DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN DEGRASSI OR ANY OF IT'S CHARACTERS
Chapter 11
Sean got in his car and started driving around the Toronto area unsure of where he was headed to. His brain was telling him to go back to Wasaga but his heart told him not too. He had tried running before and deep down he didn't want to run again. He just needed some time to figure out what was going on.
He looked up and realized he was driving by a graveyard. This was the graveyard that he had heard Rick Murray had been buried in. Sean had never been to his grave before. Sean pulled in and got out of his car. For some strange reason he felt like he needed to be there in that graveyard at that moment. Rick's actions had caused life at Degrassi to change. Rick's actions had also caused Emma to change Sean thought. The old Emma never would've ran to the ravine and let Jay help her with her problems. The old Emma would've fought them head on. Sean had noticed since he had been back that her inner fire didn't seem to be burning as bright as it once had.
Sean looked up and down the rows searching for Rick's grave. He had tears streaming down his face. He needed to find his grave and maybe get some closure so he could move on and deal with the problem at hand.
"If your looking for Rick's grave it's over that way" he heard a voice behind him. There stood Toby pointing his finger over to a grave stone a few feet away.
"Toby, what are you doing here?" Sean asked trying to hide his tears. Sean didn't like to let anyone see him cry, especially another guy.
"I come here sometimes when I'm having a bad day. I ask out loud why Rick had to bring the gun to school that day and why he had to shoot Jimmy. Rick was my best friend and I just want to know why. I feel like I need to know in order to get over this whole thing." Toby answered quietly. Toby and Sean had never been great friends but they understood each other. Sean nodded his head in agreement to Toby's statement. "So now you tell me….what are you doing here Sean?"
Sean kicked some dirt with his foot and hesitated before answering. He wasn't the type of person to open up and spill his heart out. "Emma and I kind of had a fight."
"You and Emma had a fight? Well that's nothing new. Must be something pretty serious if your all the way out here." Toby said.
"It is. I'm just not sure I can forgive her for this." Sean said simply not telling him what Emma had done. He was so upset Emma had slept with Jay and the fact that now there was only a 50 chance Hope was his. Sean had fallen in love with Hope instantly and hated to think that he might not be her father.
"If anyone could teach you a lesson on how to forgive it would definitely be Emma." Toby said defending his friend. Toby and Emma had been friends since Grade 7 and though he had always had a crush on her since then he still realized she loved Sean and always would. Toby was willing to do anything to keep her happy. Toby continued "She forgave you for pushing her down in Grade 7. She forgave you for getting drunk in Grade 8. I know she even forgave you after the shooting for the way you treated her after breaking up with her in Grade 9. You could do almost anything to her and I'm sure she would forgive you."
Sean nodded his head in agreement to Toby's statement. Toby was right. Emma had always forgiven Sean no matter what. She never looked down on him for things he had done wrong in his past. She inspired him to be a better person.
"We were all there that day Sean." Toby said pointing to Rick's grave. "You, me and Emma. We saw him with the gun. All of us were at risk of dying that day. But the difference between you and Emma is that you got to go home to Wasaga and heal while she was haunted by that day every time she walked down the halls of Degrassi. I know she can't use that as an excuse for all of her problems forever. She's been sad the past year and a half but this week has been the first time where I've seen her smile all week long. You make her happy Sean. She needs to be happy so please try to work whatever the problem is out. She needs you."
Sean replayed Toby's last sentence in his head over again. She needs you. Sean had always knew he needed Emma in his life but had never stopped to think that maybe she needed him just as much as he needed her.
Sean thanked Toby for the talk and headed back towards his car. He knew what he had to do.