Speachless Shinigami

by Solo Sagara

[I do not own Gundam Wing or any of the characters]

A/N: I feel a tad bit bad for taking so long to write this. Sorry. And yes, I know I said this would be the last chapter. Well its not. Everything should end NEXT chapter. Yes, I know it sounds familiar and I know it might not be true. BUT so what, you guys enjoy this, right? Why want it to end. Oh yeah, and the other G-boys will finally reappear next chap, thats a promise.

"Talking"

'Thinking'

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Chapter Eleven - Confusion

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"So, when are you plannin' on telling me where we're goin?" he asked, keeping his pace up along with Heero's.

They had just set out, and were walking down the sidewalk, towards town, yet again.

Heero had that normal look on his face. Completely aware of everything, but not interested in much of anything. "I'm not." he said in his normal tone.

But something was different. Even though it didnt show in his appearence, he seemed to be...enjoying himself. But then again, Duo could have been imagining things.

"So Heero," he began, holding back a yawn. "This place, is it any fun?" he asked, sliding his hands into his pockets. Heero didnt answer, of course, and just kept walking.

"I shoulda took a shower when I got up..." Duo mumbled to himself. Heero shook his head slightly, quickening his pace abit. They were entering town now, and he wanted to get to the place just as they opened.

"Ah....mornings just aint my thing, ya know?" he kept mumbling and complaining, rubbing his eyes.

Heero kept walking, not really paying any attention, anymore. That wasnt totally true, though. He was hearing every single word Duo had spoken, but he just wasnt registering it all completely.

Entering town, he crossed the street, not waiting for Duo at all, who was starting to fall behind. When he finally noticed how far back Duo was, he stopped and waited patiently for him to catch up. The problem was, Duo wasnt moving at all.

Duo stood still, staring at particularly nothing but the ground. He had been thinking about how oddly Heero had been acting lately, and he wanted to know why. More than anything at the moment, he just wanted to know why. It was driving him up a damn wall.

Heero stood, wondering just what the hell Duo was doing. "Duo." he called out, loud enough for Duo to hear him, but not loud enough to draw a whole lot of attention.

But Duo heard nothing at all. He was drowning in a sea of thoughts and emotions.

To Heero, this was unusual. Duo was not the type to stand still for more than a few minutes to think, and this was starting to feel like forever. Heero didnt want to admit it to himself, but he knew he was somewhat worried about the braided boy. This was just too out of character for both of them, and Heero could only sigh at how pathetic he thought he was.

'What is it...with him..?' Heero's mental voice rang out through his mind. He hesitently started to walk towards the shinigami. Shinigami? he never really thought of Duo as the shinigami. He knew Duo better than that. Better than anyone else, he thought.

Finally, he reached Duo, standing only a few inches away. "Duo." he repeated. Recieving no answer yet again.

Duo wasnt totally aware of what was happening, but he rose his head enough to lock eyes with Heero.

There he was. Heero Yuy. The perfect soldier. The man he cared so deeply about, but never wanted to admit it, even to himself. This man was causing Duo to break a promise he had made a long time ago. A promise he never wished to break. The promise he made to himself, to never love anyone again.

Loving was too painful for him. He had loved only a few in this world during his short life. And every single person he held close, had went away, never to return again. He didnt want to handle that kind of pain again. Such pain was worse than death. At least with death, you only suffer for a little while. But with this pain, you suffer for the rest of your long, miserable life.

Heero could only stare into the eyes of this so called god of death. He seemed almost lifeless, standing there, not moving an inch but to breathe and blink occasionally.

Finally, after much debating, Heero lifted a hand and placed it on Duo's shoulder. He squeezed, just a bit, to try and get the boys attention. And he finally did. Duo snapped out of his daze, finding Heero staring straight into his eyes, and for the first time in a very long time, Duo felt unbearably nervous.

"H-Heero?" he managed to murmur out, almost too silent to hear. Heero caught it, though, and his hand was quickly removed from the other boys shoulder. He didnt bother to say anything. He simply turned around and was about to continue to their destination, when he felt the grip of Duo's hand grabbing his arm.

"Heero," he sounded nervous, and scared. Much to Heero's surprise. He didnt turn around, though. He only stood silent, waiting for Duo's words.

"I need.....I need to know why." he finally said, with much hesitation. There was only silence, and this began to annoy Duo, abit. "Heero." he said firmly, this time, walking around and standing in front of his comerade.

Heero and Duo's eyes met, yet again. A long string of silence followed, but this time, nither of them seemed to mind it. Heero sighed mentally. He knew he had to tell him. He knew this, but he couldnt bring it to words.

Even he didnt understand what was going on in his mind. His feelings for Duo were strong. But just what feelings were they? He didnt think of Duo as just a friend; there was more than that. Neither did he think of these feelings as something siblings would share.

He was so confused about everything, almost as much as Duo was himself.

Duo eyes seemed as if they were begging for an answer. Anything at all would ease his mind. Heero knew this. But what could he say? He didnt know. He sighed, closing his eyes and shutting Duo out, yet again.

"Duo.." he mumbled under his breath, when he heard Duo starting to walk away. Duo wanted anything but to stop, but Heero's words had that effect on him. It seemed to freeze him in his spot, not being able to move until Heero had spoken the words to do so. Without turning, or bothering to move at all, Duo began to speak, trying desperately to hide the mixed feelings in his tone.

"Why? Why cant you just tell me, Heero?" he clinched his fist, knowing his words sounded so pathetic. Heero, finally opening his eyes, looked over at Duo. Not knowing exactly what to do, for once, he searched his mind desperately for the answers. This was it. No matter how it sounded, or how badly he didnt want to say it, he was going to say it. He was going to try to explain this the best he could.

"Duo," he started, still a bit hesitent, but he would continue no matter what. "..Its...its not that I dont want to tell you, Duo." There, he finally came out with it. Finally, for once in his entire life, he said what he was thinking.

Duo was abit shocked to actually hear Heero respond. And the reponse he made was shocking, aswell. He took a deep breath, trying to gather himself, before he turned around and stared at Heero, standing only a few feet away.

"Then why? Why wont you? Its not like I'm gonna bite your head off if I dont like your answer, ya know?" he was trying to get back into being the normal Duo that everyone knew, however obvious that it may be.

'This isnt the time for jokes..' Heero thought. Even though it wasnt an actual joke, he knew Duo was just trying to lighten the mood. He could feel the horrible weight in the air that both of the boys had casued just by standing there and speaking to one another.

"Lets go." he said once more, almost as if the morning had started all over again. He turned around, and began walking out of town, almost the same direction they came from. Duo was at abit of a loss, but he was more relaxed now, and he just wanted to get away from all the people and be alone with Heero Yuy.

Maybe this was his chance.

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TBC
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WoS, Yo!
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Solo: -bows formally to everyone with a nervous smile on her face- Please, please forgive me for forgetting about this fic. I assure you, it was an accident. I got caught up in other things and have been very busy with having a new job and all that horse shit.

Duo: How could ya forget about us...? Thats kind of depressing, ya know?

Solo: What are you, Raijin?...Anyway, I'm sorry Duo, Heero. I didnt really forget about you guys though, I have been watching alot of GW lately. So it was just the fic to be honest.

Heero: Yeah. -he mumbled, crossing his arms, mentally thanking whatever force that made her forget, just so he could be free of this nonsense, if only for a little while-

Solo: -sticks her tongue out at the 2 and turns to the readers- THANK YOU, REVIEWERS!!! I appreciate each and every one of you. I LOVE YOU ALL! -blows kisses and passes out cookies shaped as Heero and Duo kissing-