Shinji was nervous the entire drive. It was...a bit of a long drive, and it got to be pretty late. By the time they got there, Shinji thought it had to be midnight.
That entire time conversation was sparse, and the silence was mostly broken by the radio. Misato finally stopped in the middle of a park.
"I...used to come here all the time. To think. To fu-make out with some people. And just generally to feel...comfortable." Misato said, staring out the window. Shinji did too. He thought he got what she meant. It seemed like a pretty relaxing place.
"I..I see." Shinji said.
Misato gripped the steering wheel tightly. She was looking strangely determined.
"You and I...we will need to take this slowly." Misato said. Shinji nodded.
"It's...going to be hard for me. And I am sure hard for you too but...it has to be done. For both our sakes." Misato said, her voice tinged with lust and possibly shame.
"O-ok." Shinji said. This was the first time she had shown a thread of insecurity about their relationship. He knew it had to do with their age difference.
"B-but you don't have to be worried. I-I'm fine with going at whatever pace." Shinji said. Misato looked at him, her eyes filled with...something like gratitude.
"Thank you Shinji. I'm so glad that your kind and so...adult about this. It makes it...easier." Misato said. That was the thing about it though, his surprising maturity at points made it impossible to avoid thinking of him like...a potential partner.
Misato unbuckled her seatbelt and leaned over to Shinji, brushing her hair back a little.
"Shinji...I'm going to kiss you now, alright?" Misato said. He tensed up a bit and his eyes went wide, it was cute, then he relaxed a bit and nodded. His eyes looked...a bit determined. It was pretty hot, Misato thought.
She leaned in and kissed him. It was a peck at first and then it deepened. Grow stronger as Misato pushed her tongue into his mouth. Shinji's hands hung limply, so Misato grabbed one and put it on her breast.
"Shinji." She said, coming up for breath for a second, "Squeeze."
He didn't have to be asked twice. He squeezed gently, holding on for a couple seconds before loosening then tightening his grip again. It was mildly frustrating, but it still was getting Misato hot. He could use some training, but there was something not entirely bad about his awkward touch.
Finally, she withdrew, looking at Shinji's face it was clear he was completely caught up in his own lust.
"That was an adult kiss. How'd you like it?" Misato said, her expression softening somewhat, but still filled with desire.
"I-I like it a lot." Shinji said, his hand was still resting on her breast. When he noticed this he withdrew it quickly, with a blush on his face. Misato giggled.
"That's fine Shinji. We shouldn't have to feel uncomfortable around one another, alright?" Misato said. Shinji nodded. Misato went back to her seat.
"That was a good first try. You have a lot to learn, but I'll teach you. And don't worry, we will have plenty of time for practice." Misato said.
"P-practice?" He said, his voice sounded a bit hopeful and a bit anxious.
"Of course." Misato said. Things were going to have to get more intense, but she was taking this slowly. She was his teacher, so she had to have a lesson plan.
They sat there for a bit longer. Maybe ten-twenty minutes. And then they headed back.
Rei wasn't sure what was happening. Did she desire Asuka Langley-Soryu? It is true that she wanted to be in her company. Desired her companionship but...was it deeper? Rei didn't know. It was hard to process these new feelings. Why had she done what she did? Was she acting on her own feelings? Or was it influence from Asuka's? Rei supposed she had admired the female form, but she didn't think she had experienced any sexual feelings for them. Was that what this was? Sexual and romantic desires for Soryu-san?
It made breakfast and walking to school with Rei awkward. She wasn't exactly sure how to comport herself with Soryu-san now. After that...kiss.
"Hey Ayanami, your pretty quiet." Asuka said.
"I...I suppose I am." Rei said. She had been vocalizing more of her thoughts and feelings since she had gone off her pills, and since she had befriended Asuka. But now...she didn't knowhow to articulate her thoughts and feelings when they felt so scattered.
"Are you still thinking about that kiss?" Asuka said, teasingly. It almost felt like a taunt. Like, "I hope you didn't think that meant something baka." But she didn't actually say that, and reading Asuka's emotions was...too hard right then. Rei's own were tooconfused. So Rei couldn't know.
"I...don't know. I suppose I might be." Rei said.
"It's fine Rei. It was just a kiss. A little experiment between girls! That's the kind of thing girls do when their friends." Asuka said.
"I...I didn't know that." Rei said. It hadn't felt like the kind of things friends do. But then again, she had no experience with friendship really. How was she to know if this was what female friends did or not.
"You didn't huh? I thought you did, otherwise, I would have explained better. Girls do this sort of thing all the time! And even more! It's ok as long as they don't actually love each other." Asuka said, explaining it with a confident air. Again, it didn't sound exactly right to Rei, but Asuka would know better, and she didn't appear to be lying.
"I see...and if they do love each other?" Rei said. Asuka looked at Rei as if she had just asked the most obvious question in the world.
"Then they become lovers silly! And that's a totally different thing. Though lovers can be friends too, or start out that way." Asuka said, she was saying this all so casually but with a bit of a bold tone. Rei blinked.
"And there is nothing wrong with two females being lovers?" Rei asked.
"Of course not! That makes them lesbian, or bi, which is a bit weird, statistically speaking, but it's totally fine." Asuka said. Rei stopped in her tracks.
She was about to ask Asuka if she was one of these people, lesbian or bi, but she bite her tongue. That sounded...personal, espcially after last night. Rei didn't want to make things any more awkard.
Asuka stopped and turned, noticing that Rei had stopped.
"Why'd you stop?" Asuka said.
"I...was deep in thought." Rei said. Asuka giggled.
"Ok, Wonder Girl. Cmon genius, lets get to school." Asuka said. Rei nodded, and caught up to her.
Maybe things wouldn't be as difficult as she thought.