Jay's POV

I got to med as fast as I could and I was praying the baby would be ok, "Maggie, where's Erin?"

"Why don't we go talk somewhere more private?"

"Maggie?..." I started to worry

"Jay I really think we should-"

"Just tell me..." I said

Maggie came from behind the desk and sat next to me, "When Erin came in from the car accident she suffered a minor placental abruption and we were keeping an eye on it but Jay something happened and we could stop the bleeding so we rushed Erin into surgery, we tried our best but there was nothing we could do to save the baby... I'm so sorry Jay."

I wiped the tears from my face, "Where's Erin?"

"she's still sleeping from the anesthetic, you can see her soon. I'll take you too her."

I started to sob and I felt like my heart had been ripped out of her chest when I heard a voice from behind me, "Jay?". I turned around to see Mouse and he ran towards me and hugged me, "I spoke to Antonio and he told me what happened... I'm so sorry brother"

"This is all my fault" I said as Mouse got down on one knee next to my chair, "Non of this is your fault, this happened because of an accident"

"But I left her and she lost our baby, this never would of happened if I didn't leave... look you don't understand I had to leave to get better"

"Look at me Jay... wait what are you talking about to get what better?"

I didn't want to do this yet but I think it's the right time, "Take my hand"

Mouse took my hand and he stood in a state of shock as I took my feet off the wheelchair and pushed my feet off the ground.

"Jay, what... the-" Mouse didn't know what to say

"I had high intensity physical therapy and I took my first few steps a few weeks ago."

"Man i'm so happy for you"

"Thanks man I just hope this will give Erin at least a little bit of hope. I'm gonna go see Erin now but i'll call you later"

"Sure thing man and I hope Erin is ok"

I wheeled myself to Erin's room and went in but when I entered she was still asleep. I went next to her bed and took her hand, "Look Erin i'm so sorry this has happened and I promise you that you are going to be ok. I love you so much and i'm never going to leave you again-"

"Jay?" Erin slurred

"I'm here, i'm here"

She opened her eyes to see me sat next to her, "What happened?"

"You're at med, you collapsed"

"The baby?" my heart broke for Erin so I grabbed hold of the side of the hospital bed and pulled myself up on to it and took a few steps until I sat on the bed, "Jay you're walking?"

"One of the reasons why I left was I knew a guy who could give me the best physical therapy possible and I took my first steps a few weeks ago"

Erin started to cry as she was so proud of me but then I watched her put her hand down to her stomach and she had a look which I had never seen before, "Jay what happened?" She cried.

"Babe they did everything they could and they tried there absolute best but-"

"We lost our daughter?"

"I'm so sorry Erin"

Erin sobbed into my chest and we both cried together trying to over come what had happened to us.

Two days later

"How you doing?" Jay asked

Erin just shrugged her shoulders and Jay shook it off, "I brought you food" he said sitting next to her on the bed

"I'm not hungry."

"you haven't eaten for two days please?"

"Ok, I guess"

Erin and Jay ate breakfast together when Erin looked at him, "Thank you" She said as a tear rolled down her face

"It's only breakfast"

"not for the breakfast you idiot... for the past few days, I know it's been hard on you too and you have still been there for me so thank you"

"that's because I love you and I wouldn't have it any other way, anyway I went to physical therapy this morning and I've been wanting to show you something" Jay moved his legs off the bed and took Erin's crutches and she watched him walk around the bed on his own,

"I'm in love with you so much"

"I love you too" Jay said leaning over and kissing Erin.

They both laid in silence in the bed when Voight walked into their room, "Hey guys, how're you doing?"

"Taking it day by day I guess" Jay said

"Well I just came to check on how you were doing and the rest of the team send their love, plus I heard you were going home tomorrow?"

"Yeah but we are going to both going to move back into the apartment together, so I'll just get my stuff tomorrow"

"Well I'll check up on you later, Jay can I have a word outside?"

Jay turned to Erin, "Well I guess this is a better chance to practice some more" Jay grabbed the crutch and walked towards Hank, "It's great to see you on your feet again plus we are a little out of people at work.

Jay and Hank got out the room and he turned around, "How's Erin doing really?"

"I don't know, I don't think its really hit her yet"

"Well you need to be here for her and don't take off again you understand me?"

"HOW DARE YOU... I lost my daughter too, we both lost our child so you give us both time and I promise my life that I would never leave Erin again, I have to get back to her I'll see you later." Jay said walking slowly back into Erin's room.

The next day

Jay was on his way to pick Erin up but first he made a quick stop off at the district, "hey guys" He said as he got to the top of the stairs.

"I heard you were walking but I didn't think it was true" Antonio said hugging Jay

"Yeah with the crutches but i'm getting better... Hey is Mouse here?"

"Yeah he's downstairs, I'll get him."

Jay walked over and sat at Mouse's desk, "Hey man how you doing?" Mouse said

Mouse stood in front of Jay as he started to sob. Mouse grabbed a chair and sat in front of him, "Hey man it's ok, what's going on?"

"I can't deal with this man, I was supposed to have a little baby girl, how does this happen?"

"You know people say it's not the right time, this might be this time for you as well, but you have to remember that although you want to be there for Erin you also have to grieve for yourself"

"I know it's just so hard" Jay said wiping the tears from his face.

Mouse and Jay sat talking when Ruzek and Kim made their way up the stairs, "so, so, so who's ready to see baby Ivy and baby Amelia- Jay hey i'm sorry man" He said after his exciting entrance with Ivy in his arms.

"No man it's fine, it's good to see people happy and enjoying themselves, anyway I have to go pick Erin u from the hospital so see you guy's later and thanks for the talk" Jay said leaving the district.

Jay got a Uber to Med and as he got out of the car he saw people looking up towards the roof of the hospital and as Jay walked towards the building he saw a woman, "Excuse me, what's going on?"

"There's a woman sat on the edge of the building, look"

Jay looked up to see someone who he recognized, "ERIN!" He shouted as he rushed into the hospital.

What will happen to Erin? Please comment or review.