to make this mission a lot harder, but as I said before Rose Hathaway never gives up, especially when Dimitri's life could count on it.

First of all we calculated where abouts the room was located on the outer building and which window it was, and with my experience with the clinic I could find my way thorough

it blindfolded, so this part wasn't much of a challenge for me.

Now luckily as we stared at the window and tried to figure out a way to get us up there, I noticed that hiding behind a bunch of vines stuck to the side of the wall was a white

drain pipe going vertically to the top of the building which was barely visible, the wheels started turning in my head as I was creating a plan this could be useful, I thought, I

could scale this easily, but what about Lissa? I need her up there but cannot risk having her fall from a three story building.

After some careful thinking, I sent Lissa to go get some rope while I scooped out the area, looking for any guards; I mean you gotta know what you're working with right? It's

like the number one rule in the guardian handbook, plan carefully.

So after about twenty minutes Lissa came running back with a rolled up piece of rope in her hand looking like she was going to pass out from all the running. Brilliant!

This rope is exactly what we needed; it was strong and tough and didn't look like it was going to snap with the weight of a moroi hanging off it.

I then went and wrapped the rope around Lissa's waist and around her shoulders and armpits then tied it tightly and securely to make sure she wouldn't slip out of it.

"Lissa we're going to scale the building using that drain pipe. Now the rope I have tied around you I will also tie around me in a similar way, that was if you suddenly lose your

footing or grip you won't fall" I said deadly seriously in my guardian voice, it was either that or break down crying at the whole messed up situation.

"okay Rose I trust you I think we can do this" she said bravely but oh god when she said this relief flooded through me I'm so scared for Dimitri's life but here I am putting

Lissa's life in danger as well, god I'm a terrible guardian, but this is something I have to do and I'm glad my best friend is here beside me.

I gave Lissa a hug and resisted the temptation to cry. Then we made our way to the bottom of the building where we were going to start climbing up.

The climb up was hard for Lissa and I took the majority of her weight while we were climbing up, but we steadily made our way to the window, making sure that we didn't alert

any guardians that we were there, which was quite hard seeming as Lissa couldn't stop panting.

As we neared the window the soft white curtains were shut, but were flowing in the wind from the open window. Ca-ching! I thought just our luck! Now we just need to climb in.

I carefully put one foot on the window frame and used it as a balance while I carefully and quietly jumped into the room, I then turning around used all my strength to heave

Lissa up.

When Lissa was climbing in, she didn't do it quite as quietly or gracefully as I did but we were quiet enough not to alert the guardians that we're here.

Taking a deep breath I turned around and moved the curtains out of the way to see Dimitri lying in the hospital ventilator, he had a drip in him and his face was a white as a

ghost.

"Oh God" I whispered he looks terrible "I can't believe we did this to him" I said as I started to cry, I'm such a horrible person, how could I put the love of my life in a hospital

bed looking as bad as that, I mean I was angry at him but didn't deserve this, no one did.

"No we didn't do this, it wasn't us, it was the darkness, Rose now we need to do this before anyone comes" Lissa said, and she was right I just need to tell Dimitri that, I mean

I'm sure he knows it was the darkness, I mean for one Lissa's eyes were black, which reminds me I need to tell her about that afterwards and for second Dimitri just knows when

it's the darkness because he knows me, and I'm sure he knows that it wasn't me.

Lissa steadily made her way towards Dimitri, and carefully put her hand on him, like she was afraid to break him, then I felt the flow of her magic which makes me feel all warm

and tingly. I started to relax knowing that Lissa's healing Dimitri and he will be fine.

While Lissa was healing Dimitri I had a look at his medical files, hanging off the end of his bed, I gasped he had 4 broken ribs, a broken nose, three broken fingers, concussion, a

black eye, as well as all the bruises and scratches that covered his body.

I shut my eyes for a minute willing myself not to cry, I needed to be strong for Lissa, she will be very weak after this and she needs me to be strong, like I always am.

I turned to look at her and Dimitri and he looked so much better, the colour had returned to his cheeks and the bruises he had were gone.

But Lissa on the other hand looked terrible, she was pale and could barely keep herself sat up right, but she was still fighting to heal Dimitri, but at this point I had to stop her, I

need her to be able to climb back out of that window, so I carefully went over to her and put my hand on her shoulder, and it was if I just slapped her round the face because her

head just shot up in surprise.

"Lissa, we need you fit and healthy too, come on he looks a whole lot better, but we need to go, the longer we stay the more likely we are to get caught" I said softly.

Lissa then nodded and went to put the rope back on her again ready for climbing out of the window again. While she was doing this I grabbed the pen and paper on the bed side

table and scribbled a message for Dimitri and went and gave him a kiss on the forehead, and as I did the heart monitor went of the scale. I smiled, he knew we were here "I love

you Dimitri, don't ever forget that" I whispered to him.

Then made my way to Lissa where we climbed out of the window and ran to our dorms before we got caught.